Live or Die
Allie Helms
Chapter Six
An Angel Falls
It's too late to turn back.
Fayanna and I walked into Padme's Senate office. I took my place standing looking out the window. "He knows what we're up to," I said.
"How could he?" Bail asked.
I turned to look at him, "He is not who you think he is. He knows, and will probably try to destroy us."
"Who is he then?" Mon asked.
I smirked, "If I told you then I would have to kill you." She just stared. "We need to keep quiet for sometime. Just so he doesn't start snooping around." They nodded.
"Meeting adjourned," Padme said.
Fayanna and I started to head for the Temple. "What was that about?" she asked.
"None of your sorts. Curiosity killed the cat. If someone wants you to know then someone will tell you," I said. She nodded in response.
I dropped Fayanna off at the temple, and started to head back to the apartment for lunch. Anakin was not there when I returned. I took out some food and set it on the stove. I went into the bedroom and washed my face. When I came out Anakin was out on the balcony.
"What was that back there?" he asked turning towards me.
I made my way back to the kitchen. "You are forgetting, Anakin, that I am a free soul. Palpatine wants to shut me up, but I won't let him."
"He wants to help you," he said.
I turned to him, "and Obi-wan wants to help you, but you won't let him."
"That's not the point."
"It's all in the same," I pointed out.
He sighed, "I'm sorry love. I've just been so worked up. Can you forgive me?"
"As long as you don't do anything stupid," I said. He smiled and kissed me deeply. Probably the last kiss I would get from him.
"Listen I have to go, but I will be back. I promise love," he said and I shook my head. He gently kissed my forehead, and headed out. I only caught a glimpse of his cloak bellowing out the door.
Just then a feeling of sickness coursed through my stomach, and I ran to the bathroom. I washed my mouth after the episode, and stared into the mirror. My face was strained from my choices, and my eyes were a dull granite gray. Almost like they used to be before I met Anakin. I then walked out to the bedroom and turned around to look at my scars through the hole in my jumpsuit. They were a pale pink against my tan skin. I sighed and went to go finish preparing my lunch.
! THREE HOURS LATER
The sun was setting now, and I stared out the window at the Jedi Temple. I could feel Anakin's presence so far away. I wanted to die right there. Anakin I whispered through the Force.
Rose I felt him in my head. We were connected, and I felt like I would collapse right then.
I started to think. I remember the first time I saw him. He was so handsome, and his smile almost killed me. I remember when he asked me who I was. I told him that I didn't know who I was but I knew my name. I remember when he first told me that he was the Chosen One the one who knew what would happen to me. I remember when he asked if we were friends, and I said sure. I had no idea what I was getting myself into.
I remember our first fight. It was about how he wouldn't tell me what was bothering him. Then we met Padme, and it was that night on the balcony when he told me about his mother, and I told him about my suicide attempt. I remember when I told him that death was just another path one that we all must take. I remember it like it was yesterday and not three years ago.
I remember the night we tracked the bounty hunter through downtown Courscant. I remember when she asked me why I wasn't afraid of death, and I told her that it was because I was already dead. I was numb to it all, and I didn't feel anything. Nothing could touch me.
I remember the first time I sang to him. The song was Once Upon a Dream. For some reason I did know him from my dreams. He was the angel I wanted. I remember when I was done he asked me who I had killed. I told him about Robert and how he treated me. I remember him comforting me, and rapping his arms around my waist. We fell asleep like that. I didn't have a nightmare that night.
I remember when I first walked through Naboo. I compared it to my country's capital, but I was unruly and couldn't be compared to anything. I remember when we met with the Queen, and how royal and noble she was. I remember the first time I told him I loved him. It was before I thought I was going to die, and I don't regret it at all. I told him that I loved him and that I always will.
I remember when he told me I could let go of everything. That he would be waiting for me forever. I remember him giving me strength to let it go. I remember our first kiss. It was sweet and harmonic. It was the first time I felt free of my slavery of my past. I wasn't holding onto anything anymore, and he helped me to let go.
I remember singing to him on Naboo. Love me that's all I ask of you. It was our motto and we lived by it. I remember telling him it was and opera and that it was loud, and his response was I don't care I just want to hear you sing.
After his mother died I remember him asking me why she had to die. I told him about how people were complete, and fate ruled the completeness of people. I told him to remember the good times he had wit her. He needs to remember these good times too.
I remember when we were captured, and we were going to be executed. I remember the beast they had been assigned to me for my execution. It was my demons in all. My pride, my beauty, my bitterness, my freedom, and my past put in to one. I remember putting the poor creature to its death.
I remember when he proposed to me with the ring I wear now. I remember how he had asked me all those questions, and I was catching on. I remember when he said it would have to be secretly, but I told it that it couldn't be. I didn't think that it could be that way because the Jedi knew.
I remember when we got married. How our vows seemed so perfect, and it was just like a fairy tale. I remember my black and white roses. I remember Obi-wan giving me away, and the love I felt flow through me when we kissed.
I can't do this. I felt him leave me. I was alone like I feared. I was always alone I life. Anakin was my one savior and he was gone.
! AN HOUR LATER
I had changed into a black nightgown. I looked out to the Jedi Temple, and noticed smoke rising from the building. It was then that my worst fears had been realized. I started to cry, and I began to sing.
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice
In the church where a wedding has been
Lives in a dream
Waits at the window wearing the face
That she keeps in a jar by the door
Who is it for?
All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?
Father McKenzie writing the words
Of a sermon that now one will hear
No one comes near
Look at him working, darning his socks
In the night when there's nobody there
What does he care?
All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people
Eleanor Rigby died in the church
And was buried along with her name
Nobody came
Father McKenzie wiping the dirt
From his hands as he walks from the grave
No one was saved
All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?
I wept some more, but only for five minutes. I had to do something. Just then my COM beeped. "Yes," I spoke into it.
"November," it was Fayanna.
"Fayanna is everything alright?" I asked urgently.
"No, November it's Anakin," just then I heard her scream.
Moving quickly I ran into the bedroom changing into a black and white jumpsuit. Clipping my lightsabers to my belt I ran out the door. I got into my black speeder, and sped off to the Senate building. When I reached the Senate office I saw two guards standing on either side of the doorway. "You may not come in," they said.
"Piss off!" I yelled in rage.
They quickly ignite there electro spears, "We said you may not go in. We are ordered to kill you if you try."
"Bring it on," I said taking my lightsabers to form and 'x' over my head. The guards didn't move fast enough. Before they knew it they were headless on the floor. I then burnt an 'x' on both of their chests. "That is so they know who killed you. I'm sure when you roam headless in hell you won't forget," I said sinisterly.
I walked up to Padme's office, and buzzed. "November come in," she said through the speaker. I entered in a second. "How did you get in? There are guards that won't let anybody in or out," she said.
"I came in the old fashioned way," she just stared. "I killed them Padme." Then she nodded. "Do you have working communications?" I asked.
"Yes," she said alarmed. "Why?" she asked.
"I can't explain now. Where are they?" I asked. She pointed, and I walked over there. I typed into the datapad Obi-wan's signal, and it searched. "Yes," I heard a whisper.
"Obi-wan it's November," I said quietly.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
I shook my head, "No. Obi-wan it's Anakin he has attacked the Temple. I think he might have killed Fayanna. Oh Obi-wan I knew this would happen. He was so scared of losing me that he trusted in the Chancellor, and now the Chancellor told him with the power of the Dark Side that he could save me."
"Okay as soon as I can find a transport I'll get out of here. Commander Cody opened fire upon me," he said.
My eyes grew wide, "Order sixty-six has been activated."
"What?" he said.
"Order sixty-six is the order that when they were created was put in to kill the Jedi. These clones were made for the Empire," I said.
"November we have company," Padme said blaster at her side.
I turned around and saw clones breaking through the doors. "Obi-wan I will tell you when you get here. Contact Yoda if you can, but I sense that he is already heading here," I quickly turned off the communication system, and turned around lightsabers ablaze.
"So, what do we want to call these?" Padme asked.
They were almost through the doors, "Clone kabobs."
They broke though, and I met them as blaster fire erupted through the office. Padme's aim had gotten better since she took out two of the four clones. I had already decapitated the head of one clone, and then I kicked the last one in the stomach sending him to the floor unarmed. "What do you have to say for yourself?" I asked my lightsabers at him throat.
"You should die along with your other friends," he said. I stopped breathing for a moment. The Jedi were dead. Just then I heard a blaster fired, and looked up to see Padme holding the gun. I then looked down to the clone and saw him dead.
"Thanks," I said. I burnt and 'x' on all four of the clone troopers. "What has he done?" I whispered to myself.
"November, what is going on?" Padme asked.
I looked at her my eyes red, "I will explain on a later date, but right now . . ."
"Padme, November I'm so glad you are alright," Bail said walking through the hole in the door. "What happened anyway," he asked.
"We'll explain later," Padme said taking my hand and putting her pistol away.
Bail nodded, "I have made contact with Obi-wan. He will meet us at my ship. Come on."
"I will meet you there. I have to get somethings from my apartment," I said.
They nodded as I walked out.
! AT THE APARTMENT
I took my suitcase in hand, and walked over to a picture of Anakin and me on our wedding day. We were dancing to a prerecorded song of All I Ask of You. I shut if off and brought it with me. I then went over to the bedside table, and got out my journal. It was my only source of the past now.
I turned off the lights, and took a last look at the empty apartment. All I saw was despair to come.
A/n: starts to cry I'm so sorry for the sadness, but it was coming. Review.