Title: Tears from heaven

Summary: Farf whished someone would understand him, that someone could see past the madman, but no one does, that is until Ken finds his notebook and reads his stories (the story is better than the summary) kenxfarf Shounen-ai don't like don't read

Warning: Shounen-ai eventually, don't like, don't read and I warned you so don't flame oke

Disclaimer: I don't own Weiss kreuz/Knight hunters, but I do own the story

Authors note: Ok I'm really, really sorry that I didn't update sooner but I had a major writers block on this one, so I tried to do my best. Well enjoy and please R&R.

Chapter 04: Dear diary…

Dear diary,

You know that guy I told you about a few days ago, you know the psychopath.

Well he was here last night, that's right here in this house.

I didn't think one of Schwartz would ever be so stupid as to come here, but he did…

First it was terrifying; he acted like he was going to kill me just because I read his story. Actually he always acts that way, it wasn't anything unusual for him to do…but the look in his eye's… the look in his eye's just terrified me.

I don't know what was so terrifying about them, like I said he usually looks like that, you know the 'I'm going to kill you' kind of look.

But then every thing changed when he…he…he kissed me, on the lips.

Of course I was disgusted by this, but then the strangest thing happened... he started to cry.

Can you believe it! A member of Schwartz crying in frond of his enemy! No one in the right mind would ever even try to picture that!

But then I guess…. he isn't right minded….. so he did, he cried in front of me and the funniest thing is, that I felt sorry for him.

"You think I'm a freaking psychopath, don't you?" those are the words he said to me.

I felt so sorry for him, I wanted to make him stop crying, to stop, no…. actually I wanted to stop feeling sorry for him, I didn't want to pity my enemy, but I did… I couldn't help myself.

So I said "No! I don't think you're a freaking psychopath!" or at least I wanted to say that, but the look in his eye's….

And again those eyes you must think, but you wouldn't believe how many emotions those eyes can show.

Really those eyes are amazing; they can go from killing mode, to crying, to whatever… There's only one emotion I have never seen in those eyes before….. happiness.

But I guess that I never will see that emotion in his eyes… I don't even think anyone will.

But why, oh why do I feel sorry for him, maybe I'm just too sensitive for this work, I mean, no I mustn't think this way.

I'm Weiss; he's Schwartz we're enemies! That's what we are enemies…

Ah darn! I wish I would never have found his stupid notebook!

But I can't turn back time, so I must live with it…. it's so unfair!

Oh I must go, Aya is going to be pissed if I'm coming late… again.

Bye!

#end diary scene#

"Ken hurry up! We're going to be late" Yohji screamed.

"Coming" Ken screamed back as he rushed of down the stairs and out of the door.

It was a beautiful morning, the sun was shining and the birds where singing. The only sound in the house was the sound of the clock ticking. Farfarello sat at the dinner table, rays of light shining on the piece of paper as he wrote. He liked it when it was quiet in the house; it was an excellent opportunity to write a nice piece of work. But unfortunately the house being this quiet was very rare.

He looked outside the window. He saw some children playing by the pond, they where smiling. He was jealous of those children, they where so carefree, so…. so….naïve. Most people would be angry if they were called that, naïve. But sometimes naivety was better than knowing the truth.

"You write a lot lately." Farfarello looked at the person who said this. Nagi was sitting in front of him.

"Yes, it's the only way to express my feelings," Nagi nodded

"I understand,"

'No you don't' Farfarello thought 'no one does'. There was a long silence between them.

Nagi looked outside the window, he looked deep in thought, then suddenly he turned his head and said "you had that dream again, didn't you?"

"How do you know?" Farfarello asked.

"I heard you scream." Another long silence. Nagi sighed breaking the quiet "if you want to talk about it I'll be around" he said. Farfarello nodded as Nagi stood up and left the room.

After a few minutes Farfarello also stood up. He walked trough the house, or it was more like strolling. He looked out of the window again, the children were gone. He sighed, why did his life need to be so complicated. Deciding that he needed some fresh air to clear his mind he got his coat.

He started his walk trough the park as leaves started to fall. Fall was his favorite time of year, it was a good time to think and to reflect on your life. He looked at the leaves falling. It was a pretty sight, or at least that's what he thought.

The park was big and there was just no end to the road he was walking. But he didn't care, he actually liked it. It was just like walking the road of life, there was just no end until…

Farfarello stopped, he had reached his destination. The pool. Now this may sound funny to you, Farfarello going to a pool, but he actually liked it there. Not many people would look for an assassin in a pool, which was why it was so perfect. But that was not the main reason he was going there, he actually liked swimming. It was a good way to relax and to let go of all your worries.

He began to undress himself as he slowly began to remember his dream.

#Flashback#

"Why are you doing this to me!" he screamed to the man.

"Because you need to be punished," the man said.

"Why!" Farfarello screamed hysterically "Why! What did I do to you!" The man smiled, no, he smirked. That smirk kind of reminded Farfarello of Brad.

"It's not about me it's about them" the man pointed to the corner of the room. Farfarello's eyes became wide from shock of what he saw.

#another Flashback#

"What is this?" Farfarello asked as he looked trough the room. The room was filled with huge bookcases and in every bookcase there were scrolls. There was also a long scroll that lay on the floor.

"This is the document on all the people you killed or hurt in any way, they can not heal".

#end Flashbacks#

Farfarello put on his swimming trunks and walked out of the dressing room. He looked around; perfect there weren't too many people. But when he was about to go into the water he heard a voice behind him saying, "what are you doing here?"

He turned around and saw Siberian. "Ah how nice to see you here kitten" he said smirking.

"Why are you stalking me?" the kitten asked, he sounded frightened.

"What are you talking about?" Farfarello asked.

"Your stalking me aren't you? Just like last night"

"I wasn't stalking you then!" Farfarello said.

"Then why did you kiss me?" and with that there was silence.

Alright this sucked, dam you writers block! Uhum sorry I got carried away, but anyway please let me know if you liked it. Oh and I might not have so much time for this anymore because school's starting again here, so I'm sorry. Oh and you might think it's strange that I did not responded to your review(s) but they decided that you may not respond anymore.

-Neko-Thenshi