This story quite bluntly speaks of Male/Male lovin'. If you don't like it, please find another fic to read.
After procrastinating for several days, I have finally put my pen to paper and will write down some of the thoughts and feelings that you seem to provoke in me. Feelings that no matter how hard I try, I cannot seem to escape. Just as I begin to think I have freed myself from your web I realize I have become even more entangled than before, drawn to your aura, and it seems nothing can help me but you. Truthfully, I did not think it would be this hard. To tell you everything I have ever felt about you when I seldom even tell anyone how my day has been.
After months of trying to deny it, I realize that I want you. This isn't like anything I have ever wanted before. This is unlike when I was a child and wanted an object for some petty reason. I cannot tell you how many times I have wanted to hold your hand when you seem distressed, or kiss away the pain that I sometimes see in your eyes. On occasion I've wanted to strip down your defenses and see who you truly are. I imagine a man who doesn't care about the pressures of society. A man who would give all of his love in a heartbeat to that one special person. I have dreamed that person would be me. I often wonder if you are lonely like I am. Maybe you and I, both lonely people, could share our pain, and eventually chase it away; causing that new companionship, and that friendship, to blossom into one of the sweetest romances of our time.
Sometimes I feel if I was ever denied of you that I would feel numb for the rest of my days. To be without you is to be without oxygen, and I need you to survive. If I cannot have you, why should anyone else? I would gladly give you all of my heart, body, and soul. Would that not be enough? What could anyone else give you that I couldn't? I would do anything for you because.. I love you.
Love. Love can cause such strong emotions that can either make you the happiest man alive, or crush your soul. To have your love returned with the fervor that you give it can be one of the most rewarding things to ever happen to you. Would you be so kind as to reward me? I love you with everything I am. Can you love me too? I promise to never hurt you, or let you down.
I simply want to ask a few things. If you cannot love me for any reason, I can understand. But I assure you, if you let me be the one to anchor you down to this world when it feels like it may sweep you away with its troubles, I'll love you with a passion you have never known. Let me be the one you come home to at night, to welcome you with hugs, kisses, and a comfort that you only thought existed in fairytales. Let me be the one who can love unconditionally. But most importantly, let me be the one who you confide in, tell your deepest secrets to, when you need to drop the weight of your shoulders.
I hope you come to a decision soon. Either way, I hope we can still be friends, even though you know how I truly feel.
Love,
Kain Fury
Kain folded the neatly written letter, let out a deep sigh, and rose from his desk. As he yawned and stretched he looked back down and grabbed his pen one more time and scrawled To: Heymans Breda. Now all he had to do was place the letter on Breda's desk just before they left the office so he could go home and anticipate Breda's response. 'Tomorrow is going to be mentally demanding day,' he told himself, so he slipped off his boots and flopped onto the bed of his dorm room. Smiling hopefully, the dark haired man removed his thick glasses and stared at the ceiling before finally drifting off to sleep.
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