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Right where we left off…
They pulled away each other to see Paige glaring at them.
If looks could kill, they'd be six feet under. Jay was nervous and jumpy, and his face had drained of all color. Emma just sat with her head down. She couldn't bear to meet Paige's eyes.
Jay quickly jumped away from Emma. "H-hunny, i-it's not what it l-looks l-like!"
"Get out of my house now," said Paige in a shaky would-be calm voice. Emma raised her head and winced slightly as she met Paige's eyes. She looked ready to kill.
"Anna, Chrissy," Emma called, "c'mon we're leaving."
Anna and Chrissy came down the hall with Lauren clinging onto Chrissy for dear life. "I don't want them to go!" Lauren screamed.
"Oh yes you do," Paige said, never taking her eyes, full of hatred, off of Emma, "because when they leave, you'll get an extra big sundae." Lauren immediately let go of Chrissy.
Paige turned her head toward the twins. "Anna, Chrissy, thank you so much for coming over," she said in a false sugar-sweet voice. She smiled the sweetest smile she could muster, but her eyes still shown with anger.
Anna, Chrissy, and Emma scrambled out the door, leaving the family alone.
"Lauren, please go to your room," Paige said.
"But what about my ice cream!" the three year old demanded.
"I will make it later," said Paige through gritted teeth, temper rising. "Now go to your own room!"
The little girl walked down the hall, pouting all the way. When Paige heard the door close, she advanced on an apprehensive Jay. Squeezing a stress ball in one hand, and grasping her pocket knife in the other, Paige drew a deep breath and spoke, "Jay, get out of the house, before I do something irrational."
"Pai--," Jay began.
"LEAVE!" she bellowed.
Jay got out of the room as quickly as possible. As soon as she heard the door close, Paige collapsed on the couch, sobs racking her body.
After a good ten minutes, Paige grabbed the phone and dialed the number of her best friend. "Hazel?" Paige asked as soon as someone answered. Knowing it was Hazel, she went on without a reply, "Could you please come pick up Lauren and Mikey for a while?"
"Sure Paige, what's up?" Hazel asked.
"Please just pick them up," Paige replied, "I'll tell you later."
"I'll be over in ten," Hazel said.
"Thanks," Paige replied and hung up.
Ten minutes later, Hazel came over and picked Lauren and Michael up for the night.
"Paige will you tell me what's wrong?" Hazel asked.
"Later," said Paige, nodding her head towards Lauren. Hazel just nodded and left.
Paige went into the kitchen and took out her pocketknife. She raised the blade to her skin.
It's not worth it, said a little voice in the back of her head. You shouldn't cut yourself over this. It was just one kiss, it's not worth it.
Paige leaned over the sink and pressed the knife lightly against her skin.
Remember Ellie? Remember when you saw her cut? You don't want to be like her do you?
Paige dropped her knife in the sink. It would be stupid for her to cut. She walked out of the kitchen, and into her and Jay's room. She laid in her comfortable bed and cried herself to sleep.
Jay was driving in his civic, not knowing where he was going, and not really caring either. After a while he found himself in front of a familiar "lunchbox". Jay grinned, if anyone could help him out, Sean could.
Jay walked up to the trailer and knocked on the door. Tracker answered it. "Is Sean here?" Jay asked.
"Jay?" said Tracker. Jay nodded. "No man, he moved out years ago. Lives in Ontario now, he's a psychologist."
"Can I have his address?" Jay asked. Tracker gave him the address, and Jay got back into his civic and drove. About 8 hours later, Jay pulled up to a pretty nice house. He was kind of hesitant to call on his old friend at such a late hour, but figured he'd take his chances.
He walked up and knocked. An unfamiliar woman answered the door. She was holding a baby boy that looked a lot like Sean. "Hello?" she asked suspiciously.
"Is Sean here?" Jay asked.
"Sean," she called, not turning her back to Jay.
Sean came up behind the woman with the baby. "Yeah babe—Jay!"
"Hey slim shady," Jay said.
The woman frowned, "You know him?"
"Yeah, he's an old friend," Sean replied. "Marie, go put Logan down."
Marie left, still eyeing Jay suspiciously, and Sean invited Jay in. His house was pretty nice, Sean looked like he was doing pretty well.
"So what brings you here, man?" asked Sean, sitting in a chair, while Jay sat on the couch.
"I'm having… problems," said Jay.
"What kind of problems?" asked Sean.
Jay proceeded to tell Sean the whole story. When he finished Sean was looking at him knowingly.
"It sounds like you still love Emma, but you feel guilty because of Paige," explained. "You're also worried what a divorce would do to your kids, I see cases like this all the time."
"Wait are you shrinking me?" asked Jay.
"Yep, and this will cost you about 80 bucks," Sean laughed. Jay gaped at him. "Dude I was kidding," Sean explained. He and Jay laughed like old friends (which they were).
"Thanks for the help," Jay said.
"It's late, do you want to stay here tonight?" Sean offered.
"I guess," Jay replied. "Thanks."
"No problem," said Sean.
Emma drove home, tears slightly blurring her vision.
"Mom what's wrong?" Chrissy asked, worried.
"Nothing," replied Emma.
"It's not nothing mom," said Anna, "something happened."
"Nothing happened," Emma said firmly.
"Why won't you tell us?" Chrissy asked.
"Please girls, you wouldn't understand," Emma replied.
"What makes you so sure?" Anna asked.
"I brought you here to show you how having sex can make such a mess of your lives," Emma explained. "Now don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade you two for anything else in the world, but I just wanted to help. I ended up just making a bigger mess of my life though." Tears were now streaming freely down her cheeks, and she almost couldn't see.
"Mom, look out!" Anna and Chrissy screamed together, both pointing at the bus they were about to hit.
Paige awoke from her restless slumber an hour later. Her head was pounding from all the crying she'd done. She got up and walked into her bathroom. She opened the medicine cabinet and pulled out a bottle of Ibuprofen. Popping of the top, she dry swallowed two pills.
Paige walked through the house, looking for something to occupy her, so she wouldn't have to think about Jay. The image just kept on replaying in her mind.
Paige wandered around her house, until she found a basket of laundry that had not yet been put away. She grabbed the basket, and headed off to her room once more. She hung all the clothes that needed to be hung, folded a few shirts, and put them away, too. She grabbed two socks, folded them into and ball, and opened Jay's sock drawer to put them away.
She stood and walked over to the open drawer. As she was placing the socks in the drawer, something made her slip. In mid-fall she grabbed onto the drawer, yanking it out of the dresser. She fell, of course, and made everything fall out of the drawer.
"Great," she mumbled to herself, sarcastically. She turned the drawer over and began putting the things back in. She froze when her hands reached something. It wasn't a sock like it was supposed to be, it was a picture. A picture of Emma. Why did he have a picture of Emma?
Paige felt a tear trickle down her cheek, and she hastily wiped it away. No, she told herself, you will not cry over him anymore. She blinked her eyes a few more times to get rid of other tears threatening to come, and she began to put the things away again.
She froze once more, though, as her hands passed over…
A/N Haha! Two cliffies! I hope you like this chapter it felt like it took forever to write. I tried to put in a lot of drama. I wrote part of it in school and let my friend read it (she doesn't watch Degrassi though), and she wanted me to have Superman come in and grant Paige a wish to kill Jay. I told her that was not happening lol. I am so sorry it took so long to put this up. With school starting, and de-fleaing my house (my cat had fleas), I haven't had much time. This was my favorite part to write, and I hope it will be your favorite part to read.
Thank you very much to all who reviewed! I love you (but not in that way, lol). If I could give you something I would, but I don't know any of you, so all I can give is my gratitude and invisible sweets. Oh, and to answer your question, and adulterer/adulteress is someone who cheats on his/her wife/husband. Once again thanks, and keep reviewing!