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'Why d' we hurt de ones we love de mos'?'
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/REMY/
Remy lay on his back staring out the window from his bed. It was slightly drizzling outside, and the evening was slowly rolling in as the sky grew more dim and dark. He felt a slight shiver run through his body and walked over to turn on the heat in his loft.
He turned to the stereo and turned up the volume.
/I'm not a perfect person…
There's many things I wish I didn't do… But I continue learning,
I never meant to do those things to you…
and so I have to say before I go…
That I just wantcha to know,
I found a reason for me, to change who I used to be…
A reason to start over new…
And the reason is you…/
It was a suitable song, which fit his situation and the weather. He looked at the photograph on the shelf, it was one of him, Marie, Wanda, John, Lorna, Bobby, Piotr, Kitty, Lexa, Pietro, Angel, Betsy, and a few of his cousins, along with the rest of the X-men. It was taken at his birthday party a couple years back. Marie had done soo much planning to make it the perfect surprise for him…they looked so happy.
They had gone on a quaint ride on his bike. He remembered her arms holding him tightly as the wind rushed around them warmly. The path they were taking to a secluded picnic area was lined with tall trees with low hanging branches that had crisp golden and brass colored leaves delicately falling from falls brush. The scent so fresh was warm and comfy.
He remembered Marie leaning into him and she whispered into his ear….
"Happy birthday mah love…" as he smiled softly at her words they neared the secluded picnic area and he was surprised to see all of his friends and family gathered with a barbeque going. They all gathered as he and Marie approached, he was so shocked to see his family from New Orleans were even there.
That day had been one of many of his best memories since Marie came into his life. He didn't get to see his family often and she knew just what to do to alleviate some of his longing.
She always knew him best…
He put the photo back in place, and turned to gaze around his place. The place was a complete mess, not like its usual appearance. Like him, now a mess.
'Dieu I miss dat girl…s' much…' – He thought sadly.
He thought back to the night a couple days ago. A night he would never forget…it haunted him something awful since then, it was the night he lost his heart…the night he realized he had made a grave mistake, he had finally done it, caught up, and he had broken his Marie's heart, the look on her face…and the feelings she was emitting…oh Dieu it made him sick to his stomach, who knew it would hurt this much? It never did before he met Marie, he did this to many women before. They knew the stakes though…that it wasn't actually for keeps, he was a different young man back then, his life up till then had led him to a fast life with fast women…but then again he had always known Marie was a completely different woman and completely different case the moment he laid eyes on her.
Sure at first she was off standish, hot tempered, and feisty, he knew it was apart of her due to the fact of her mutation and past but then there were moments when he had finally gotten to know the sweet, and caring side as well. She was a warm hearted person, and wow, the moment he saw her without her makeup one time he was sure he had stopped breathing. He'd fallen and didn't even know it for some time.
He loved those eyes…twin emerald gems, against soft porcelain, encased by silky glistening copper tresses, and twin snow soft streaks that framed her face nicely. She always had this soft look in her eyes, it always shown her emotions through them. That night they were hurt, screaming betrayal, and defiance, anger…and sorrow…and sadly, despair.
(((Flashback)))
'MERDE!' –Remy screamed in his mind.
"Who's your friend?"-Fox asked.
An interesting smirk played across her features as Marie turned around.
Marie just turned looking directly at Foxxx…'Don't fuck with me bitch, ya don't know who yall playin' with.' Marie thought.
She smiled simply, completely composed and gone were the tears. Remy was shocked and confused at the sudden change and cool demeanor.
"Ahm Rogue, we're not friends. Actually…ah just thought ah knew him is all." – Marie stated firmly and sweetly.
'Ah'll get you somehow, Foxxx…you knew he was taken and yall still went foh him, Karmahs a bitch…This isn't ovah bah far…' –Marie thought as she walked off but not before giving Remy the coldest stare.
Her eyes were soo empty and icy that Remy shuttered, he had never seen her look at him that way. Ever.
'We're not friends… we're not friends… just thought Ah knew him.'- Her words echoed in his ears…
"FOXXX, git offa m'-Remy need ta get goin'…"- Remy started to say as he watched Rogue's retreating form, forcefully shrugging off Foxxx' touch.
He turned to her saying-"Listen. Remy tink it be best if we stopped dis…"
Foxxx was completely putt off and frowned, "WHAT!"
Remy sighed- "Listen Remy sorry buh he don' wanna see ya gain' Remy gotta go…"
He was so flustered he just hastily shoved past her, 'M' need t' find mon amies…VITE!' (fast)
Foxxx- 'That third person thing like just got real annoying.' She thought.
(((End flashback)))
Remy sighed again for the billionth time it seemed… He looked out the window again as the rain beat against his pane.
/JOHN/ 'Whoy d' we 'urt the wuns we love th' moest?''
John slammed his hand down against the table and threw his pen across the room. He looked down to the paper he was previously scrawling on, he had doodled Wanda over and over again. He stormed over to his kitchen and decided maybe food would get his mind off things for a while.
Taking a pot out to heat some water, he walked over to the sink and gazed out of the small window while he filled the pot.
He set the pot on the stove and started to heat the water. He made his way over to the stereo and turned it on. His thoughts briefly going back a couple nights…
((Flashback))
-do you even love her?" –Wanda asked casually, her voice echoing in John's head.
'No…I love you Wanda.' He thought…
"Good-bye John. Good-bye John. Good-bye John. Good-bye John…"
"Love please…" –John said pleadingly and tried to stop the tears from falling…his heart from aching, only to be interrupted by none other than…
"Hey Pyro, wanna light my fire baby?Like I do so wanna go down, DOWN under right now…"- Amara said from behind John.
With that Wanda turned around…Hands glowing dangerously blue and eyes gleaming with murder.
The walls started to crack and the hall twisted hideously, threatening to crush them…
HeXxX
Amara was hexed unconscious.
Wanda proceeded to rack the girl against the wall mercilessly. Hexing John's lighter away and open, she set the girl's clothes on fire leaving her in a more scandocious get up.
Smirking satisfiably, she pointed to John and with the coldest glare she said, "This is not ovah aussi, not by far big boy!" and with that she hexed his lighter, melting it to nothing, and stormed away.
((End flashback))
Sighing loudly he motioned to blast the stereo. He needed the noise to numb him, numb him from the ache he had from betraying the one woman he loved. Ever would love.
Left to his own thoughts he thought 'Crikey! Whot was oye thinkin'! Sheila il' neva trust me again…'ave oye really lost my Love?'
Getting her to trust him was such a trying ordeal. The fact that she was always guarded by Rogue and X was thee biggest hurdle he had to cross.
She had been through so much and finally after all the violence on her part she somehow opened up to him.
She was an interesting shiela…like Rogue and X, she too was very untrusting and had a tough as nails attitude too! The moment he saw her he fell in love, it could have been for the fact that upon meeting her she nearly hexed Pietro to a crisp. That was just one of many qualities she had that ensnared him.
Maybe the fact that no one else but them two had this secret understanding that no one else could share. Many said they both were crazy, literally, to which they couldn't understand but they both were on the same level that many were not.
No one else could truly get him. Sure the others could tolerate and laugh with or at him but she truly got him. She was the first to really see beyond the insane humor and see the real him.
He doubted he could ever find another firestarter like her….
'Oye was su lucky ta 'ave a shiela loike 'er…'
He had this coldness come over him…one that not a flame could warm.
/I'm sorry that I hurt you…
it's something I must live with everyday…
and all the pain I put you through…
I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears,
That's why I need you to hear,
I found a reason for me, to change who I used to be…
A reason to start over new…
And the reason is you…/
/PIETRO/ 'Why do we hurt the ones we love thee most?'
"FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!" – Pietro shouted, as he hurled the champagne glass across the room.
"FUCK."- He said once more.
'That's what got me inta this mess.' – He thought.
The rain was really pouring now and he thought about the first time he met Lexa…
She was standing in the middle of the field near his estate. Intrigued, he swiftly made it closer to her.
She was a vision upon coming closer. But she stood there as still as a stone statue. The rain now beating down upon her, she turned to face him. A calculating stare ensued, and all he could do was stand there like a dumbfounded idiot.
"The fuck are ya starin' at bub?"-she coldly stated.
He said nothing, just stood there staring at her. From that moment on she had his heart, funny because shortly after that she nearly skewered him.
Since then he found someone he could care for, and her care for him. She was always there for him to confide in.
I mean it's rare you find a girl who loves sports, outdoors, cars, and at the same time was still very feminine enough to enjoy shopping, fashion, make-up, and being romantic.
Not to mention he loved their meaningless arrogant pissing contests and banter. They were almost as bad as Remy and Marie. Almost.
Right at this moment he knew he loved her and only her. So much right now that it hurt. Why oh why did he have this fucked up idea in the first place when he had all he wanted in her? 'Why did I even think that there could possibly be some babe better than the one I had!'
Most people cheat because the relationship is lacking in something. That he knew for sure there was nothing lackin' in their relationship.
The other is that some just have an insatiable need to want and be wanted by as many people as you can get to fall.
None of the reasons had to do with them, so the question is why? Did he really mean to hurt the one and only person he loved on purpose?
((Flashback))
"Do you love her Pietro Maximoff…?
Does she love you like I love you?
Does she hold you like I held you?
Is she there for you as I was there for you?
You have my heart pie…. How could you just throw me away like that? …
Didn't I love you good darlin'?"- Lexa more asked herself than him.
"Lexa please, it's not like that…
I was stupid, I wasn't thinkin' babe, I-"-He sputtered out franticly.
"Hey Pietro-Oh hey…what's your name? Is my baby daddy inviting you to our baby shower?"-Exclaimed BoomBoom feigning innocence as to ever meeting this girl.
"Actually…"-Lexa turned around evil smirk in place.
#SNIKT-SNIKT-SNAKT-SNAKT-#
"I was inviting him to a front row and center view of this!"- Lexa shouted and hurled towards the other girl. Within seconds the other girl lay on the floor pummeled good. A shocked Pietro still staring on as his ex wailed on his….his…his biggest mistake ever.
((End flashback))
Clutching his head in frustration and angrily settling into the sofa, he let out a long hard sigh and tried to huddle near the warmth of the fire place seeking any kind of warmth from the coldness slowly creeping up on him.
/I'm not a perfect person…
I never meant to do those things to you…
and so I have to say before I go,
that I just want ya to know,
I found a reason for me to change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do…
And the reason is you./
This wasn't suppose to turn out like this, they were just gonna have a few flings and then when their girls got back they'd quit it, well one thing led to another and before things could be stopped the wheels were already set in motion, guess that's why you should never start somethin' you fully don't intend on finishin'-especially not when you can't handle the repercussions. But everyone eventually has to atone for their actions…for everyone involved…including the brawds they were cheating with. Especially Marie, Wanda, and Lexa…hearts were on the line and they knew it. They knew their girls didn't deserve this…but what could they say? It was done…they had to find a way to fix it. Get them back and hopefully…..undo the damage of their mistakes.
Forgiveness…as Remy, John, and Pietro contemplated things, that was the one thing they truly hoped for.
'Why do we hurt the ones we love the most? Simple question, no simple answers.'
A/N: Thanks so much for those who review, I greatly appreciate them and love reading them they are motivation but really I just write to contribute since I enjoy reading fic.s as well! Anyway enjoy! Don't worry things will get better but in order for that to happen they've got to get worse, a lot worse. What was seen and heard and said up next!