Live or Die

Allie Helms

Chapter Four

Can't Save Me

Not all scars show. Not all pain heals. Sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels.

I woke up to find Anakin lying next to me watching me peacefully. "What are you doing, love?" I asked him.

He smiled that sweet smile, "I was watching you sleep. You're like an angel you know that? So peaceful and beautiful like a dream. Your skin was so soft it could have melted through my fingers."

"Someone is in love," I said getting out of bed.

He chuckled, "Aren't you?"

"Very much so. He is so handsome and reliable. I love him so much, and his smile is worth a thousand credits. I could just stare into his deep blue eyes forever if I had forever. You should meet him," I said smiling back at him.

I was pulling out a dress from the closet when he came behind me, and wrapped his strong arms around my small waste. "Well he sounds like a keeper," he said kissing my neck and stroking my blonde and black locks.

"I was thinking of taking a shower. Care to join?" I asked turning around.

His eyes grew wide, "It would be my pleasure." I smiled and laid the maroon dress onto the bed. He pulled out a new Jedi outfit, and strolled into the bathroom.

I looked at myself in the full-length mirror. My black and blonde hair was almost to my waste. I hadn't cut it in three years, and it grew in a rapid speed. My form had changed. I was curvier and I had more muscles. I was strong with my muscles all except one. My heart was my weakness. I always fell for Anakin's smile and laugh. I couldn't help it my husband was a god, and he probably thought I was a goddess. I smiled at that thought and walked into the bathroom. He had lit some candles and I could smell the desirable sent of cinnamon. He knew what smells I liked.

He stood there in his sleep pants, and I in my nightgown. He approached me, and kissed me lightly. As the kiss grew he applied more pressure, and his tongue slipped into my mouth. It was surreal. I was lost to the world, and nothing could stop us. Not Obi-wan, not the Council, and not even that damn Chancellor. We were one. I turned around, and he started to unzip my nightgown while kissing my shoulders. My skin prickled with desire every time his lips touched it.

I was sliding down the Milky Way. Once I had slipped out of my nightgown I was bare except for my underwear. He looked at me, "You're so beautiful." He came in and kissed me while messaging my breasts with his callused hands.

I slipped my fingers in between his sleep pants and his bare skin, and he moaned for more. We moved over to the shower, and turned on the water. It got warm, and we discarded the rest of our clothing. We stepped inside, and everything was gone. I stepped back from where I was kissing his chest, and looked his water soaked body.

He was truly a god. His tan skin was glistening in the reflection of the water droplets, and his eyes were bluer then ever not to mention full with passion and desire.

ANAKIN

She was an angel. The water was spreading across her body, and glistening in the light. She was my angel, and she would remain that way. She was not going to die I would make sure of that. Her hair was drenched and dark with water, and her eyes they were wholly craving love and affection yet giving them in return.

I moved toward her and took her in a passionate kiss. I wanted her right now. I needed her . . . I needed her to stay with me forever.

NOVEMBER

He held my hips, and entered himself in me. I was flying on a roller coaster. Nobody can take me away from him. I moved with him in a steady beat as the Force flowed through us in a poetic way. We were now connected Force signature and all. He began to move faster and I followed suit. We were getting to the climax, and he released.

My breath was fast and I was hitting the ceiling. My heartbeat was steady, and I could see he was holding himself up to the wall to catch his breath. When he did I walked over to him and he held me while the water was still pouring over our heads.

We finished up our shower, and moved out to the bedroom where I changed into the maroon dress I laid out earlier. The sleeves were bell sleeves, and it fit my bodice like all of them do. It had a pattern of black vines and roses. I put my lightsabers into the secret pockets on my backside, and put on my high heel shoes. "Are you ready for class today?" I asked.

"Oh yes my favorite to teach mission analyzing," he said grumpily.

I chuckled, "Hey you need it after that thing on Grievous ship you called a rescue mission."

"We all came out alive, and nobody got a scratch," he said.

I walked up to him and showed him a bruise on my forearm, "You see this it's called a bruise, and I do believe I got it from that mission."

"You did that to yourself. You always put yourself in danger. So technically it is your fault, but I'll kiss it to make it better if you want," he said with a smile.

I smiled as he kissed it, "Yes, but it is fun to be in danger. Plus I live for adventure remember."

"Oh yes like that mission on Dantooine where you wanted to take on six Sith soldiers by yourself. Which was not a great success mind you," he said taking my hand. "Are you ready?" he asked.

I shook my head, "No I have to do my make-up."

"I swear I think you're the only Lady Jedi that wears make-up, and you already look beautiful," he said.

I smiled and applied my eye shadow, which like my dress crossed like vines across my temple in black swirls. "How does it look?" I asked.

"Entrancing. Now can we go so we won't be late for class? I hear that is really bad if teachers are late for there own class," he said.

I said in a fake British accent, "Oh that does sound dreadful." He just chuckled, took my hand, and led me to the speeder.

"Hello students," Anakin and I said in unison entering the obstacle course.

"Hello Master Anakin and Lady November," the class responded.

I stepped forward ready to give instructions. "Now today we will be doing a mock mission. You all will hear the mission and objective, and then get into groups where you will come up with a plan on how to solve your problems. Anakin and I will demonstrate, but you cannot copy our routine. Understand?" I asked. They all nodded. Anakin brought the screen down where Master Yoda's hologram sat.

It began to speak, "A difficult mission, ahead of you it is. A little girl, you must rescue. Important to the Republic, she is. Holds a secret, she does. Get through destroyer droids, you may, or find a way to sneak in undetected, you can. May the Force be with you."

I walked with Anakin over to a map of the ship. "What shall we do?" I asked.

"Well, you're the smart one that came up with the plan for Geonosis," he said.

I sighed, "Oh all right. Here is what we will do . . ." I started to explain.

20 MINUTES LATER

"Okay children we are going in. Ready Anakin?" I asked.

He held out his hand in a fist, "Ready as I'll ever be." We knocked fist, and started out. We walked in a hallway until we came to the main computer, and found where the little girl was being kept. I nodded to Anakin, and we continued. About halfway through we came in contact with some battle droids, and we destroyed them to pieces. Finally we got the girl, and asked her what her secret was. "A cure for the common cold," she said. I looked at Anakin.

"Well that was a waste of time," I told him and he nodded. About twenty minutes later team one was going first. They completed the mission successfully. The second team was captured, and the third team well lets just say they are worse then the second team.

After class Anakin and I raced to meet up with Obi-wan before he left. "You're going to need us on this one Master," Anakin told him.

He smiled, "Oh, I agree! However it may turn out to be a wild bantha chase."

"Yes, but it wouldn't be a real bantha chase without us!" I said jokingly.

He chuckled and turned to leave, and I followed him to walk him to this ship when Anakin called out to him, and he came walking back up the ramp. "Master, I've disappointed you. I have not been very appreciative of you training . . . I have been arrogant and I apologize. I've just been so frustrated with the Council. Your friendship means everything to me," he said thanking him.

Obi-wan clapped his shoulder, "You are very strong and wise, Anakin, and I am very proud of you. I have trained you since you were a small boy. I have taught you everything I know. And you have become a far greater Jedi than I could ever hope to be, and you have saved my life more times than I can remember. But be patient, Anakin. It won't be long before the Council makes you a Jedi Master." Obi-wan starts down the ramp and I follow him yet again. He then turns back to Anakin, "Don't worry. I have enough clones with me to take three systems the size of Utapau. I think I'll be able to handle the situation . . . even without your help."

"Well, there is always a first time," I said Obi-wan just chuckled, and started back down the ramp.

We entered the assault ship and Obi-wan turns to me, "Something is bothering you isn't it?"

"Yes, Obi-wan, I'm afraid for Anakin. He seems well a little too close for the Chancellor," I said worried.

He looked at me with a serious look in his eyes, "I'm sure he can handle it."

"No," I said cutting him off. "His feelings are confused. He doesn't know who to trusted. I think he will . . . I'm afraid he will do something bad."

"Contact me if anything happens I will come straight away. I promise," he said. I nodded and left the ship. When I came back out Anakin was not there anymore.

"Great, Annie where did you go?" I asked myself.

A/N: sorry for the s-e-x scene I thought u guys need some love and a cold shower lol ill have to raise the rating though oh well. But it is my first one so give me pointers. By the way last chapter song was no angel by dido oh yeah review!