Alone

Beast Boy sat staring at a black, silent TV. He had been planning on playing some video games, but all the things that used to mean so much to him felt pointless and empty to him lately. So he sat and did nothing, he just thought, but every time he let his mind wander it found its way back to her. He tried to keep at the things he once loved, tofu, games, or practical jokes. They hadn't outgrown him; Beast Boy remembered the fun he used to have playing, the good times he had with her. Now that she was gone, nothing really mattered. Hiding his recent coldness from his friends was hard. To act happy when he was all but dead inside was nearly impossible. The last thing Beast Boy wanted was for his friend to feel sympathy him for what happened, he didn't need pity. What happened was beyond their control, beyond his control. He was alone now and he could feel how ever he wanted, but he didn't feel anything.

Cyborg walked into the living room furiously consuming several burgers, He'd gone out for a mid day snack and was planning to share his bounty with his best buddy BB. He stopped with half of a burger hanging out of his mouth. He hadn't expected his friend to be looking miserably at the black screen of a silent TV. Frowning Cyborg set down his food and walked over at Beast Boy. It wasn't like Beast boy to act like this, BB was normally ecstatic regardless of what he was doing, but right now Beast Boy looked anything but thrilled. He leaned against the couch and casually asked,

"What's up Beast Boy?" Even though his tone was low and clam, the sudden presents of another person alarmed Beast Boy enough to jump up from his seat. BB twirled around wide eyed and fists clinched. Cyborg smiled and jumped on to the couch. He raised his mechanical eye brown in a questioning look as he waited for Beast Boy to answer his question. BB looked at Cyborg for several seconds before he responded,

"Nothing'." He flopped back in his seat and slouched heavily.

"Like hell nothing, you haven't been your self lately man. You can tell me."

"Really man, I'm perfectly fine. I'm just really tired." He smiled, but it felt fake on his face. Like a mask.

"Don't try that on me, I've know you better then any one, and you got something going on in that little green head of yours. What is it?"

"Just don't worry about it, ok." Beast Boy stood up and walked away. Cyborg felt hurt, he got up to follow him but was cut off by Starfire.

"Hello friend! I've made something for Beast Boy have you seen our little Green comrade." She was smiling and holding a very poorly wrapped gift.

"Look Star, I don't thing BB's in the mood for gifts right now." Starfire looked confused, her smile faded,

"But Beast Boy is always in the good mood, what could be wrong?"

"I don't know Star, He won't tell me. I think we should give the guy some time. I've never seen him like this, not sense Terra."

Beast Boy was lying on his floor starring up in to nothing. He didn't feel sad, he didn't feel anything. He was torn in so many directions. He didn't know what to do. He missed what he used to be. He missed the bliss of ignorance. The ignorance of the pain life can cause, the ignorance that she existed or the ignorance of how ugly the world can be. Terra changed his life, he always thought no one that perfect could survive in our harsh word, and in a way she hadn't. Terra got tainted by Slade's influence. The notion of that evil creature made the hair rise on the back of his neck.

Beast Boy stood and walked toward the window, to look out on the city that was so full of evil. He could feel a growl rumbling somewhere in the back of his throat, his mussels where taught and his heart was pumping. He needed to discharge. He needed to take out his pain on something, anything. The city was out their waiting for him, there had to be a crime somewhere, some crook that needed to be torn limb from limb. He opened the window and was preparing to leap when a knock sounded from his door.

"Beast Boy, I need to talk to you." It was raven. One of the others must have made her come and try to cheer him up. Her thinking she could fix everything just made him even more enraged.

"Leave me alone Raven, tell the others to back off! I don't need a lecture right now!" The snap in his voice was unintentional.

"No one sent me Beast Boy, what's wrong?" He slowly turned from the window. It wasn't like Raven to talk to him like this, in wasn't like her to talk to him at all really.

"Look Raven you don't want to get involved, I'll be fine." The lie burned in the back of his throat.

"Terra's gone." Beast Boy was surprised by her bluntness, but he recovered quickly enough to make a response.

"Why the hell did you bring her up, this has nothing to do with her!" He was screaming now.

"You forget I'm psychic." The bolt on his door turned black and clicked open.

"Hey! Did I say you can come in?" Regardless Raven calmly stepped in the door.

"You need to move on, what you're putting yourself through isn't healthy."

"Move on? What ever happened to saving her Raven! I know I'm the only one who still cares, and I'm not letting go of that!" He was in her face.

"I'm not the one who made her go insane Beat Boy! I'm just trying to help you, but every time I try you push me away!"

"Help me? You cant even bare to look at me! If its not some wise crack about my stupidity its something else!" Raven glared at Beast Boy and he just glared right back.

Then she leaned forward and kissed him. A short kiss, right on the lisps, Beast Boy's heart caught in his through and the hair on the back of his neck dropped. She pulled back immediately and looked down at the floor. She blushed and it burned brightly against her pale face. Beast Boy was bewildered, the awkward silence was only apparent to Raven as she avoided looking up at the stunned Beast Boy. When his eyes focused he looked down at her, she slowly looked back up at him. Their eyes locked and the Raven burned even more brightly in the cheeks.

He grabbed her and kissed her deep, this time it was Ravens turn to be stunned. Several stacks of paper and clothing exploded as Raven's emotions began to break free. Then she hugged him back as then kiss deepened. The windows burst, his bed cracked, the television flicked on and off, the entire tower trembled as her power expressed it self. The two where too enveloped to hear or see the environment around them writhe and convulse. Locked in their embrace they spun in a torrent of shrapnel and wind. As their lips parted the tempest rescinded slightly and he felt her breath heavily against his face. They looked at one another as the winds around them slowly died. Beast boy could hear the TV on in the back ground, a news reporter was frantically chattering about something, and then he realized what.

"The notorious criminal Terra was sighted in the city at four o'clock this afternoon. She has yet to be..." The screen exploded in to black shards. Beast Boy looked back at Raven, tears where welling up in her eyes,

"No..." was all she could say before she broke and cried openly. Beast Boy looked down at her with visible pain in his eyes,

"I'm sorry." He said and let her go and walked toward the shattered window.

"You don't have to!" Raven hit her knees. Beast Boy paused at the window and looked back at her, he stood at the threshold of the window looking down at the suffering Raven for several seconds, then turned and jumped into the air. He morphed into an eagle and soured over the ocean toward the city. Raven watched him go with tears flowing down her cheeks. She grasped the sides of her face and screamed; the Tower quaked and shook violently as she cried out. Beast Boy heard her yell but continued flying.