Chief Security Officer's personal log. Stardate 1.2345.6789.0
I behaved very illogically this evening. After getting my letter from T'Pel, what would be described by humans as a "Dear John", I let my emotions take control. The letter was a shock, and forced me to admit to what I had been avoiding, but my behavior was still un-Vulcan.
I have always loved Captain Janeway as my best friend, but recently, I realized that I love her as more than a friend. I don't know when it happened. I think it might have happened when we mind melded. It was so comfortable sharing my soul with her.
I vowed not to reveal my true feelings. Although I was no longer in love with T'Pel, I still care about her and respect her and would never do anything to harm our marriage. Now that we have no marriage to harm, though, I don't have that reason. I am unsure of what the logical thing to do is.
At the same moment, Tuvok and Janeway each decided to go and finish the conversation that duty had interrupted. Janeway headed towards Tuvok's quarters, and Tuvok headed towards Janeway's. They passed in the hallway, stopped, and turned around to face each other.
They cleared their throats and said, "Oh, hi...you're just the person I'm looking for."
Once again, at the same time, "Business or personal?"
"Personal."
They walked to Tuvok's quarters and sat down. At the same time, they both said, "You first."
Tuvok began, much to Janeway's relief. "I didn't get a chance to finish what I was in the middle of telling you. I told you that I felt relief that I am no longer bound by my vows to T'Pel, but that I felt guilt because of that relief. What I didn't tell you was why I felt relief."
He continued, "Please hear me out before you say anything. You are my best friend. I don't know how I could have endured this separation from my family without your presence. Your strength and courage has been an inspiration to me. For the longest time, I refused to admit it, even to myself, and I don't know exactly when or how it happened, but receiving T'Pel's letter forced me to deal with the issue..."
Tuvok took a deep breath, almost afraid to say what came next, "Kathryn, I think I'm in love with you."
Janeway was stunned. She had hoped that by allowing Tuvok to speak first, she might still be able to change her mind and not tell him of her feelings. Now that he shares those same feelings, she had to say something.
"I love you, too. That's what I was on my way to tell you. I have been in love with you for a long time..."
Her sentence was interrupted by a tender kiss that said it all.