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This was written for the fantheatre community on LiveJournal and is theme number 29. This Isn't Happening/Only A Dream.
Numb. That was the only way to describe the feeling in his chest, or lack-there-of, and there was that one statement repeated in his mind like a mantra, 'This can't be happening.' 'Things like this only happen to bad people,' he told himself, 'It's only a dream'. You only read about things like this in the paper, and you don't really care, because it didn't happen to you or someone you loved. Things like this are too tragic to actually happen outside fiction novels. Your lover, your best friend, and your everything cannot suddenly be torn from the world without your world turning upside down, right? Right? Aren't you supposed to wake up in a cold sweat and think,'Something doesn't feel right..' instead of feeling devoid of all feeling, repeating over and over, 'This can't be happening!'
He supposed something was wrong with him. Shouldn't he be crying? Throwing things around his apartment in rage, and swearing revenge against the one who had just torn his life apart? Shouldn't he be cursing the one who had killed the best thing that ever happened to him? The only one who ever truly cared? The one who would rub his shoulders after rough missions, cook his supper, clean his apartment, and send him love letters signed from a 'secret admirer' to keep the curiosity of his coworkers at bay. After being told about Hayate's death, these were the things that Shuranui Genma thought about, as he gently repeated in his mind like a frightened child, 'This can't be happening.'
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