To schmusekatze =^_^=
Well, since Gojyo here is already mad as hell at me, I decided to give him a rest for a while. I think I will change the rate to R next chapter. ^_^. It is about time to give Gojyo something for all those suffer I had put him through, right? ^_~

To Immortal Shadow
Thanks for reviewing. I appreciate that!

To gallatica
I still hope you will want to read it. Thanks! By the way, what makes you think I'm a Malaysian? Just asking. ^_^ Oh, I realized that I didn't include Sanzo and Goku last chapter and I decided to put them here. Not much, I'm afraid but then, I try to squeeze all the fighting scenes in one chapter!

To blinkie
Oh my god! You've been reviewing me from the first chapter and now you're still reviewing me! I'm so happy!!! Your words really, really encourage me to write through my entire hectic schedule! Thank you so much! ^_^. And I'm glad you like the Gojyo X Kenshin's part. I racked my head to make as sensual as possible! P/S- Kenshin is really demented for planning to kill Hakkai using Gojyo. But…don't you think the writer is more demented? ^_~

To LN Tora
I rreallly enjoy reading your review! ^_^. Yes, I'm aware that Gojyo's best appeal is he being a half-breed and I'm not going to forget that! Being evil as I am, I think a little side effect from the potion is in order, right? ^_~. * I knew Gojyo is going to kill me! *

* Sniff * All your reviews make my sooooooo happy. Sorry for the long overdue though. I finally got a day off and I spent the whole day typing this chapter! Now, I'm going to sleep dreaming of Gojyo!

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A Curse of Taboo Child
Chapter 7: Insatiable

Hakkai was so consumed with his anger that he almost didn't notice the person that Kenshin had brought with him. And when he did, his emerald eyes went wide with recognition. "Gojyo!" Hakkai said. But Gojyo didn't move or answer Hakkai which made Hakkai felt a little bit of regret that Gojyo didn't even lift his head to meet his eyes even for a while but yet relief, when he saw Gojyo was still alive.

Gojyo didn't know how he was supposed to react in this kind of situation. Never, in his life, had he been brought this low, feeling so damn humiliated and unbelievable hopeless. Now, after forcing him to go through the painful experiment last night, Kenshin obviously thought that the punishment for saying other man's name while it was he that was on top of him wasn't painful enough. After hurting him physically last night, Kenshin wanted to make sure he suffered more and deeper by allowing Hakkai to witness his misery and humiliation. Gojyo caught a slight glimpse of Hakkai's expression when he heard Kenshin's words and with his emotion was completely in disarray, Gojyo concluded that Hakkai was shocked and disgust. When he heard Kenshin announcing that he had used him in the bed like some cheap strumpets, Gojyo wished that the there would be a huge, deep hole to swallow him and let him out never again.

Right now, Gojyo was still shaken from the last night ordeal that he was on his knees, head bowed, hair concealed his expression, hands chained to his back and exhaustion consumed every muscle of his body. When Zean forced his potion into the crimson-haired demon's body, Gojyo started to feel some kind of craziness and frighteningly uncontrollable lust for everything. Gojyo didn't know whether it his or Kenshin's luck that he was chained tightly against to the wall when the feeling aroused because if he wasn't, Gojyo doubted that Kenshin still standing here, beside him, smirking so arrogantly. But then, Gojyo didn't know how he would control the craziness if he ever managed to kill Zean and Kenshin at that time. It was when Kenshin secured a single silver choker around his neck, did Gojyo feel the self-control came back to him. Ch… at least he managed to break Zean's nose and ribs when he went crazy…

Is that how it feels to be a fully demon without any control device? Gojyo thought uneasily, suddenly terrified of what might happen to him after all this ended. If he ever survived, that was it. But he thought demon without control device cannot feel and think anything. He, in the other hands, was totally aware of the whole situation. It just the matter of controlling the insanely lust and craziness that consumed him so hard that it pained him just to strain himself. Bloody hell! Gojyo cursed. What have they done to me?! Why did they do this?! Didn't all they want from me is my blood?

Despite of what Gojyo thought, the feeling of disgust never crossed Hakkai's mind. When Gojyo saved his life three years ago, Hakkai developed a strong sense of respect and admiration to Gojyo and gradually, through Gojyo's always thoughtful gestures and his sexy smiles and winks, those casual emotions transformed into something deeper and more meaningful. Even Gojyo in his lowliest condition, the feeling could never change. And now, seeing Gojyo looking so worn and wounded, inside and outside, Hakkai experienced a rush of hot-blaze rage that he had never felt before. How dare… How dare that bastard touch Gojyo! His Gojyo! I'm going to make him pay for every damn scratch he inflicted upon Gojyo! Hakkai thought with a strong will of determination.

"Let go of him," Hakkai's tone was deadly calm, like a hot-balloon waiting to explode. Kenshin scrutinized the man that had apparently claimed most of Gojyo's thoughts and lusts. What the hell did Gojyo see in him, Kenshin didn't know. To him, Hakkai was too cool, too calm with no sight of flame inside him. Even his verdant eyes were icy, which were narrowing threateningly. Hakkai's fists tightly clenched to his sides, telling Kenshin that Gojyo wasn't the only one who felt that way. Hakkai was returning his crimson-haired demon's feeling and the discovery irked Kenshin so much. He knew he was going to enjoy immensely the fight between Gojyo and Hakkai.

"You want me to let go of him?" Kenshin asked silkily.

"Yeah, you horny demon!" Goku shouted as he posed his weapon in front of him, getting ready to charge any attack. "Release him now, or I'll swear you are going to get it!"

Kenshin let out a soft laugh and he kneeled beside Gojyo, who still held his head down and breathing hard from the aching pains in his body. Slowly sliding his hand to the back of Gojyo's head, Kenshin whispered softly to his captive. "What if I released you from the choker as well? Let's see if you can control your insanity in front of your friends…"

Gojyo's heavy breathings almost stopped and his body went rigid at Kenshin's threats. Suddenly, all his questions about Kenshin's intentions were answered and mixture of emotions such as rage, disbelief and most all fear that he might hurt his friends surged through his body. "You wouldn't dare…" Gojyo hissed angrily, without looking at Kenshin. He was afraid his face expressed more than he wanted to show.

"Watch me, Gojyo!" Kenshin hissed back. Suddenly, his merriment at the whole situation disappeared and was suddenly replaced by jealousy and annoyance. "I vow to break your spirit and I'm going to start now!" He, then, grasped Gojyo's vibrant hair tightly, making Gojyo almost winced with pain.

Hakkai could see Gojyo's body reaction, although he couldn't see Gojyo's face, and he knew that the raven-haired demon had said something that shocked Gojyo. The verdant-eye demon would give anything just see Gojyo's face, wondering if his lover was in pain because he swore he could see Gojyo was having a hard time just to breathe. But what Hakkai saw next shocked him beyond belief.

"You want him?" Kenshin asked sarcastically to the three figures in front of him, ignoring the other two demons that were watching the scene with equal wariness. "You want this half-demon, Hakkai?" With that, Kenshin pulled Gojyo's head, forcing the crimson-haired half-breed to lift his face, facing his friends, and deliberately showed off the silver choker to Gojyo's friends. "Or should I say full-demon, instead?"

Damn him! Gojyo's head screamed with unbelievable rage. He purposely wants to show the control device to Hakkai! He wanted to slit Kenshin's throat! He wanted to cut off the fucking demon's limbs! Oh, he really wanted to do every single painful thing that he could do to Kenshin for putting him in this kind of bloody situation! But if only this throbbing pain in his body stopped and his hands unchained…

All of the four people's, including Sanzo's, eyes went wide with disbelief. Gojyo's face was pale and losing the sexy tan and around his neck, the silver control device gleamed. What the hell?! Sanzo thought. Gojyo is a half-breed! He doesn't need any limiter! But the truth was undeniable. The choker was securely chained around Gojyo's neck. Goku still was uncertain of what he saw. "Hakkai…"Goku asked slowly. "It's that… a control device?"

Hakkai was first ceased to breathe and now his chest went fast with unconstrained anger. "What the hell did you do to him?!" Hakkai shouted. And Gojyo's eyes went wide with surprise. Hakkai swore? The very same always-smile-and-polite Hakkai? Gojyo braved himself to look at Hakkai and for a split second, their eyes met for the first time in four days. Gojyo immediately looked away, unable to see the same soft-hurting emerald eyes, for it hurt him too. Please don't let him sympathizes me… Gojyo silently prayed. I couldn't take anybody's pity… especially not Hakkai's.

Kenshin noticed the slight exchange and he was pissed beyond belief. Tightening his grip on Gojyo's flame-colored hair, silently warning him, Kenshin looked directly at Hakkai. "You want him? Then I shall give him to you!" With that, Kenshin unchained the limiter and the cuff around the hands and Gojyo's eyes went wide with trepidation, wondering if he could control himself before he hurt his friends with his awareness was fully awake.

Sanzo watched Kenshin's action, suddenly alarmed when he realized that Kenshin wanted to take Gojyo's limiter off. Not wanting a crazy half-demon (or was Gojyo a full-demon now?) running loose around him, he immediately lifted his gun and pointed at the raven-haired demon. He shot the demon a second too late because the control device was already fell on the ground with a clang and Kenshin, as quick as lightning, jumped out of Sanzo's shooting line and went away from Gojyo. "Shit!" Sanzo swore.

Gojyo braced himself on the ground, instantly feel the insanity consumed him. Breathing hard, Gojyo looked up and looked at Hakkai, who was already halfway in his way to reach out for Gojyo. "No…" Gojyo rasped, desperately clung on his last sanity like a drowning man. "Stay away from me, Hakkai!" But it was too painful to be stubborn against the blood-thirst lust.

"No, I'm not going to leave you!" Hakkai retorted. His left hand quickly reached out for the discarded control device and the other hand was put on Gojyo's shoulder.

"Leave! I can't control myself!" Gojyo's breath was heavier and suddenly an unknown strength flooded through his body. Unexpectedly, Gojyo used his left hand to fling away Hakkai's right hand and punched Hakkai squarely on his jaw, causing the shock Hakkai to be thrown several feet away. Gojyo's red-eyes went empty, cold but he didn't transform into a full demon (no pointed ears and no sharp claws) because of his human side. Outside, Gojyo looked so different, cold and unapproachable but inside his head, his awareness was struggling hard with the insanity.

"Hakkai!" Goku shouted and leaped forward to protect his friend. But he didn't know what to do because the one that was attacking Hakkai was his friend too. So, Goku stood in front of Hakkai, pointing his stick towards Gojyo, while Hakkai was still recovering from the shock and pain from Gojyo's sudden attack.

Gojyo slowly stood up, watching the two of his friends looked at him warily through the cold and empty eyes. Inside, Gojyo was hurting when he saw the suspicious looks and silently he wished Goku would attack him and finished off his misery. Kill me, Goku! Gojyo shouted. Kill me before I kill you! But his body wasn't his anymore, for it started to ready itself to kill whomever in front of him.

Sanzo saw Goku's dilemma and he cursed soundly. "Oh, fuck it!" He started to run towards Goku when Kenshin suddenly appeared from nowhere and stood in front of him. "You're not going anywhere, Genjo Sanzo." He said arrogantly, which pissed off the already-angry Sanzo. "I'm not going to take any chances with a Sanzo who can create a control device with his sutra." Obviously, Kenshin had totally forgotten about the limiter that he had dropped earlier.

"Go to hell!" Sanzo retorted and swung the butt of his gun to Kenshin's head. But Kenshin was too fast that he quickly drew his head back to avoid the attack, grasping Sanzo's hand and punched his stomach. Sanzo was thrown backward but his towering pride forbid him to utter any pathetic sound. Shit! As if I didn't have enough trouble in my life! Sanzo thought as he scrambled back on his feet.

Goku was completely torn into two. He wanted to protect Hakkai but with all his heart he wanted to be near Sanzo. "Sanzo!" Goku broke his eye contact with Gojyo and looked sideway to his master. Sanzo was being attacked! "Argh! What am I to do?!" Goku shouted.

Hakkai got on his feet, drawing a deep breath to calm himself down and wiping away the blood at the corner of his lips. Putting a comforting hand on Goku's shoulder and his eyes never left Gojyo's fiery ones, he said firmly. "Go to Sanzo, Goku. Let me handle this."

Goku didn't need another encouragement from Hakkai and he ran to protect his master from Kenshin. Sanzo glared at Goku, who was already beside him. "Who needs your help, idiot?" Not that Sanzo wasn't grateful with Goku's concern and help, but his pride prevented him from expressing it and made him said all those nasty words. With Kenshin fighting Sanzo and Goku, Hakkai and Gojyo were alone to fight each other. So now, everything went perfectly according to Kenshin's plan and a triumphant smirk curved up.

Far from the scene, two demons watched the scene motionlessly. "What do we do now, Kougaiji?" Dokugakuji asked.

Kougaiji went silent for a while as if he was thinking. "I need Sanzo's sutra. But I also need to stop the crazy killing of taboo children and those stupid rumors. If the raven-haired demon was the demon who responsible spreading the rumor about taboo child's blood, we'll gain something no matter which side wins."

"Are you saying we just have to watch?" Dokugakuji said without any tone of displeasure.

"If you don't mind, that's it," Kougaiji looked at his subordinate, wondering whether he wanted to fight for his half-brother.

Dokugakuji watched Kougaiji and he knew that he should put his loyalty to Kougaiji above everything. Firmly, he shook his head. "Whatever your order, I'll follow you and only you." Kougaiji nodded his head with appreciation.

Goku had a trace of hurt look in his huge golden eyes when he heard Sanzo's words but the hurt gone as quickly as it came. Didn't he have spent the many years listening to Sanzo's sarcastic and cruel words? Why this time would bring any different? Goku opened his mouth to whine as he usual did when Kenshin took that very moment to took out his weapon (it is a long metal stick) and attack him. The head of the stick hit right on the still-unaware Goku's stomach. Goku was thrown backward and when he tried to stand up back, he was angry to Kenshin for attacking him like that but at the same time amazed by Kenshin's strength. Cool! He thought as he readied himself for another round.

Kenshin smiled at the obviously excited child-like demon. Pointing the stick to Goku, he said, "I can see that you like whenever you met someone who is stronger than you. I also know that you are bored with all those weaklings that you've been to fight. I'm like you." Then, he swung the stick back to in front of him. "Let's see if you're up to my expectation!"

"Good!" Goku answered back with both enthusiast and determination. Sanzo glared at Goku. "Ch… Don't get too carried away, monkey." Then, both demons leaped towards each other, a stick clashed loudly with a stick with such a speed and skill that no ordinary demon could surpass.

After some time striking and dodging each other's attack, Kenshin finally swung his metal stick to Goku's head and Goku quickly evaded his head. At the same time, Goku attacked Kenshin. The latter, whose weapon still pointed to Goku, knew that he couldn't defend himself. Shit! Kenshin thought before he felt the excruciating impact on his chest and now, it was his turn to be thrown backward.

As Kenshin staggered a few steps back, he finally noticed that Gojyo and Hakkai were nowhere at sight. What the hell?! Kenshin thought angrily, totally distracted from the fight. Where the fucking hell are they?! His eyes couldn't resist to look around him. When he found none, the anger dangerously notched up to dark fury.

"Where are you looking at?!" Goku shouted as he lunged forward for another round of attack, only this he determined to inflict more damaging wounds.

Kenshin returned his glacial lavender eyes toward Goku, irritated as hell because Goku was interrupting. If only Zean don't have to suffer those fucking broken ribs and nose. I would've let him settle these craps Readied him for Goku's strike, Kenshin was resolved to finish Goku once and for all, so he could go and find where Gojyo went. How he was going to do that, he didn't know. After receiving that blow, Kenshin knew that Goku was no ordinary demon.

And the striking and evading began once again, only it was faster, more furious and absolutely final. If one of them missed the step, he was going to pay dearly. Kenshin knew that, Goku knew that and both of them didn't intend to lose this battle. Goku attack, Kenshin avoided, Kenshin swung his stick, Goku defended with his stick too. Too long and too boring in Sanzo's opinion, that he decided to leave Goku to settle the fight by himself and went to find Hakkai. It was a mistake that Sanzo didn't know he do. When Sanzo moved, Goku's sensitive eyes caught Sanzo's movement and he thought Kougaiji attacked his master. Foreverly protective for Sanzo, Goku risked a glance and Kenshin saw the rare opportunity, releasing a hard blow on his stomach and then Goku's head.

But Sanzo only took a step forward when he heard Goku's cries of pain and a sound of sickeningly thud. He immediately swung his head around and saw Goku had lain on the ground, facing him, with blood streaming from his forehead. "Bloody hell!" Sanzo cursed, angry with everyone. "Goku!"

He kneeled beside Goku and tried very hard to restrain a sigh of relief (and succeeded) when he realized Goku was still conscious. How hard is this monkey's skull? Sanzo thought. "Crazy careless, monkey!" He snarled, masking the concern he felt. Then, his eyes reverted to Kenshin, who was breathless, guessing correctly that the bastard wanted to go and search for Gojyo. Over my dead body! Sanzo thought, suddenly felt tired with all this nonsense. And he pointed his gun towards Kenshin, immediately firing up. Kenshin's speed had slowed down as the result of long, nonstop fight with Goku and it was easy for Sanzo to aim but to hit Kenshin was another thing.

Goku stood up wobbly, wiping the blood away. Sanzo waited until Goku regained his full consciousness, before he started issuing orders. He stubbornly crushed the feeling of worry to ask Goku to fight in his present condition. "Goku! Keep him busy, and when I say move away, get your ass out of there."

Without waiting anymore, Goku flung forward and attacked again. Kenshin found out that Goku was still dizzy from the previous blow but to have Goku on his feet and fight him again was a thing that extraordinary. Sanzo took an aim, telling himself that he missed it, he was going to lose Goku. Shit! I really hate all these fucking unstable emotions! And he found his aim.

"Goku!" Sanzo roared. "Moved out!" Goku didn't need to because at that time, Kenshin threw another kick at Goku and it distracted Sanzo a little bit. Instead of shooting Kenshin in the heart like he intended to at the first place, the bullet flew right through Kenshin's upper right arm. The metal stick fell with a clang and Kenshin staggered back a few spaces, pressing hard on the wound. Another shot rang out and this time it was shot full of anger from Sanzo and it hit cruelly on Kenshin's knee.

"Touch Goku again, and I make you sorry that you even think of all this fucking scheme!" Sanzo threatened, too wrapped up in his own black fury that he didn't realize the usage of the almost possessive words.

Kenshin narrowed his eyes at Sanzo in front of him gritted his teeth in pain. "It isn't over yet, Sanzo! Next time I come, I'll kill all of you and take Gojyo back!"

Sanzo snorted rudely. "You should keep him once you have him in your clutch, fool!" He clicked a trigger warning. "Not flaunting him to me. And I'm afraid that there will be no next time!" Sanzo released the bullet but Kenshin disappeared before the bullet could hit him on the chest.

"Damnation!" He swore loudly.

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Hakkai thought Gojyo wasn't aware of what he was doing and that Gojyo was exactly in the same situation like other demons whenever they lost their control. But everyone, including Zean, forgot that Gojyo wasn't born as a full demon. He had the half-human inside of him that made Gojyo still conscious and realized what he was doing. Only the unbelievable strong bloodlust persuaded him and moved every movement he made. Gojyo couldn't control his body, his voice. His heart bleed when he saw Hakkai wiped the blood away from his lips, knowing that it was he that did it and couldn't do anything about it. Damn it, Hakkai! Get away from me! I'll never forgive myself if anything happen to you!

But of course Hakkai couldn't hear Gojyo's heart's cries. Instead, he merely clutched tighter around the silver limiter, waiting for any opportunities to put it back around Gojyo's neck. Gojyo narrowed his eyes to Hakkai and he lunged forward, barehanded. Hakkai's eyes widened with disbelief at Gojyo's speed and he knew that it would be impossible for him to generate the shield. But he didn't want to hurt Gojyo unnecessarily. So, Hakkai did something that he had never done before in his life - running away. He tried to increase the space between them because he was still undecided of what to do. Think! Come on think, Hakkai!

Hakkai looked back and saw that Gojyo was catching up fast. He changed his direction to the forest, hoping that all those trees would somehow slow Gojyo's down. He jumped over the fallen trees, ducked beneath the dropping branches, looked back and still can see Gojyo. He jumped, ducked, looked back and Gojyo was still there. He jumped, ducked, looked back and still Gojyo… Wait a minute! Where was Gojyo?! Hakkai abruptly stopped; his heart beat fast with both exertion and trepidation. His eyes scanned the surrounding and still no sign of Gojyo. Suddenly, Hakkai felt that he had done something very foolish by leaving his friends and exposed himself to the danger without any backup. "Great…" Hakkai muttered under his breath. "How stupid of me to run to the forest…"

Then, his eyes caught the nearly hidden cave nearby and thought that the cave would be a perfect spot for him to think without all these negative emotions flooding through him. Hakkai walked towards the cave, still cautious of any sound he made or he heard.

"I don't think that hiding in the cave would be good idea."

Hakkai's eyes went wide with shock when he heard the voice behind him. He hadn't heard anything! How did he get behind him?! It was Gojyo's voice, all right but it was too cold and too alien to him. Gojyo's tone was usually laced with sarcasm or teasing. Suddenly, it occurred to Hakkai mind that his Gojyo wasn't really back. He was still missing and Hakkai still couldn't find him.

Before Hakkai could anything, Gojyo swung another punch to his stomach, causing him to stagger back into the cave. Still, Hakkai refused to attack Gojyo back and tried to widen the space between them instead. Attack me, Hakkai! Gojyo cried hopelessly. Don't just stand there and let me hurt you more! Just blast me with your energy!

Gojyo's hand went out and grasped Hakkai's neck, pushing him against the rough surface of cave's wall. He started to tighten his grips and choke the verdant-eyed demon. Fight me back, Hakkai! Kick me in the stomach! Blow my head away! But Hakkai still couldn't hurt Gojyo and inside, Gojyo almost shouted with utter frustration. Anything, damn it! Just do bloody anything! Despite what his heart's will, Gojyo's body still burned with bloodlust and craziness still rule his head. He tightened his grip upon Hakkai's neck and Hakkai gasped for the air.

"Goj…Gojyo…" Hakkai rasped. His hand that didn't hold the limiter unconsciously reached out and touched Gojyo's wrist. He was under too much pressure, that he didn't know what he was saying or doing. All that he could think of that Gojyo he knew would never, ever hurt him, even with his words. "You… you're hurting me…"

Stop it! Gojyo shouted to himself. Release him! Release Hakkai, right now! The battle raged within himself and Gojyo fiercely tried to take control over his body, fighting off the lust that was burning hotly inside him. The pain inside his body and his head for trying to bury the insanity started to get unbearable until Gojyo thought he couldn't take it anymore and almost gave up the battle.

Through his blurry eyes, Hakkai could see that Gojyo's face changed a little bit and could feel the grip around his neck was loosening up. Could it be…? Hakkai thought, a spark of hope lightened up in his heart. Could it be that Gojyo can hear him? How could that be…? When a demon went crazy, he would never recognize his friends until someone put back his control device. Just look at Goku… But what the hell, he was already halfway to be unconscious from the lack of oxygen and Hakkai was willing to try anything.

"Fight… fight it, Gojyo," Hakkai choked out, struggling for the words and for the air. He could see that Gojyo was in pain, so consumed in his inner battle that his grips around Hakkai's neck loosened much more. "I…I couldn't bre…breathe…"

Release him! Gojyo ordered, using every ounce of his sanity and leftover strength to press the craziness down. But the pain! Shit, the pain was too much for him! Taking a deep breath, Gojyo let out his last effort to release Hakkai. And it worked! Gojyo stumbled backward and kneeled on the ground, still fighting himself.

Hakkai was breathless and he reached out for his neck, amazed by Gojyo's strength. He watched Gojyo, his heart hurt to see how much Gojyo suffered and at the same time humbled to know that Gojyo would go that far to ensure that he stayed unhurt. Tentatively, Hakkai took a step forward.

Gojyo looked up, his red-eyes were wild and his breathing was hard. "Don't come here Hakkai…" his words were no more than a whisper, but Gojyo had to struggle just to get those words out. "I…I can't do this anymore…"

At that moment, Hakkai didn't know whether he could ever feel as hurt as he felt now. The way Gojyo spoke those words, as if he had spent for the last for days doing nothing but struggling, defending everything and now he was too tired to do anything, made Hakkai wondered what Gojyo had gone through to made him reduced to this state. And the need to make everything all right once again to his lover was overwhelming. Ignoring Gojyo's warning, Hakkai kneeled in front of Gojyo and hold out the limiter that he had brought all this time. "Let me help you, Gojyo," Hakkai said softly with unbearable tenderness.

Gojyo looked yielding at first but suddenly, the fragile barrier that strained the insanity down broke. Once again, his eyes turned cold and empty and he lunged forward. Hakkai let out a starling gasp and found himself lying on the ground with Gojyo pinning him on top. He looked up and saw Gojyo curved a very evil smirk, knowing instantly that Gojyo had lost his control over himself again.

The lust that consumed Gojyo was not only limited to murderous needs but extended to every single type lust that ever existed. Being on top of a very beautiful and incredibly sexy demon, his intense lust for blood changed instantly to lust to screw Hakkai badly. Inside, Gojyo grew alarmed when he realized what his body craved. Shit! I'd rather be dead than let myself hurt Hakkai that way! But no matter what he ferociously told his body, Gojyo knew he was too deep in his pain to have another mind fight and found his lips slammed against Hakkai's anyway. He heard Hakkai muffled in shock and distress, hating himself further. One hand cupped firmly on Hakkai's jaws and his other hand restrained against Hakkai's wrist that was holding the limiter. He forced Hakkai to open his mouth and to accept his entire offering.

No, Gojyo would never do this to me! Hakkai thought wildly. He would never! Gojyo's assaults were getting painful and deep inside, Hakkai knew that if Gojyo really raped him, he wasn't going to be the only one who was paying the price. Knowing Gojyo for what he was, he knew that the half-breed would blame himself for hurting him and after all that Gojyo had gone through, Hakkai couldn't bear to add anymore to Gojyo's misery. Closing his eyes, Hakkai silently made his decision. And it wasn't easy.

I'm sorry, Gojyo… He thought, hating himself for what he was about to do next. With that, he lifted his hand that was still free from Gojyo's grips, gathering energy that he hoped it was enough to knock Gojyo's unconscious and slammed it on Gojyo's back. Instantly, Gojyo lifted his head and his expression was a mixture of disbelief and yet relief. For a split second, Hakkai could see sanity was back in Gojyo's crimson-colored eyes before he fell onto Hakkai, his forehead rested in the contour of Hakkai's neck. Hakkai immediately secured the control device back around Gojyo's slender neck.

The atmosphere was so silent except the sound of Hakkai's heavy breathing. The green-eyed demon watched his lover lying so still on top of him, wondering whether the limiter was already working or not. He listened to the sound of Gojyo's breathing and he heaved a sigh of intense relief to hear the breaths were normal as if Gojyo was sleeping. They were lying on top of each other in the exactly same position like each time they finished loving each other. It was as if the fight and the angst before weren't happened at all.

Happiness slowly flooded through Hakkai's body and heart as he wrapped his arms tightly around Gojyo's body. After four days of misery and fury, he had finally succeeded in finding Gojyo. After four days of grief and frustration, he had finally held Gojyo in his arms. And Hakkai intended to keep his vow to never let him get away. He smiled. A first sincere and true happy smile ever since Gojyo was missing. Even in Gojyo's worst condition, he still managed to be on top of him. This time, Hakkai didn't mind at all, so long it was Gojyo.

"Sleep, Gojyo," He whispered as he stroke softly Gojyo's pale cheeks. "I know you need it…"

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Another chapter is finished! Phew… Now, review! ^_^