Author's Note: I hope you like it. This is my very first fanfiction that I have finished…..ever. xD Flames are welcome. Enjoy it. I also do not own Rurouni Kenshin or any of its characters. Thank you.
When You're Gone
By: Broken Soul Bloody Wrists
The purple eyed samurai slid open the door, a confused expression placed upon his gentle face. His red hair danced behind him as he flopped his head from left to right, side to side, searching for the other guests of the dojo.
"Miss Kaoru?" he called, his sweet voice echoing and bouncing off the dojo walls.
He got no response. He peeled off his sandals and laid them on the thin mat. He stepped into the dojo, the confusion now shining brightly in his eyes. He decided that maybe Kaoru was lost in her dreams inside her room. He softly padded his way to her door, and with using the tip of this knuckle, knocked on her door lightly.
"Miss Kaoru?" he questioned again. "Are you in there?"
Gaining no response Kenshin silently slid open the door and slipped inside with experienced grace. He peered with trained eyes around her room, his violet eyes darkening in serious worry. She hadn't said anything to him today; he hadn't seen her at all, actually. He let loose a quiet sigh as he walked over to the small wooden desk that held several sheets of paper, each with something scribbled on the surface. However, one particular caught his gaze.
He reached down and grabbed it delicately in his small calloused hands. He brushed the pad of his finger over the darker shades of tan were stained onto the paper, a sure sign she had been crying when she was writing.
His eyes widened when he read the first sentence.
"To Kenshin, my Love. I know not if I'll have the courage to give this to you or to ever tell you how I feel…But say I were to die soon, I know you would wander into my room searching for me, and I hope you would find this. My love is always to you, my heart beating right next to yours. I'm sorry, my love. Goodbye. Signed Kaoru Kamiya."
His lavender eyes welled with tears as he whispered out hoarsely to the dark nothingness of her room. "Wha..What do you mean...K-Kaoru? My Love, what are you talking about? My dear, sweet, Kaoru."
Kenshin fell to his knees in defeat clutching the letter into his shaking hands. His limbs stung and his eyes burned. His heart was ripping and tearing apart by the seams, never to be held or sewed back together again. Only Kaoru had the ability to mend his heart after Tomoe. Only she had the power to do so…And now he'd lost her too!
He stood up, his bangs falling over his now gleaming amber eyes. He would find her, she had to know he loved her. He shot out of the dojo and pockted the letter into his black hakama. His navy blue gi had opened a little ways, showing off the battle scars he had received when he was known and feared as the Hitokiri Battousai. His eyes narrowed as he gradually came to a hault. He heard a slight 'thump' but he couldn't pinpoint its location exactly. He began to search.
He looked around tree and behind large boulders until he finally reached a clearing. It smelled of the strong copper scent he knew so well. Blood! His eyes snapped open wider, his head thrashing about to find the source until finally, he gazed upon the sight he dreaded to see.
Kaoru was hanging in a tree, her foot banging against the hollow sounding trunk as the wind twirled her limp body 'round and 'round. Attached to her fragile neck was a thing tough piece of rope, the frays staining forever with the blood that dripped from the deep puncture it put into her soft skin. Her coarse fingertips dripped with the blood that spilled rapidly from the deep slits and cuts in her wrists. They traveled in different patterns, up and down her arms. The splashed to the floor to gather into the large puddle that held every last drop her body released.
Kenshin, on unsteady feet, wobbled over to her with such a pain in his heart. This time he knew it was real, not like the time with Enishi. Kaoru…HIS strong, brave Kaoru was dead. However, a spot of tan that was blemished in scarlet caught his eye. He leant down with unsure hands and picked up the piece of smeared and smudged parchment. On it, was a poem she had written before she took her own life.
'The rain falls down on my heart
Pitter patter, it falls apart
Then your smiles light my day
Wish the rain and sorrow away
When you hold me, I feel l can fly
But it's when you let go that I feel I die
When my skin burns ice and my heart beats cold
I know its you that I want to hold
You that I want to beckon in my arms
So you can release all this pain you harbor in your heart
You make me wonder everything in life
Allow me ability to bite back my strife
You give me all sorts of pains and tears
Yet it you who comforts and warms my fears
You allow me comfort and safety and love
Even when the stars dim from above
When the moon falls down and the sun burns out
I know its you who murders my doubt
When the stars refuse to glisten and the world fails to turn'
"To you Kenshin, my love. I will forever guide you. Love, Your Kaoru."
After all the pain this day brought him, Kenshin dropped hard to his knees and wept into his hands. He cried far harder than he had when Tomoe left. Tomoe would want him to love again, she would understand. He then threw his head back when the rain started to fall down, the heavy weight of it try to press him to the muddied soil and sopping grass. He had his eyes closed as he opened his mouth. He let out a heart wrenching scream.
"KAORU! I LOVE YOU! MY KAORU! My…Kaoru…." His voice, now labored and ragged, fell to a silence as he trailed off.
"I miss you…," he whimpered. "I love you…."
Warm hands pulled his chin up, brushing his fiery bangs from his glistening amber pools.
"And I love you…My Kenshin….My Shinta…"
His eyes widened and flooded to the brim with a fresh wave of new tears at the mention of his name. His real name. He closed his eyes and sucked in a shaky, uneven breath and he felt the wind brush over his soft lips, warming them with a gentle caress. When he opened his eyes, he was met with nothing but the heavy trees, dark gray sky, and Kaoru's lifeless body hanging right above him. Wordlessly, with blank gold eyes, he unsheathed his sakabatou and slashed the rope that had tangled and twined with her thin thread of fate.
Her body dropped into a heavy heap in his arms. Nothing was flowing through his mind now, nothing flowing through his heart as his blood drew cold in his veins. His Kaoru was gone…She was gone.
Author's Note: Well? Like it? Love it? Hate it? I'd like to know what you think. I hope you liked it. It is my first fanfiction and I'm actually really happy that I'm posting it here. I also am getting an account at When I post something there, I'll be sure to let you know, but my name is Lay Under The Moon. I hope you liked it. Bye de bye.