Konichiwa minna!! All the reviews I got were very encouraging and put a smile on my face. I feel admired for some reason. If any of you do not like loads of flashbacks, I am sorry, it's kinda the whole idea of the story. Anywayz, on with the fic...
Haunted...
A delicate breeze picked up and rustled a few loose leaves over the top of the tower. The early lighting of the day revealed an outline of Jump City, being so fragile that it needed saving constantly in an irregular pattern.
Hardly any sounds of man, only the easily disturbed calls of nature. The calm waters lapped against the sand and the call of birds filled the air with innocence. Starfire sighed deeply, thinking about her dilemma. Well, I guess things couldn't get any worse... She thought abruptly, and then she mentally slapped herself for it. Of course it's going to get worse not that you've said that. Did raven not tell you the ways of 'Karma'?
Raven. She needed advice form the wise member of the team that would have any understanding of her situation. But I do not want to burden anybody with my problems... 'But can you handle it on your own?' her inner voice complained. Maybe I should seek advice from Raven... She sighed and hovered towards the roof door. Glancing back on the city, she descended down towards Raven's room.
Cautiously, she made her way down to Raven's room. She passed the main room and glanced at the clock which hadn't been blown up yet. It read 5:30. Surely Raven should be awake by now... Star thought and continued. She landed outside a door, which was cold to the touch and knocked to times to show the importance of the matter.
A sudden thump was heard and a light cursing. "Raven? I am sorry to have bothered you at such an hour, but I need some of your trustworthy advice urgently. Would you help me... please?"
The door whooshed open and revealed a rather distorted Raven. She scanned Starfire's mind for a logical explanation and for a torrent of disturbing and confusing emotions. Her face softened, only a little bit and was hardly noticeable.
Raven breathed in deeply and sighed. "Come on Starfire, let's get you some herbal tea and we shall... discuss why your mind's in chaos." Starfire smiled faintly, she didn't really feel like it. They both walked casually towards the main room and Raven went into the kitchen and put on the tea while Starfire took a seat on the sofa and looked out the window. Soft white flakes were falling and coated the city in a light sheer.
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"Mhmmm. What is this delightfully sweet white powder Tim?" she asked with big eyes.
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"It's called sherbet..."
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With the sudden thought of her previous addiction, other than mustard, she licked her lips as the memory played out. Raven's cloaked swept passed her and alerted her from her sub-consciousness. Star glanced to her left and saw Raven's solemn face.
"So, what's your problem?" Raven asked in a monotone voice with a hint of concern. Star looked away and stared out to the lightly falling snow. She got an idea and asked, "Do we have the white substance of 'sherbet'?"
Raven cocked an eyebrow and sighed, "Why would you want sherbet this time of morning? It's barely light out!" Starfire sighed and Raven's eyes softened, just a bit. "You're not telling me the real reason why your mind is in chaos, are you?" Starfire shook her head no.
"Raven, I need your assistance on how to deal with my own problems by myself. I have tried all the magazines and news reports the come through our front door, in some sort of postal order. I am willing to try some, but I hoped that you would be able to help."
Raven looked at Starfire surprised. Sure they had meditated together, but Star would always tell her if she had any problems. But needless to say, Starfire isn't the one to be secretive about her problems... or is she? These questions bombarded Raven's thoughts. "Well,-" she started but was interrupted by the kettle clicking. She slowly rose up and made her and Starfire their cups of tea. "Well, when I want to sort out my problems,-" Raven started again.
"-You always resort to the calming of darkness. I know that Raven, but, what if darkness didn't exist?" Starfire interrupted.
"That's impossible. Dark and light are like yin and yang."
"I do not see any darkness in my mind or any of my consciouses."
"At least not yet," came Raven's quick remark. Star's eyes cast down towards the floor as she took a sip of the tea that Raven handed to her. Raven sighed.
"Alright, I usually go to Dèpressà De La Café when ever I feel like I need to deal with something. You should go there and listen to the songs and poetry. Most of it really helps me; maybe it can help you as well."
Starfire nodded her head in agreement, "I think I will venture and go to the café of Dèpressà. Maybe it will help clear, or at least make sense of what is in my mind!" With her triumphant decision she made her way towards the door and closed it quietly. Raven had her monotone look on her with a very faint trace of happiness for her friend. Slowly, the door opened and Raven turned her head towards it, only to fond Star's head peeking through. "I hope you do not mind me asking but, could you please give me directions to the café please?" she asked innocently. Raven slapped her hand to her forehand and sighed.
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The day's light was merciless blotted out by thick clouds and very thick fog rolled in fast. Turn left at 6th Avenue... then look for the darkest alley... Starfire was carefully following the directions the Raven had given her and was having a hard time. Dark alley... Just the sudden mention of those two words put together made a chill run up her spine. A sheer wind swept over her direction and she glanced towards the source.
A light glow came from an alley... a rather dark one at that. She gracefully landed and walked cautiously towards the glow. Slowly she pushed open a metal door to reveal a room full of darkly dressed people. Her eyes moved around slowly until a tall, dark guy greeted her. "Life is pain..." he began.
Remembering what Raven had told her she responded, "Death is rapture..." A faint smile could be seen on the guy's face, but it was well hidden.
"Welcome to my café, what might your name be?"
Use an alias... "My name is Kori, my friend Rae told me to come here so that I could sort out my problems..." she stated in her innocent voice. The guy cocked an eyebrow and looked into her emerald eyes.
"What would you like, a cappuccino or latte?"
"I would like a latte please. Erm... do you think you could show me to a seat?"
"Of course and since you are new here, maybe you should sit at the front so that you are noticed..." With that, the waiter escorted her towards the front where a band was playing numerous songs.
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
(I'm going under)
What has he done for me? 'The question is... what have you done for him?' I have done many things; some did not even know I was doing... 'But he showed you Earth, gave you friendship and security' Robin and my friends give me that now, I have cried to many times thinking of him that I have not completely accepted my new life and I have been this way for three of these Earth years... 'He can't help you if you don't tell him' He couldn't hear me even if I was screaming... 'You know that is not true, Tim could hear you in a whisper... It is Robin who cannot hear you when you're screaming'
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I do not feel so... safe here anymore... 'You can only save yourself' But Robin is always the one who is there to save me... 'Maybe if you save yourself maybe you wouldn't be so naïve all the time' But what exactly do I do? 'You have to go under...'
I'm going under (Going under)
Drowning in you (Drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (Falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Go... under? No I do not wish to return to that place that corrupts innocent people... 'So why do you not admit to yourself the truth?' "Here you go miss, your latte," the waiter stated as he gave her the hot drink. 'Come on Kori... I mean it's not that hard to tell the truth, but very easy to mix them up'
Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
I do not wish to be untruthful to myself or my friends... 'What they do not know cannot possibly hurt them' I wish I never had left Tamaran, and then maybe I wouldn't be in this mess... 'Tamaran is dead and you know it, along with Tamaran is that happy-go-lucky demeanour you keep putting on, who are you trying to fool?'
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under (Going under)
Drowning in you (Drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (Falling forever)
I've got to break through
I am trying to fool no one. I was just so happy that I was away from Timothy and didn't have to be near him constantly... 'You own him your life do you not?'
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He started to undo his belt and pull down her skirt.
A flash of colours, swirls, patterns and thoughts inside Kori's head all faded into black. The pain was so extreme, she couldn't cope.
Kori screamed.
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So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under
Yes... But... he stole my virginity... I promised myself I would never let someone take advantage of me like that again... 'You still trust him do you not?' I trust my friends and Robin... 'You still trust him... But do you love him?' I- I- 'Cannot answer? Of course you cannot... It has been too long, you need to refresh your memory and visit... Go under...'
I'm going under (Going under)
Drowning in you (Drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (Falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
"Going under... I must go..." A silent tear rolled down her cheek and landed on the palm of her hand. She blinked quickly and finished her latte. She walked cautiously through the crowd and towards the door. "I ensure that you fulfilled your stay?" The waiter asked as she pushed the door open, he had a smirk on his face. Starfire nodded sternly and walked through the door. The smirk on the waiter's face grew as he pulled out his mobile. "Guess whose back?"
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Starfire hovered dazedly along the sky line. She looked above her and observed the purple tinted clouds and red tinted sky. To her it was so picturesque. It reminded her instantly of another dream she had, except it was more pleasant than her previous nightmare, which she was currently living. Maybe I should carry out those techniques that were featured in one of raven's magazines.
Soon enough, the buildings below her seemed oddly familiar and a nervous chill ran up her spine. She shivered and lowered her ground clearance. Dust rose as she hovered towards the street outside a shaky door. Wisps of leaves that were swept up by the wind gathered around her and the door, as if they were ushering her to go in.
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Tim returned the hug with all his strength. "Please don't go Kori... I care about you too much..." he whispered. Kori pulled away and shook her head. Tim kissed her on the forehead and she kissed him on the cheek.
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An unsteady hand reached out and gently pushed the door open to reveal darkness. Starfire popped her head through and sighed. She opened the door fully and stepped into the shadows. She walked further and lit up a neon green star bolt. The door made an eerie slam as she went into the middle of the icy room. She turned left and hovered towards another dark door, which was painted white.
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
Should I go in? "Yes..." came a low voice. Starfire's eyes perked up and looked around quickly. Fearing someone was behind her she pushed open the door and closed it back quickly when she was inside. She felt a sinking feeling in her stomach as she glanced at the bed. It had all different colours of rose petals.
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
She carefully picked a few up and brought them to her cheek. They were soft and still fresh. Her emerald eyes flashed in realisation... "I know you are still here Tim, you are here now..." she whispered to no one in particular and dropped the rose petals as she heard the doors within the room lock from the outside and one open. "I've been waiting for you... Kori," a familiar voice came from the shadows.
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Starfire turned around and recognised the face instantly. The jet black spiky hair and rich hazel eyes. "Timothy... I-" she started unable to move.
"Hush Kori, I know what you're going through... and I know you've been dreaming of me." He whispered in her ear as he came up to her and brought her close to him. Starfire, being the caring person that she is, embraced him in a hug and laid her head on his shoulder.
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
"You still love me..." she choked, almost inaudible. Tim pulled away slightly and sat her down on the bed, sitting besides her. Star felt a familiar feeling, but quickly dismissed it.
"I do... and I know you feel the same way too..." Tim then kissed her lovingly on her forehead; she hesitantly returned the favour with a kiss on the cheek. He smiled.
Hunting you I can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Tim slowly lay down on the petal covered bed as not to alarm her; hoping that she would do what he wanted her to do. Feeling the lack of heat and warmth, Star laid down next to him putting her head on his chest, listening to his heart beat. He was real... so very real... and she didn't want to leave...
Watching me, wanting me
He watched her every movement, the way she caressed his chest sleepily, not really knowing what she was doing. "I just want you to know, I've wanted to see you for a long time. It's been too long Kori, I missed you..."
"I missed you too, but, what would my friends approve of you and I being together? Surely they would not accept-" Starfire was cut off by Tim soft lips against hers. He reached out his hand and caressed her cheek. She closed her eyes and almost enjoyed the moment, if only there wasn't another person in her life.
"They will just have to accept it. Besides, I've saved your life-"
"-Three times I know. I also thank you for it, but I never thanked you properly. I wish there was something I could do..." Tim cocked an eyebrow remembering a memory. Surely she couldn't have experienced it with anyone else. He leaned in close to her and started to kiss her neck.
"You do realise of course, that you could do more than that, and you already have..." The same mischievous glint crossed his eyes as he kissed her collar bone after removing her armour. There he saw the same mark that he had given her three to four years ago.
I can feel you pull me down
Tim carefully pushed her down further into the covers and relieved her of her boots and socks. His breathing remained calm and in control as Star's was slighting faster and more worried. She had just realised the position she had just put herself in... again. She tried to reach for her communicator but her hand brushed up against Tim thigh and he quickly caught it.
"What are you trying to get Cutie?" he asked as his hand descended towards her hip. Star bit her lower lip as he found her device. "What's this? Teen titans eh? You were in Jump City all the long and you were... Starfire..." Star looked away as the truth was revealed. He tossed it away and it smashed against the laminated floor. "Don't worry Kori, I'll keep your secret," he whispered and carried on kissing her on the lips.
Starfire opened her mouth to protest but it only gave Tim an advantage, and he used it. She felt his hands roam around her body undoing various clothing; surprisingly enough, she did the same to him. His coaxing was getting too much for her to bear as she gave into his touch. His hands descended to her hips again and pass them towards the inner side of her thighs.
Saving me, raping me, watching me
The same flash of colours, swirls, patterns came and all her present thought faded into black. The last thought to leave was her second 'saviour'.
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Titans Tower...
"Where is she?!" The Boy Wonder yelled to no one in particular. He was pacing up and down, being frustrated and worried at the same time. Cyborg and Beast boy were playing Tekken Tag Tournament. Cyborg was winning... yet again so he decided to pause the game. BB shrieked in anger.
"DUDE! How could you pause the game especially when I'm winning?!"
"You never were winning you little grass stain. Besides, there are more important matters than winning that game, Star's missing and Robin is going crazy... again." Cy replied. Robin instantly stopped when he heard the word crazy. He immediately grabbed Cyborg in a head-lock.
"Crazy, I'll show you who's crazy! Do you have any idea what could happen to her? Especially after what happened last night!! You ignorant metal man!!" Robin yelled in Cyborg's ear. After ten minutes of wrestling Raven decided to separate the two with her powers.
"Listen Robin, Starfire came to me this morning because she needed help dealing with her problems but didn't want to tell me what they were. So, I gave her some advice and told her to go to Dèpressà De La Café to deal with them. She went at around six." Raven explained to her leader.
"But it is now eleven at night! What sort of problem does she have to stay there for sixteen hours?!!" Robin yelled as he took out his communicator. "Starfire report, where are you?" All they heard on the other end was static. "Her line is dead," Robin stated.
"Maybe we could track her communicator's signal," Cyborg suggested. He logged onto the computer and searched for her signal. There was none. "Her com link's offline as well."
"So, where's Star?" BB asked. Robin started to get nervous.
"Raven do you think you could trace her using your powers from the café?" Robin asked. Raven nodded and transported them to Dèpressà De La Café.
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Dèpressà De La Café...
"Well, if it isn't Raven Roth and her male friends. What can I get you?" the same waiter who served Starfire asked.
"I'm here to find a friend of mine. She has red hair and emerald green eyes and wears a purple shirt with long sleeves and a purple mini skirt with boots. Have you seen her?"
The waiter smirked evilly and Robin didn't like it. "Maybe," Robin didn't like it one bit so he jumped at the waiter.
"Have you seen her or not!" he growled.
"Yes, I have. She went by the name of Kori and left at mid-day. Not my fault you keep a gorge girl like that around. There are thugs around you know." Robin's face paled and his masked eyes widened.
"We have to find her NOW!" he commanded, "Split up and search everywhere and if find trouble, call for help." They all nodded and did as they were told.
The waiter pulled out his mobile again and dialled a number. "What do you want this time of night?" a sleepy but satisfied voice broke through.
"Guess whose friends just came here looking for her. The dude with a mask and black hair seemed ready to kill..."
"Shit!" the line went dead.
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Tim tried to get up but felt a weight on his bare chest. His Kori was still asleep. "Kori, Cutie, wake up!" Shit what am I gonna do when that masked teen comes after me? And sees her like THIS!!" Tim thought. He quickly came up with an idea though. Carefully he slipped out from underneath Star and put his clothes back on, then did the same to Starfire... and enjoyed every moment of it.
Once they were fully dressed Tim carried Starfire out of the room and into the garage. There he mounted on his black motor bike with her carefully in front of him. He revved it up but soon stopped as he saw two shadows. He listened carefully to the voices.
"I can feel Starfire's presence, but it's very faint. She must have passed by here." A female voice sounded.
"Find her! Find her now, who knows what could happen to her!" An angry male voice sounded. The shadows soon left and all was quiet again. Tim sighed in relief and revved up his bike again. He rode out towards Titans Tower and parked in the forest opposite the side of the tower island with Starfire's window.
He shot out a line towards it and swung up to her window and opened her window. Tim walked casually to the silk covered bed. He gently put Starfire down and tucked her in. Still hovering close to her whispered, "I will be back, Kori, sooner than you think. I still love you, especially now..." He kissed her forehead, cheeks and lips before he left.
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"You do realise the consequences of having sex without protection don't you?" the kind clerk asked. Kori cocked her head to the side yet again. The clerk sighed, "Well you-"...
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Gasp Starfire shot up from her position and looked quickly around the room. She was in her own and there were no rose petals. Just a wall of softly lit candles, which were on twenty-four seven. "I did not just. I couldn't have, it was all a mistake. I do not wish to live if this is what life on this interesting planet is..." Starfire whispered no one.
Taking out an athemae, a sacred dagger, she blew out her candles only leaving one a light. "Sacred athemae of the goddess X'hal, grant me what I desire most... freedom..." The athemae slowly descended towards her abdomen...
Oh, why so long! O well, you loyal reviewers deserve it. A little does of my talent. Thanxz to all the reviews and I'll update 'Baby Can I hold You Tonight' soon. I'm sure that will please some of you!
clueless90: Thanxz, I updated!
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anwen: So your name is Carly, interesting. Thanxz, but I don't need any new characters at this stage. Thanxz again!
BrassBanana: Thanxz and now you have another chapter to read and review. Jkz!
Laura: Thanxz! Well, she didn't tell Raven and I'm not exactly sure how the others will find out. They'll find out something though.
PixelGirl2009: Sorry for yelling at you, just that so many people said that Tim was Robin. ARGH!! Did I write fluff? (re-reads her writing) Okay, so I did write some fluff, but it doesn't seem like fluff to me, but it seemed to please you. I updated and will e-mail you soon. Love ya!
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Someone: Yeah, I thought it would be a nice twist as well, but I thought of a better on based on that. Mwhahahahahahahahahaha!
blonde shadowcat: Thanxz, long live flashbacks!! You might get confused by the flashbacks in this chapter but they're all relevant! Thanxz again!!
lil' LIK Star: Err... nah! Star isn't going to tell Robin about her dreams in this chapter and at least not yet. Yep, these are really gonna change her perspective on life, if you see the last paragraph of this chapter. And for the question about Tim... maybe. Thanxz!
StarfireRobin: Awww, Star will live, but from the looks of it, I'm lying. So sorry. You're welcome. Thanxz!
Starfire-is-not-a-wimp: I like the way I portrayed her past, no one else has done it like that... I don't think. Tim and Robin will meet and that's all I'm gonna say. About Red X... you'll have to read to find out. Thanxz!!
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Princess Angel Rose: Your idea is really, really good and I did already have something like that in mind so... it will be used, just not your way. Thanxz!!
Rose: Star loves Tim still and yes she is still mad at him. But she owes him a lot. The question is... can Robin save her. Yeah, that actually happened here in the UK and was reported so, well, that's where I got the idea from. I updated!! Thanxz for reviewing all of my stories!! Love ya!!
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