Disclaimer: I don't own Evo or ever will, don't bother suing.
Author's Notes: I was just hit with the inspiration at midnight. It started from this stupid Melissa O'Neil song on the radio that just keeps playing and the lyrics just won't get out…I think it'll be a short little journal entry fic thing. I think I'll put up Remy's side to this whole thing too. I'll wrap it up with that. Soon. I'm busy, so be amazed you're getting this many updates. I really should be getting back to 'URX'. I've decided to leave ch. 5 as it is and write ch.6. It shall be called, 'Meeting Destiny At Gunpoint'. Interesting? Yes or no. Anyway, here we go.
TAKING A CHANCE
Hey, Diary,
It's me again, same person, new secret, shocking confession.
I think I finally get it. I think I finally understand.
I think I'm tired, tired of being who I am. I'm tired of sitting here and feeling sorry about myself. I hate that I hate myself. I hate that I hurt because of all the others that burned me and the fact I can't get over it. I hate that I'm in this jail of my body, this curse of a life. I want to live.
I want to be free of all this.
I want to be happy, I want to run and be wild, uninhibited and liberated.
I want to fall in love.
Truth is, I think I already am, because with him, I'm everything I want to be, with him, I'm so free and light at peace with myself. He makes me feel beautiful, safe and important. I don't think anyone else has ever made me feel that way, at all. In my dreams, he comes every night, offering me a promise and new hope. Every morning, I wake up and see that it's only a dream, a perfect little reality I made up. More than anything, I want that dream.
I know it won't be perfect, but I know that it's worth it.
He's beautiful to me in every way. His heart is open and tells me all his stories of pain, suffering, joy, hate, love and hilarity. He understands me like no one else and knows how to reach me, and comfort me, without words. His touch drives me crazy, but makes me feel so alive. I'm happy with him, always happy. I love the way he looks at me with those big ruby onyx eyes that shimmer and glow, burning all his emotions for me to see. I see that torment there, that sadness and I want to make it better and watch it heal. He makes me want to be the person I can be.
I love his smile, the way it melts my heart, his laughter that quickens my heart, and his eyes that stare at me so intensely, only for me. I love that humor, his wit and our fights. I love the way he holds me when I'm sad, lonely and depressed and killing myself. I love that he understands me. I love that he cares about me and is sweet, kind and caring. I love that he makes me laugh, when I have nothing to laugh about. I love that he makes my pulse race, my heart stop and make my stomach fill with butterflies, even the way my knees get weak and I think I'll fall. I love his incredible heart that is boundless and filled with love that he can't see. I love that he sees me for me and likes me for me. I love that he might be in love with me too.
God and he's such a bad boy. It's in his clothes and attitude, that trench coat he wears. It's the fights he gets into and starts. The way he's such a smartass and drives everyone up the wall is something that attracts me to him, strangely. He drives a motorcycle, flirts with all the girls and drinks like there's no tomorrow, but I see through all that and he's warm and loving at the core. I can't resist him. He's too tempting and it's not just the personality. It's the incredible body, gorgeous face and wondrous eyes. His eyes enrapture me and lure me into seeing his soul. It's the one thing that he only shows me. You know I've never been able to resist those damned bad boys. He's much too tempting. I'm not one to resist temptation when he looks like THAT.
So I think I'll take the chance, stop playing games and give him my heart because it's what I long for. It's what keeps me up at night and haunts my mind. I want him to be the one to take away all my fears and uncertainties. I want to make him happy. I want to be with him. I want him to take me away from it all.
I want to know what it's like. I want to see if love is as deep, wide, vast and boundless as the ocean. I want to see if he'll really be that guy that's meant to be the ONE. I think he is.
I want to fall in love with Remy LeBeau.
No, let me rephrase that, I want to admit to Remy LeBeau that I love him.
So wish me good luck, I'm taking a chance.
The ever untouchable,
Rogue.
But maybe I won't be that anymore. Maybe he'll set me free and maybe I'll make him happy too.
What'd ya think? Ya like? Well review and send some more for 'A Mutated Existence' and 'Underground Resistance X' and I might be kind and write up the next chapter to 'The Road to Forever'.
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