Choices

Choice sixty two: Sirius

I can't believe that it's happened like this, my one goal was to keep James, Lily and Harry safe and I've let them down, James and Lily are dead. I can't get my mind around the fact that Peter was the traitor I mean it was Peter!

I hadn't seen them since that night when I left after the meal, its only been a week but the thought that I'll never seen them sitting at the table again or Lily running around the wards is too much.

I'd thought it weird that Voldemort hadn't come after me I was sure that Remus would have told Voldemort by now but I suppose since we put their lives in the hands of the traitor he didn't have to come after me.

When I found out what had happened, well I had been in work and word came instantly well more or less of the defeat of Voldemort and that Lily and James had been found dead. Everyone in the hospital was silent because well Lily was somebody everyone had known but me I ran outside jumped onto my motorbike and took off to Godric's Hollow and their home.

I reached it and found Hagrid standing over the wreck and going over to him he had Harry in his hands, I asked for Harry to be given to me after all I am his godfather but Hagrid said that Dumbledore had ordered for him to take him to his aunts.

As soon as Hagrid said that I realised something, James and Lily were dead, Peter was the traitor but everyone thought that I was the secret keeper there was nobody to back me up and would they believe that Peter had done this, well that wasn't likely I had to get him before he disappeared for good.

So looking at Hagrid I moved over to him and kissed Harry's forehead, doing so I saw a small lightning shaped scar the sign of what Peter had done to his parents. I muttered that I was sorry it was my fault after all, I might not have held the wand but I convinced James to change to Peter.

So giving Hagrid Lucinda my motorbike I took off in search for Peter, he wasn't that difficult to find but when I cornered him on that muggle street and people began to watch us he screamed how could I, how could I do that to James and Lily.

I'll admit I was shocked and didn't react quickly enough, he sent off a spell I don't know what but it blew up the street and then there he was as Wormtail on the floor crawling through the grate into the sewers.

I ask what could I do? I'd just been out done by Peter Pettigrew the tag along. I just started laughing, I knew this was the end for me, Peter had made it so, but I know that he's still out there somewhere and I know that I'm innocent the Dementors here at Azkaban can't cause me more pain than knowing that.

I can only think about what I have done by letting Peter be the keeper, I helped him to get at James and Lily and now Harry will never know his parents. I swear though I shall get out of here one day and hunt that traitor down even if it's the last thing I do, it is my only choice as nobody else is going to make him pay for what he has done.