Choices

Choice sixty four: Scarlett

I've known a lot of hurt in my life. I lost my mother and sister to Voldemort and now I've lost my best friend. It's strange to know that the people you love have all been taken from you. Sirius betrayed not only Lily and James that night, he betrayed Peter when he killed him and me and Remus by taking everyone away from us.

It's a hard thing to know that I'll never see Lily's smiling face again. That I'll never hear that laugh or have her hug me close and tell me that everything is fine and that what I've been doing was right. That I was helping to defeat Voldemort.

The only consolation I suppose is that Harry survived and that a bit of Lily and James will get to live on. That with Lily and James' deaths they took Voldemort with them. We're all safe and that's fantastic.

There is one thing though. I know that I can't stay now, that I will never be able to call this place my home again. I know that England was always the place I felt happiest but not anymore. I can't stand to be here. It's only been two days since my best friend's death and I can't cope.

Everywhere that I look reminds me of Lily and James in someway. I walk down the street and think I see one of them. I sit in my house and remember when Lily use to live here and run down the stairs smiling with something to tell me.

I shall have to leave there is no other choice. I am Italian and can speak the language fluently so I will move to their ministry work for them and leave my past behind. I shall forget about England being my home and move on in the only way that I possibly can and that is by looking to the future and not the past.

There is one thing I shall have to do first and that is attend the funeral but after my goodbyes are said I shall be gone for good and that is my decision this place has too many sad memories for me.