Choices

Choice sixty five: Remus

My life has been filled with many tragedies but none so bad as the last few days. In a matter of two days I've lost everyone who was ever important to me and there's nothing I can ever do to get them back.

I suppose the first person I lost was Sirius and yet I didn't even know it. He was a traitor working for Voldemort. He was like the rest of his family only he was much better at hiding it from us. I swear I thought that he was a good man that cared for people but I have never been more mistaken.

Then there was James. He truly was a great man. He was there for me through so much and never judged me. He was killed by Voldemort on Halloween. I know that he stood tall and faced the man that was destroying our world because that was the kind of man that he was. He wouldn't back down he would try everything to save the ones he loved.

Then there was Lily. She and I didn't get off to the best of starts but she truly was one of the best people I ever met. She had a way of seeing good in you even when you couldn't see it in yourself. She was caring and fun and died to save her son and that was Lily to a tee always doing what she could to help.

Peter was the next friend I lost. He was a great guy and although most found a lot of fault in him when he was needed he was always there. He was braver than most thought and his death showed that to our entire world. He hunted down Sirius and tried to make him pay for what he had done to Lily and James. But Sirius killed him, leaving only his finger behind.

Harry too was taken from me. I suppose that with Lily and James gone it was bound to happen. I mean I couldn't take care of him. I'm a werewolf it's impossible but I thought I would still have a part in his life. But since he's being raised in the muggle world by Petunia I won't be able to meet him until he's started Hogwarts.

I suppose the last friend that I have lost is Scarlett. She said she couldn't stay here anymore not after everything that has happened and I don't blame her. Its tough and I feel the need to escape as well. I know she's going to Italy and I suppose it isn't a permanent goodbye like the others because we'll keep in touch through owls.

She did stay long enough for the funeral. It's strange but the entire wizarding world was celebrating the defeat of Voldemort and had seemed to have forgotten that two great people were killed in the process.

There was a good turn out. People from the hospital and the Aurors turned out to give their last respects. Then there were those that had been in the Order with us and the professors from Hogwarts. I think the surprise guest was Petunia who turned up with Harry. She had come to say goodbye to Lily and I suppose that says something about the women.

I held Harry that day and so did Scarlett. Then we said goodbye and he was gone from our lives and then Scarlett too left. I can't believe this is the end of so many of my friends and I wish I could change it. I don't want to be left on my own. But I have only one choice and that is to move on with my life, and I know this is the hardest choice I've ever had to make.

And that my friends is the end of this story. I hope that you have enjoyed it as much as I have. Thanks to everyone who read and reviewed and to the lovely Annie for all the beta work that she did for this.

Kris