You're even more beautiful when you're asleep, if that's even possible. You're smiling, maybe having a good dream? I hope it is one.
It kills me to hurt you like this. I hate to see you cry, especially over me.
But there is a way I can make you happy in this body. I'll be your brother, if you want it that way. If you really like being nee-chan, I'll be your little brother. I'll let you hug me and fuss over me and be proud of me when I bring home my report cards. I'll try on outfits I hate because you think they're cute and I'll let you show me off in them to your friends. I'll even try to be nice to Kogoro and Sonoko.
And when you cry at night I'll do what I can to comfort you. I'll let you squeeze the life out of me like a stuffed animal, should it be necessary.
You open your eyes and are surprised at first to see me, but you quickly relax. It's only your little brother, your Conan-kun.
"Conan-kun, what are you doing here? You should be asleep by now."
"I...I had a scary dream." I lie. You smile softly and sit up, pulling me into bed with you.
"Alright, you can sleep with me tonight." I nod and yawn as you cuddle me to your body. Your warmth and scent relax me and make me tried. I force myself to stay awake for a few minutes after you're back to sleep, just so I can study your sleeping face.
This is the way we are. I need you and you need me.
I love you so much.
My nee-chan.
My Ran.