Disclaimer - I do not own any of the characters that you recognize in this fic, Meg Cabot does.

Warning - This fic may be a tad confusing. Actually i lie. It's very confusing. I'll leave a note at the end, explaining what to do if you're still very perplexed. (grins) But please read, i would be so grateful, oh and reviewing would be nice too.

A/N - I'm trying something new. I'm borrowing this idea/style. I saw someone do something like this before, but i changed the order of mine slightly to make it more impacting.

Blind Me

VII.

I woke to a thousand screams shattering in my ears; a thousand piercing, excruciating hands clawing at my throat from the inside; a thousand beads of sweat coated my skin, chilling me with bitter, stinging fingers and a thousand echoes imprinted my mind with terrifying memories … bleeding memories, leading me the way to eternal damnation.

I opened my eyes slowly. Slow agonising movements, which stimulated so much pain from within. Then, suddenly I remembered.

A shrill, penetrating and haunted scream was torn from my throat. It echoed throughout the room, splitting through the unnerving silence like a sharp bladed knife. It was a scream that held so much more than just pain and physical torture. The pain was heartbroken.

IV.

Hot. Distorted forms. Excruciating pain. White. Screaming. Can't think. Too much.

Pain!

"Wait! Don't! Let her go!"

Who? Me? Immobile … why can't I move?

"Why should I do that, boy?"

Too painful! I can't breathe. What are you doing to me?

"No. Suze!"

Anguished, terrified. Whose voice is that?

"Suze! Wait. It's me you want. Don't-"

I don't understand. Why can't I see? Blind. Dark. Black. Hell.

"Don't. Let her go … free."

Whispers and then more screams. Shattering, tormented screams. Finally, silence as the noise is abruptly cut off.

III.

"What did you do to her?"

"Nothing much."

"You fucker. Let me past. Suze!"

"I wouldn't do that if I were you."

"And why not?"

"She's on hermialpheline; a powerful drug, which can cause severe physical and mental damage if the subject is disturbed during use. If you try to wake her now, basically … she'll die."

"No! Suze …!"

"Stand back."

"What the-"

"Get him."

V.

"... Love is a powerful emotion, eh? …"

What? The silence is broken. Deep terrorised cries. More agonising, piercing screams.

"I couldn't have done this without you, sweetheart."

Who? Me? Dammit. What the hell is going on?

"You were a particularly vital part of this scheme. Thank you."

I can move. I can feel. Yet I still can't see.

White.

II.

"Where is she? You bastardo! Querida? Susannah? Can you hear me?

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"Is that him? Is that the boy?"

"No."

"So how do we get rid of him?"

"Simple. Eradication. The real one will be here soon. Just watch."

VI.

"Sweet little heart-breaker. Go back to your Latino lover. This fool can no longer love you."

Fear. Overwhelming panic. Footsteps, getting closer. Suddenly cold.

"Suze …"

So quiet. Faint whispers. Chilling my bones and stirring my soul. Paul?

"Go to Jesse. I'm giving you up now. I can't do this any longer. I've got to let go."

Let go of what? I'm so confused. Someone's beside me. What do I do?

"Don't move girl, I'm loosening your restraints, stay still or you'll get hurt."

That's not Paul. Paul! What's going on?

"Suze … Go home. Forget about this. Forget about me."

No Paul. I won't. I can't.

"But … since I'm letting you go."

Tense silence. Suffocating. Asphyxiating. I can't breathe. Bitter cold.

"I love you."

No. A new pain, from inside. Heartache? It's not possible. Shuffling. Cries of pain; not mine; Paul's. Silence.

"How does it feel? Suzie? To be the greatest shifter's downfall?

Cold.

I.

"I don't understand. You want me to do what?"

"Find the boy, and bring him to me. Use whatever techniques you find necessary."

"He's so powerful. How do you expect me to-?"

"Use his heart."

A/N - Right, I'm guessing a lot of you are still extremely confused? Try reading it again, only this time in chronological order ... (I, II. III, IV, V, VI, VII) It may make more sense then.

Thanks for reading! Sorry for the confusion! If you don't get it, don't let it annoy you too much lol. I'm just a strange, mystifying person!