Should Have Told Him

by speedmonkey

Calleigh regrets not ever being able to tell Tim how she felt about him when he was alive. And in truth Tim wished he could have told her to. When Tim comes back as a ghost will he get that chance? Is that why he came back in the first place? And why can'

2. Chapter 2

Author's Note: Ok since you reviewd me I'll update. lol. NeraMedia- Now, I wouldn't call my writting beautiful but thank you for the complaiment. grins

And speedfanatic and randomwritting i'm curious about that line Tim said to. lol.

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Horatio stood outside the firing range watching Calleigh fire round after round. Both knew it wasn't helping any. Horatio sighed and walked in he waited til he heared the click of her magazine before he spoke. "Calleigh?"

Calleigh turned around after she had taken off her eye goggles. Calleigh smiled. A smile that was fake. A smile that anyone who was anybody could see right through. "Horatio...what can I do for you?"

Horatio gave Calleigh one of his famous Caine expressions. "How you doin?"

"I'm fine. Why do you ask?"

Horatio sighed. "Calleigh-"

"Horatio I said I'm fine."

"Calleigh you've missed 5 days of work in the past 2 weeks. You don't call in. You snap at Alexx which is impossible. Your spacing out at crime scene's. You yell at me...You ignore Eric. Calleigh...I'm worried about you."

"Well you dont' have to be worried about me, Horatio. I'm fine." Calleigh reholistered her gun and ran into Horatio slightly as she went to leave.

And then she heared it. The words that made her stop dead in her tracks. "Calleigh...it wasn't your fault."

Calleigh turned around suprised at the tears in her eyes. "Thats the thing Horatio. It is my fault." Calleigh took a deep breath and left the room leaving Horatio speechless.

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Calleigh sighed as she walked into the fingerprint lab. "Hey did you get anything off the mustard bottle found at the crime scene?"

Eric nodded. "SOme smudges...Few partials. I did find one worthy enough though. I'm running it through the database now."

Calleigh nodded. Eric starred at the computer screen. "Your not the only one who misses him you know."

Calleigh closed her eyes and then looked over at Eric. "I may not be the only one who misses him. But I am the only one who loved him as more then just a friend or colleague."

Calleigh sighed and stood up. "Just page me if you get anything."

Eric sighed. "Calleigh..."

"Just page me." shouted Calleigh as she headed out the door.

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Tim sighed as he looked around Calleigh's apartment. He saw Calleigh's cat, Marshmellow basking in the sunlight that was pouring through the window. Tim smiled at the memory of when Calleigh bought the Persian cat.

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"Calleigh I still can't believe your dragging me here."

Calleigh laughed. "Come on Tim you know there's no place else you'd rather be."

Tim smiled and looked out the window. "Were here."

"Have you decided yet? Cat or dog?"

"I'm thinking a dog."

"Why? They bark. There loud animals."

"Tim you have a dog."

"I know that. But Charlie's different."

Calleigh smiled. "yeah...ok."

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"Oh she's perfect." said Calleigh as she stroked the fur of the persian cat.

"Cal she looks like a giant marshmellow."

"Well then that's what we'll name her." said Calleigh in a baby voice. "We'll name her Marshmellow. Yes we will." Calleigh looked over at Tim who had a freaked out look on his face. Calleigh smacked him lightly. "Oh stop it. Your just jealous."

Tim shook his head and held open the door for her. "I thought you wanted a dog anyways..."

Calleigh smirked. "Well like you said Tim...there loud animals."

PRESENT----

Tim smiled and picked up the cat. "Why is it I can only touch you...huh?" Tim smiled as the cat leaned into his touch and purred loudly. Tim jumped lightly as Charlie jumped up on the couch. "Hey buddy." said Tim as he scratched the dog's ears. "I've missed you."

Charlie whined sadly and licked Tim's hand. Charlie cocked his head at Tim and then laid his head down on Tim's lap. Tim didn't understand. He could touch dogs and cats. But not the only person he's loved for the past 6 years. It didn't make any since.

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Calleigh sat down at the small table in the break room. Starring at her food. Lately she didn't feel like eating. TIm looked over from his spot on the couch at Calleigh's saddened expression. Instead of seeing the once way to cheerful Calleigh Duquesne he used to know, Tim now saw a Calleigh Duquesne who looked like she had just had her heart ripped out and shoved back in. He felt like he was shot a million times. But still it didn't matter if Calleigh looked mad, angry, or happy she was still the most beautiful women Tim Speedle had ever seen in his life. Tim was snapped from his daze when he saw Ryan Wolfe enter the break room.

"Calleigh?"

Calleigh's head snapped up. "Yes Ryan."

"Alexx called. She said Richard Lakins body's on deck."

Calleigh smiled lightly at the memory of when Speed hazed her.

Calleigh tried to hide the laughter in her voice. "You go."

"To the autopsy?"

"Yeah to the autospy what are you scared?"

"No, I'll go. Thanks Calleigh."

"have fun." Ryan nodded and left. Calleigh laughed lightly. "Oh I've got to see this." Calleigh looked down at her uneaten chicken sandwhich, picked it up and threw it away. She sighed and turned around as if expecting him to be there. She always had that feeling. Like he was right there. "I wish you could be here to see this." Calleigh smiled slightly and walked out of the room. Tim frowned.

"But I am here Cal." said Tim with a heavy heart. "You just can't see me yet." Tim sighed and watched as Calleigh dissapeared down the hallway.

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Tim had watched Alexx hold back her laugh as Ryan had a grossed out expression on his face. He watched Ryan leave and he walked down the steps to the autopsy room. Alexx smiled and placed the head back into the pot. Alexx took of her gloves and leaned against the slab. "I know your here Timmy...even if I can't see you."

Tim sighed and walked over and stood next to her. "I wish you could see me."

Alexx smiled and looked over in his direction. "Nobody's the same without you."

"I know...i'm sorry. I just wish I could remember."

Alexx sighed and began to wipe down the slab. "Your body is one I never expected to see here."

Tim turned around and looked at Alexx with tears in his eyes. He didn't understand. He could cry. He could feel hurt. He could feel his heart break everytime he saw Calleigh. But yet the people he loved couldn't see him. they couldn't hear him. And he couldn't touch them. It didn't make any since.

"You were always so strong Timmy. So brave. And you had that mess with me and i'll kick your ass expression on your face." Tim frowned and placed a hand on Alexx's shoulder. But it just went right through her. Alexx smiled. "I just can't help but think if you would have listened to me you'd still be here."

Tim wrinkled his forehead. "What are you talking about Alexx?"

"I told you if you ever wanted to cross over to my side of the street you could." Alexx smiled. "I shouldn't have to perform an autopsy on my own baby." Alexx took a deep breath but she couldn't stop the tears that feel down her cheeks.

Tim tore his eyes away from Alexx and looked up at celing. "Why are you keeping me here? I don't want to be here anymore. Just let me go. Please...I can't take it anymore. Just let...just let me move on."

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Calleigh sighed as Frank Tripp called her name again down the hallway. "Calleigh."

Calleigh put on her fake smile and turned around. "Frank...what can I do for you?"

"Listen I have a gun from a robbery that needs to be processed. The guy got stupid and left it at the scene."

Calleigh shook her head. "Sorry Frank. Your going to have to ask Camden to come in. I'm up to my nose in casings. There was a shooting out on the causeaway yesterday."

"Cal...come on...I need this-"

"What part of I can't do it don't you understand?"

Frank stopped walking and looked at Calleigh. "What's gotten into you?"

Calleigh sighed and looked down at the floor. Afraid to look Frank in the eyes. "I"m sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you. But I can't do it. Your going to have to call in Camden."

"What happend to the Calleigh Duquesne that used to drop everything to help someone else out."

Calleigh's head snapped up. "I dunno Frank. Why don't you check the cemetery she died about 4 weeks ago."

Frank sighed and watched Calleigh walk down the hall.

TBC...