11/9/2005
Chapter Five: Saying Goodbye
A/n: I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I'm sorry! Please review and enjoy!
Time passed slowly. And yet, when it was gone, it didn't seem like enough. Yugi steadily got worse, his energy draining slowly but continually. It was so strange to see him, seemingly perfectly fine, yet growing weaker by the day. Fortunately, he did not suffer long. Though, as Shadi predicted, he did suffer. Horribly. Everything became a blur at this point, until our final moments.
As I came into the room, I noticed something… different. Or, I should say, felt something different. Not exactly… evil, but the atmosphere of the entire room had changed. Yugi's eyes were closed as I approached the bed. He didn't stir. I grew afraid, thinking maybe… maybe… but then he stirred. His eyes fluttered, and then opened.
"Yami?" He whispered. He could barely speak by this point.
"What is it Yugi?" I knelt by his side.
"Please don't… please… don't feel guilty…" Inside, I could feel my heart break. Count on Yugi to always know what I was feeling or thinking. Even in separate bodies, we were still connected.
"Yugi, I…" I didn't know what to say. Looking back, I think I knew there was nothing left to be said. Then, I just knew I didn't know how to say goodbye, to let go. I could tell he was growing weaker, and his time was fast approaching. He could barely hold his eyes open. I knew that if I was going to say anything, now would have to be the time. I leaned close to him.
"Yugi, I just want you to know how proud I am of you. How proud I have always been. And don't worry. I don't feel guilty anymore. I wish this didn't have to happen, and I'll miss you Yugi, but I'll be ok." At this I choked up, and could no longer speak. Yugi just smiled, closed his eyes, and took his last breath. He didn't have to say a word. That smile told me everything. He had heard me, and without telling me, I knew he felt the same. Sometimes I look back and think I didn't say enough, that there was so much more that needed to be said. But I know that's not true. I said everything I needed to say.
Well, there it is. My whole, sad tale. And ever since that day, that day my light was taken, I have fallen further and further down. Yugi was the only thing keeping me up, keeping me sane. With him gone, I have nothing left, no one to turn to. The darkness beckons me, calling me into its shadows. I have tried to fight it, but now, I have given up. Long gone are the days of fighting, eventually triumphing in the end. For now it is only me, and I cannot fight alone. And so, in the darkness, I make my home.