:D Hiyaa! I realized I haven't updated in a while, not enough reviews? I don't know, and it was my birthday a few days ago.
Anways, here it is though, next chapter is the final chapter. Please enjoy!
PS: DO NOT LAUGH AT MY POOR POETIC SKILLS!
And I hope this chapter was angsty and made you cry...that as my goal...
Alot of people told me Kagome should die... .:grins:. you guys read my mind.
When you finish reading please read the ending author note, it's VERY important!
What you mean to me
He was still in his little dilemma when Kikyou got a nasty look and pushed InuYasha a bit far from her…and before he had time to react she took out her bow and arrow and shot.
At first, everyone froze and looked at InuYasha who was too shocked to move out, but after a second or so, he realized he felt nothing and looked back…so did the others…
InuYasha gasped as he realized that the arrow wasn't meant for him…it was meant for Kagome…
Everything went in slow-motion. InuYasha turned back desperately trying to move faster, but it was still too slow.
He willed his body to move fast as his heart stopped beating when he saw Kagome fall to the hard ground.
When he came to her…she had already fallen to the ground. He went down on his knees and picked her up slowly…the arrow had gone right into her heart.
"Ka…Kagome…" He told himself, not believing that she was dying…not believing he couldn't do anything. His eyes were irritated from trying to not let any water fill them up.
"InuYasha…I- "
"Shh…Kagome…I have to tell you something…"
"What is it?" she asked weakly.
He was rocking her body in his arms…her small cold body. He could smell her blood pouring out and he felt like crying.
"I want to tell you…what you mean to me…, he HAD to tell her…if he didn't, he would regret it for the rest of his life…he took a deep breathe and started, What you mean to me…Oh god Kagome…you mean so much to me..."
"I-" she tried starting but got cut off again.
"No, let me finish!" he said growling.
"You mean sunshine, you mean happiness, you mean cheerfulness, you mean ramen, you mean something so fragile…yet so strong…, you mean love, you mean more then just a shard detector to me…you mean someone I have to protect, someone I have to shield from the world's evilness, someone sent to help me…become a better person. From the moment I saw you, you changed my life. You didn't seem to care that I was a lowly hanyou more then if I was a highly respected youkai, you didn't care about your own life just to protect mine so many times… (referring to movie 2 again), you always stood there for me…even when I chose Kikyou over you, you didn't flee from me when I turned youkai, you didn't back down on me on the first dangerous thing, you…you showed me how to care, how to love people. Because of you, I have two close friends…and a son…and because of you, I learned the true meaning of love…You mean the WORLD to me Kagome…" he said from the pit of his heart.
Sango and Miroku smiled a little bit at this sign of affection from him to them.
Shippou's eyes started tearing up when he realized the son was him…
Sesshoumaru left a while ago to save Rin as soon as he heard about her getting kidnapped by some lowly demon…
Kouga looked sadly at Kagome, not even bothering to insult InuYasha about not taking good care of his Kagome.
Kagome had tears going down her cheeks softly.
"You told me what I mean to you, now I'll tell you what you mean to me…to me…you mean someone I have to help see that the world isn't only bad…it's also nice…there are nice people out there who would respect you just as I did…to me, you mean someone I have to cook and take care of, since you don't take care of yourself…" she tried continuing but she felt herself growing tired and weaker, she knew she was dying…
So she ended her long tirade…
"To me…you mean someone I love and will always love…all I want for you is to be happy…so be happy, and live your life with Kikyou…good bye…" she said closing her eyes.
InuYasha continued rocking her body
"NO! WAIT! KAGOME! I didn't get to tell you yet! COME BACK! NO!" he yelled drastically.
"I LOVE YOU, please come back, please don't leave me when I finally realize it…please…please don't leave me…please…" he said rocking her and himself back and forth, not even trying to cover the tears in his eyes anymore.
His heart felt like it was being squeezed, hard enough to feel the pain, not hard enough to end it and kill him.
He felt like dying, he felt like killing himself, he didn't want to live a life without her…he couldn't…
"InuYash-" before Sango could complete her sentence; InuYasha had taken off with Kagome's body and ran. To where? No one knew…but they did know that he would bring Kagome's body back intact…he would want her to be buried respectfully.
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He was running fast…he could feel the wind whipping his cheeks. It hurt…but nothing hurt more then what he was feeling inside.
He looked down at the body that was tucked in his haori's big sleeves to protect her from everything.
Why did it have to happen?
His eyes glowed red.
He had just found out he loved her…
His claws grew longer.
And as soon as he did…he lost her…
Purple streaks grew on his cheeks.
She passed right through his fingers.
He stopped running and let out a loud howl as he transformed completely.
Take note that it was still raining outside.
He hid Kagome's body so it wouldn't get wet and fell onto his knees again.
(A/N: This poem is my copyright so don't take it without my permission...well i doubt you'll take it but..yeah.. And please don't laugh at my poor poetic skills .:twitches:.)
Remember when we first met
By the biggest tree in the forest named after me
I'll always regret
Not realizing how special you could be
He had yelled at her, he had insulted her when they first met…he hated her for being like his past love…how did he end up caring so much?
I thought you were like her
You were going to hurt me like she did
But now I see that you are kinder
And that I was stupid
Even when Kikyou was in all her normal state…she only helped people because it was her duty…Kagome did it because she would prefer die then to not help them.
You were so much more
But I couldn't choose
Over a dead corpse
Or a live girl
Kikyou or Kagome…a question he asked himself so often…
The dead corpse wanted me dead
The live girl wanted me happy
Such a simple decision
But I couldn't see
When it was evident he should have chosen Kagome…
How could he be so stupid? How hard could it be to choose from a dead girl from one that was alive?
Apparently very hard when you're stupid.
Now That I finally realize
That you're the one meant for me
This is when fate decides to get rid of you
And this is when everyone laughs at me
(A/N: Was it very bad?)
He was a fool…for not realizing everything sooner. If he had set his heart straight and had chosen Kagome first, nothing would be like this now.
He ran to a place he hadn't come in a while…wait…that wasn't true, he came just 5-6 months ago…because he wanted to show Kagome his sanctuary…
It was a place his parents had made for him before he was born…it was his castle in a small part of the western lands.
True, no one ever talked about it, but he DID own the western lands with his brother, the two were too work together if any big problems aroused, but for the small details Sesshoumaru had to do the work.
In a small cozy area there was a large house. He ran there and got in. He took off Kagome's wet clothe not even caring about modesty, and changed her into a dry pure white kimono that suited her so pretty. Even dead she looked lovely.
He brought her up to a room, which showed to be his, and laid her in his bed. (A/N: He is not necrophilia, lol)
He sat next to her and looked at her with a tender look…well as tender as his demon eyes could become.
His fingers tried reaching her face, but it didn't come close enough. He could feel the tip of his fingers aching to touch her soft skin. He came closer and touched…and immediately he got purified and became hanyou again.
His golden eyes widened as he finally got the full impact that Kagome was…dead…her skin was cold…it wasn't radiating off heat anymore.
"Kagome…" he said as he hid his face in her raven locks trying to catch what little smell of her there was.
Males didn't cry…but he didn't care right now…it hurt so much…so fucking much!
He couldn't understand why it hurt so much…how could the death of one girl have such an impact on him?
He knew why…because it wasn't any girl…it was Kagome…she didn't deserve this…
She didn't deserve this at all!
A tear fell out of his eye and dropped on Kagome's porcelain cheek.
She didn't deserve it…but there was nothing he could do now…except one thing…
He slowly unsheathed Tetsaiga.
It was his only option…
He didn't see any other way out.
"I love you Kagome…" he said as he slowly headed the tip of the now transformed tetsaiga towards himself.
And this is where the title comes from, What you mean to me. :D
Now, the important thing. Do you guys want a happy ending? Or a sad ending? Or a sad yet happy ending:D Please tell me in a review...which leads to...
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Miko