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Things Will Never Be The Same
She's dead.
My mind can't seem to register what happened. It's like a bad dream that won't disappear and keeps replaying in my head. It just happened so suddenly. We had just stopped the missile launched by that bastard Ari from crashing into the harbour. Kate was lying on the rooftop from the impact of a bullet that had hit her and was caught in her vest. One moment we had helped her up and she was talking to Gibbs and I, the next she was lying on the rooftop again, only this time with a bullet through her forehead, blood pooling around her head and her lifeless brown eyes staring back at us. It was only yesterday she told McGee that our lives were threatened every day on this job. Little did she know she would be lying at my feet dead less than 24 hours later.
I just can't believe she's actually gone. It feels that at any moment she'll walk through the elevator doors and yell "April Fools!" even though it's near the end of May. It'll never be the same without her. No more teasing "Probie" together. No more flirting with each other. No more Kate…. I never even got the chance to say goodbye. Never got the chance to tell her I'm sorry for all the times I've been an idiot and tormented her. Never got the chance to tell her how I actually feel about her. If Gibbs had killed Ari at that coffee shop when he had the chance, none of this would have happened. The missile wouldn't have been stolen let alone launched. If Gibbs had killed that bastard when he had the chance, she wouldn't be dead.
As I stand beside the steel autopsy table she's now laying on in the morgue, I hold her cold lifeless hand and tell her all the things I never got to tell her, hoping somehow she can hear me. I don't give a damn if anyone is watching me; all I care about is that I get all off my chest. Before I leave her I make her one last promise, "I'll catch that bastard for what he did to you, or die trying."
A/N: Hope you enjoyed it:)