Choices

Choice fifty eight: Sirius

The more I think of the task ahead of me the more I think that I'm the wrong man for the job. Don't get me wrong I love James, Lily and little Harry and I'm very close to them but that means that it's obvious that they would pick me.

I mean if I was a Death Eater, let's say Snape, because lets face it he's evil, I would look at the people around the Potters and think which one is he likely to ask to be his secret keeper. I mean it's obvious I'm his best friend he's going to ask me.

Then Remus he isn't stupid even if he has made a bad choice he'll know that James has picked me and he'll tell Voldemort and then they'll come after me, and I can run and I can hide but they'll catch up with me, unless I too get a secret keeper, but I don't want to hide away not like James has to.

The more I think of this the more I feel that we have to do something bold that nobody with any sense will see coming, we have to switch but more importantly we can't tell anybody.

I went to James this morning knowing full well that the spell is going to be done tonight and told him what I think. I could tell that he wasn't happy but there is logic to my madness and he knows it. We spent all morning sitting there talking about it and he knows that its right which is why we're going to swap.

He wanted to tell Al I could tell but if Dumbledore knows that's one more person and even though there is no doubt that Al is on the good side he is only human and therefore open to making a mistake, even if the entire wizarding world doesn't think it.

We looked through our friends who we could ask and the person was right under our noses, there is only one person who can take my place and nobody will suspect and that's Peter. He's stronger than he thinks and he'll be able to do the spell no problem and because people see him as weak they won't consider him to be the keeper.

Of course we shall have to convince him but more importantly we'll have to convince Remus that I'm the keeper. I don't like lying to my friends but I know there is no other choice in the matter as this is the difference between life and death I just hope that Remus doesn't see this coming.

Just want to let you know that for the next two weeks there's probably not going to be a post because I have two essays to write and two seminars to prepare, but as soon as they're out of the way you'll get you next post

Kris