Live or Die

by ladyjedinovember11

November is back, but there is depression in her future and death. She hides a secret that only she knows, but will it kill her? sequel to Open or Closed

5. The Last Good Time

Live or Die

Allie Helms

Chapter Five

The Last Good Time

Love is being stupid together.

"Hey can I come in?" I asked buzzing up to Padme's office in the Senate building.

She buzzed back, "Yeah."

"Thanks don't sound so enthusiastic," I said.

"I'm so happy you're here November," she said a little more lightly.

I smiled through the intercom, "Now that is better."

I took the elevator up to her office, and opened the door to see Bail Organa, Mon Mothma, and Padme sitting around her desk. "Wow you guys decided to throw a party and not invite me. Now I ask how is that fair?" I said jokingly.

"Lady Jedi November, how nice to see you," Bail said rising from his seat.

I smiled, "Good to see you too Bail."

"Lady Jedi it is good to meet you again," Mon said shaking my hand.

I smiled to her, or at least I thought it was an her. You know you can't tell with species. "No we are not having a party," Padme said.

"Oh then what is it?" I asked.

Each of them looked at each other. "Should we tell her?" Bail asked Mon.

"We have to she is the most trusted Jedi in the Order, and my friend," Padme said.

Mon put her hand on her chin, "Only if she promises not to tell the Council."

"Guys I am right here you know," I said waving my hand.

Padme stood up and put her hands on my shoulders, and led me over to her chair and sat me down. "What we are about to tell you is treason. We know the complications of our actions, and we know the Jedi Council will not approve. Do you swear not to tell them?" she asked.

"Cross my heart hope to die stick a needle in my eye," I said, but they didn't get it.

Padme took my hands in hers, and looked me straight in the eyes. I knew this was serious when her brown eyes were stressed like this. "We know that the Chancellor is up to something, but we don't know what. We have made a rebellion against him, but it is secret. Would you like to be apart of it? I mean to have say on what the Jedi think?" she asked.

I just stared at her shocked. "Holy crap guys! Are you serious? I so agree, and yes I would love to be apart of something so secretive," I said.

They all just smiled and filled me in.

When I came back to the apartment Anakin was sitting down on the couch. I walked up to him and ran my hand across his back, "What are you up to love?"

"Someone has been here, a male. Have you had anybody over?" he asked.

I looked at him, "Yes, Anakin I'm cheating on you with Bail Organa, and he was over here an hour ago." He gave me a stern look. "In simple words no." I walked into the bedroom and opened up the night table to get out my leather bound black and white journal. What I saw was greater than god, and had more evil then the devil. It was nothing. I started to think. Who could have gotten into our apartment?

Well someone with Jedi powers, but the Jedi wouldn't take it and Anakin knew I had it but respected my privacy. One name popped up into my mind: Palpatine. Curse him! I walked out into the living room and searched for his force signature. It was there. This was just great.

I went back into the bedroom and changed into a black jumpsuit. I clipped my lightsabers to my utility belt, and stormed out of the apartment leaving Anakin in a cloud of dust and confusion.

As I sped across Courscant I start to think about how far Sidious has gone. Taking my journal now he can read all my secrets. I was writing things in there that nobody should know, not even me. I pulled up to the Senate building, and took the elevator to his office. I charged by his secretary, and bust the door open.

Once the door shut I took out my lightsabers and stood there looking at him. Glaring him down. "Oh Lady November what a surprise," he said dully.

"Where is it?" I shouted at him.

He looked up from his desk and asked, "What are you talking about?"

"You have my journal," I said.

He smiled, "Oh you mean this." He held it up, and I used the Force to bring it to me.

"Good now I don't have to kill you. Listen Sidious if you do anything else to make me mad except for the mere look of you then I will reveal your secret to the Council understand?" I asked.

His eyes narrowed, "You're bluffing."

"No, I'm not," I said walking out.

! THAT NIGHT

I was in the bedroom getting dressed in a dark blue dress. It had a dark blue corset top that fit my bodice and was sleeveless, and a flowing bottom. I then put on some dark eye shadow, and waited for Anakin who was getting dressed beside me. "So what is so special about tonight's Council meeting?" he asked buckling his belt.

"You'll see," I said. He just smiled with his eyes.

! TONIGHTS COUNCIL MEETING

The twelve Council members sat in a circle. Some of them were holographic forms on there missions. "Let young Fayanna in, you may," Yoda said to the two Jedi Nights keeping guard. They went and opened the doors, and Fayanna entered. When she saw me she smiled and I smiled and nodded reassuringly.

She went and stood in the middle of the room, and bowed to the masters. "Young Fayanna you have been summoned for a great honor. You are moving to the position of padawan learner. First you have to take the vow of the student. Repeat after me. I Fayanna Belle, take this oath as to follow the rules of the Jedi Order in becoming a padawan learner. I will listen and repeat I will follow the commands and take up any mission even if it means my life may be taken. I so swear." Mace said. She repeated and Mace continued, "Is their a Master who take Young Fayanna Belle as his or her student?" he asked.

I stood up, "I do." Fayanna looked up at me with a smile in her eyes. I placed my hands on her shoulders.

"Will you please make the ceremonial braid of the Padawan Learner?" Mace said. I took Fayanna's black hair in my callused hands and started to weave a braid. Anakin then handed me some colored rubber bands.

"Red: A Jedi shall not know anger. Blue: A Jedi shall not know hatred. Purple: A Jedi shall not know love," I said weaving the rubber band in her hair.

"Fayanna Lady November, your master is. November, Fayanna your Padawan Learner is," Yoda said making it complete. Fayanna turned around, and I bent down to give her a hug. Anakin walked up to us, and we shared a group hug.

When we got back home I made a celebratory dinner for Fayanna, and we sat down and ate. "Well that was a surprise. I'm proud of both of you," Anakin said to Fayanna and I.

"Thank you Master Anakin," Fayanna said.

I turned to look at her, "Okay when other Jedi see us you can say that, but when we are alone like now just call him Anakin and me November." She shook her head and laughed. Soon Annie and I joined in.

! AN HOUR LATER

"Rose sing a song for us," Anakin said.

I nodded, "As you wish."

I found myself today

Oh I sound myself and ran away

But something pulled me back

A voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing

In the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

I've seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny

Shining all the time

And I won't be afraid

To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong

To this moment to my dreams

It doesn't matter what people say

And it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll find

It only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart

When I finished Fayanna was asleep with her head on Anakin's lap. "I think this is how it feels when you have children," Anakin said smiling down and the beautiful face of my padawan.

"What should we do with her?" I asked.

He shrugged, "Let's put her in the guest bedroom." I nodded, and Anakin picked her up.

I followed him to the bedroom, and kissed Fayanna on the forehead when he laid her down. She looked so peaceful, and innocent. I felt a tear come to my eye as I watched her from the doorway. Anakin sensed it, and came up behind me. "Are you okay love?' he asked.

I turned around, and nodded. "Yeah, its just look at her she seems so innocent. You know I used to be like that. I used to go on living like there was not a care in the world, and now look at me I worry about everything," I said.

He wiped the tear on my face, and took me in his arms. "You don't need to worry anymore," he said.

I ended the embrace, and walked to the kitchen to make some tea. "What do you mean. I have to worry about you, me, and now Fayanna. How am I going to manage?" I asked.

"Obi-wan and the Council don't trust me," Anakin said.

I looked at him, "What?"

"They don't trust me," he repeated.

I was caught totally off guard. "They trust you with their lives. Obi-wan loves you as a son," I said trying to reason with him. This was not good.

"Something's happening . . . I'm not the Jedi I should be. I want more when I know I shouldn't," he said looking at me through the bar that separated the kitchen from the living room.

"Annie," I said breathless. There was nothing I could do now.

He looked up at me with dark eyes, "I have found a way to save you."

"Save me?" I questioned.

He sighed, "From my nightmares."

"Anakin Skywalker, what did I tell you. When I die I will become one with the Force. Master Yoda will teach you to communicate with me. I will always be with you. I would never leave you," I said a little annoyed that he was still trying this.

"But will I be able to feel you. To have your kiss?" he asked.

I shook my head, "No."

"See I need that in order to live," he said walking out onto the balcony.

I followed him. I took my place beside him, and looked out over the city. The lights started to turn on in the apartments, and businesses. "Anakin, do you remember when we were on the balcony of Padme's apartment, and I told you what was bothering me?" I asked.

He looked at me, "Yes, why?"

"Annie if this situation was the other way around I would kill myself. I know it's hard not to be with me because everytime I'm not with you kills me. I know that if I tell you not to do anything when I die that it would hurt you more, and I could never understand your pain. It's hard for me to give you advice when I know that I haven't even taken it for myself, but you have to keep on to the Council to the Order. Hold onto Padme and Obi-wan, but you have to let me go. Have you ever heard the saying we were born to die?" I asked him. He shook his head. "Well we are. Without the threat of death there would be no reason to even live. Don't do anything irrational to save me. Just let me go."

! NEXT MORNING

I was practicing with Fayanna in the training room when Anakin walked in. "Anakin!" Fayanna yelled and gave him a hug. He hugged her back.

"How is my favorite Master Padawan combination today?" he asked.

I smirked, "In the mood for sparring. How about a round love?"

"I would love to," he smiling.

"You're on," I said. I unsheathed my lightsabers, and held them in an 'x' over my head like I always do. Just then Anakin's com beeped.

"It's the Chancellor," he said.

I nodded, "Come Fayanna we have to go." I clipped my lightsabers to the belt of my white jumpsuit and walked out. Fayanna behind me.

! PALPATINE'S OFFIVE SENATE BUILDING

We walked into the red office of the Chancellor, and saw the Delegation of Two Thousand sitting in chairs in front of the Chancellor's desk. Among them were Bail, Mon, and Padme. Fayanna and I walked over and stood behind her. "Ah Lady November I see have a padawan learner," Palpatine said eyeing Fayanna.

I nodded, "Yes Chancellor. Is that a problem?"

"No and yes, but we will discuss that later," he said. Padme looked up at me and I down to her we exchanged a look of worry. "I understand your reservations completely Senator, and I assure you that the appointment of Governors will in no way compete with the duties of the Senate," Palpatine said continuing.

"May I take it then that there will be no further amendments tot he Constitution?" she asked a glimmer in her eyes.

Palpatine looked at her annoyed, "I want this terrible conflict to end as much as you do My Lady and when it does I guarantee an immediate return to democracy."

Padme cocked her head, "You are pursuing a diplomatic solution to the war then."

"You must trust me to do the right things Senator. That is why I am here," Palpatine said trying to gain her trust.

I snorted, "I'm sorry. I have a problem trust certain people."

"Nobody asked you," Anakin said from his spot behind the Chancellor.

I glared at him, "Anakin watch your tone. I know nobody asked me but I have the right to say something, piss off."

"I have said I will do what is right that should be enough for your committee," he said stopping Anakin before we broke out in a fight right there.

Padme sensed the meeting coming to a close, "On behalf of the Delegation of Two Thousand I thank you Chancellor."

"I thank you for bringing it to my attention Senator," Palpatine said nonchalantly.

I just snorted, "Come one Fayanna we shall go with Senator Amidala."

We followed them out into the hallway, "Something doesn't seem right Master," Fayanna said looking up at me.

I nodded. "Yes I know Fayanna, but your going to have to trust me. Promise me that if anything happens at the temple that you will page me. Only when you are there alone of course." She nodded. "Good."

"November we are having a meeting. Bring your Padawan," Padme said nodding at Fayanna.

I smiled, "Why wouldn't I?" Padme just smiled back.

Everything was changing. The good times were coming to an end, and dark times were approaching fast. It was time to rip off my cloths and reveal superwoman only to be taken down by kryptonite. I sighed at the thought.

A/N: Hey y'all Song: Someone's Watching Over Me By Hilary Duff. I know it's childish but hey don't blame me. Much love to the reviewers. Keep it up guys!