"Wondering – 6"
Author: Stephjag aka Steph
Email: http/ I do not own the JAG characters; they are the property of CBS, Paramount Studios and they belong to Donald P. Bellisario.
Classification: Vignette / Drama, romance Harm and Mac
Rating+13 (just to be on the safe side)
Spoilers: "What if" just for the big lines. Every shipper moment through season 2 and season 9.
Summary: Mac's wondering about the road not taken.
Author's note: Sorry for this long waiting for another chapter of this story, but I had lost any inspiration I had for it, but it's back and I promise the next chapter will come sooner. Sorry again.
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Part Six
2343 ZULU
Reflecting Pool
Washington, D.C.
No, she didn't say what I heard, Harm thought; I must have dreamed these words. This is impossible—she's with Clay now. I must be dreaming.
Harm looked into his friend's eyes to be sure he'd understood the answer. He had dreamed so many times about her saying those words to him that when she was actually saying them, he couldn't believe them.
"A… Are you sure, Mac?" he asked hesitantly.
"I've never been more certain of anything in my entire life, Harm," Mac answered simply.
"But you and Webb? You are together now… and as much as I want to I won't…" he started, but was silenced by Mac's lips upon his. Harm's heart skipped a beat when the tip of Mac's tongue softly brushed his lower lip to beg entrance, deepening the kiss. They only broke contact when in need for air.
"There is no Webb and I anymore, Harm. There never really was…" she said in a low voice. "It was a fairy tale, a dream. The relationship I shared with Webb was nothing more than a lie."
"I'm sorry, Mac…" Harm replied softly.
"There's no need to be."
"Maybe not for you, but for me there is, because I secretly hoped for it – I hoped your relationship with Clay would not last," Harm told her, looking at his hands.
Hearing his confession, Mac couldn't suppress a soft laugh. She lifted Harm's chin with her right index finger so that he could see that she was pleased by what his words.
"Oh! So that's what you wished, Mr. Rabb?" she asked him, a hint of smile in her voice and a faint indignant look in her eyes. Then she broke into crystal clear laughter. It was contagious because Harm laughed as well.
"I love you, Mac. I love you so damn much," he said, turning serious again.
Mac could see that Harm really meant his words by the sincerity evident in his voice and shining in his eyes.
"I love you too, sailor. I always have and I always will, and I have been a fool for having fought my feelings for such a long time."
"In that case, Sarah, I think we've been both fools," he told her, amazed how easily her given name rolled out of his mouth.
As always when he called her by her name, Sarah Mackenzie shivered. She didn't answer, instead leaning forward to kiss his lips. This time Harm was seeking permission to deepen the kiss, which Mac gladly granted by opening her lips under his.
To be continued….
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