Choices

Choice fifty five: James

Imagine finding out that somebody you trust doesn't deserve that trust. I'd have never thought that one of my friends would be untrustworthy but the evidence I suppose has been in front of me for so long but I just don't know who it is.

There is only one thing I feel certain of and that is Sirius isn't the traitor. I know Sirius as well as I know myself and he hates the Death Eaters. They remind him too much of his own family and he has always hated them.

I know Dumbledore told me about the traitor because he wants me to think long and hard about whom we choose but the more I think about it the more I think the traitor could be Remus. Now don't get me wrong I love Remus like a brother but lately he hasn't been himself.

I suppose it started about a year ago when my dad died, he became more withdrawn especially when he lost his job. Then there is the fact so many of the Werewolves are joining Voldemort, now that doesn't actually mean Remus is the traitor but he seems to be trying to pull away from us.

Then there's Peter he's too scared to join Voldemort I think he acts like he's weak but if he came face to face with a Death Eater he could easily win with the spells he knows but there's no way he could be a traitor, I don't think he'd be able to hide it from us.

Scarlett well she's deeply involved with the Death Eaters but she uses them to get what she needs this is so difficult to decide. I think I'm just going to have to go with my instinct and ask Sirius if he says no well then I'll have Dumbledore.

How can you really choose who you're going to trust not only with your life but with the lives of your loved ones? I can't be the one to make this decision and after speaking long and hard with Lily we've decided, its going to be Sirius. I can only hope that the choice I have made it the right one and that my trust in him is justified.