Choices

Choice fifty two: Lily

Petunia,

I know that we haven't been close for many years but you are still my sister which is why I'm sending you this letter, and may I point out that this was sent by Royal mail and not by owl so sometimes I really do think of you and what you want.

Things are turning bad in my world, and although I'm sure you will pretend not to care I feel I must tell you at least something's while I am still able to. First there are many deaths and disappearances and it might only be a small time before I too am gone from this world.

You might think this has nothing to do with you, but I know that even your world is being affected. For example the deaths that have been said to be gang related and are probably being reported on the BBC have all been done by someone in my world, someone very evil named Voldemort.

You'll remember that I had been pregnant the last time we met, I know that you were to and I know that you had a son named Dudley, I bet he's a treasure and I know that you love him with all your heart, doesn't it make you feel even closer to mum because the way you feel for him is how she felt for us, it makes me appreciate all the choices she made in her life for us.

As for me I too had a son, Harry James. I know you'll be thinking what a common name but I wanted to name him Harold but Sirius our friend decided to shorten it to Harry and it's just stayed. He's a lovely boy and I love him with all my heart and would do anything and everything for him.

That brings me to the reason for sending this letter to you. You must understand that things are very dark here and it's a scary time to be like me, its made me wonder what would have happened if I had never agreed to attend the school I did, but looking at Harry I know I would do it all again.

The evil man, Voldemort he's after us, I mean James, Harry and I you are safe he won't come for you, Vernon or Dudley I give you my word that as long as I have breathe in my lungs my entire family will be safe and that will always include you.

But since he wants us dead it has left us with only one decision we must go into hiding and I'm not sure if we'll ever be able to come out. Petunia I'm scared, really scared I wish that mum was here so she could give me a hug and tell me that everything will be okay, but I'm the mum now and it's my job.

This letter is my goodbye to you. I know that we haven't seen each other in such a long time and I could probably go into hiding without telling you and you'd never now but you have to know in case I don't come out of this alive.

I love my family more now than ever before and I wouldn't change anything about my life. Being born to our family gave me a chance to grow and learn things that many here don't know and then getting this life has improved me. I know I wasn't the best person I never pretended to be perfect and I don't now.

I wish you all the best in your life for eternity Petunia. I hope that you will get the chance to grow old with Vernon, have many children and grandchildren that will surround you and make you happy.

I've hated the distance that took over our relationship but I have always loved you and I always will nothing will change that you are my big sister and thank you for everything, you're guidance helped me to learn, you're coldness showed me that there are aspects of us all that people won't like but your love has meant more to me than anything.

If I live through this time I will come visit you, and I promise that I will come by public transport wearing a nice skirt and top and will not embarrasses you. If not I will await the day our family will once again be united.

My love for all eternity.

Lily xx