Meredith sat in her empty apartment in New York, boxes surrounding her full of her things. She grew quite fond of this little apartment in the last year, but she couldn't resist the offer to return to Seattle Grace to become an attending. Meredith taped together the last of her boxes and loaded her car. She drove the long drive back to Seattle when she thought about going back to the hospital, Derek crossed her mind. He had signed the divorce papers but she couldn't handle it in Seattle any more she had to get away. She thought about what Derek would have looked like when he was told she was moving to New York. She had asked Izzie not to tell him until she had left, but news travels quick at Seattle grace and he had been able to see her just in time, but she wouldn't talk to him she couldn't handle it. She remembered how she saw that single tear fall down his face as she drove away…her mobile started ringing.

"Hello" Meredith said.

"Hey Mer its Izzie."

"Oh hey how are you?"

"I'm fine Mer. I was just wandering what time you would be here?"

"Ummm hard to say probley around 8:30. Why?" Meredith asked suspiscially.

"Ohhh nothing just can't wait to see you that's all."

"Izzie what is it. Have you trashed my house?"

"No Meredith."

"You haven't told him have you?"

"Who… oh Derek no I haven't. Why? Do you want me to?" Meredith could see the smile on Izzie's face as she said it.

"No I don't. Izzie I have to go ok."

"Ok bye Mer." Izzie hung up the phone and went up stairs to find George. She looked at him while he dressed leaning against the wall of the bedroom they now shared. George somehow felt her presence and turned to give her a grin.

"Hey" he smiled at her.

"Hey Bambi."

"Do you still have to call me that, I mean can't you call me George."

"No"

"Why not?"

"Because I've decided that's your pet name." she exclaimed.

George sighed, he loved her so much. "Who was on the phone?"

"Meredith she'll be back about 8:30 she reckons."

"Have you told her about…us?"

"No I think I'll tell her when she gets here. You don't know how much I want to tell Mcdreamy that she's coming back. You know I think she still likes him."

"Yeah I think he still likes her. He's always asking me how she is."

"Really? He's like a love sick puppy."

"Oh shit" George exclaimed "were late."

Meredith pulled into her drive way. A part of her was happy to be back but the other part was screaming at her to go back to New York. She preferred it here she thought. She got out of her car and opened the front door. She walked into the kitchen to find George and Izzie making out.

"Well isn't that a nice welcome home surprise." She smiled. George and Izzie jumped.

"Mer!" Izzie exclaimed getting out of Georges grip and going to hug her friend. "Oh my god you look great."

"Hey Mer" George hugged her to "How have you been?"

"Great. It's actually good to be back."

"Mer. When are you starting at the hospital?" Izzie asked smiling.

"Why?" Meredith knew what she was getting at.

"Oh just wandering if you wanted me to say anything to Mcdreamy, or do you want to surprise him you know?"

"I like the surprise thing." Meredith smiled "I can imagine it now me standing there getting some files and he walks in my direction he'll half ask 'Meredith' and I'll look at him and say 'Derek' then my beeper will go off and I'll leave him there." Meredith said happily.

"Wow, I see your imagination has gotten better." George exclaimed "I'm going to bed." He went and gave Izzie a kiss and hugged Meredith.

"Well I want to start unpacking." Meredith sighed.

"I'll help you." Izzie said.

Meredith and Izzie unpacked. Izzie unwrapped a photo frame which had a picture of Meredith and Derek in it but it looked like she hadn't looked at it in a while because it had dust all over it.

"I'm going to bed Mer do the rest tomorrow." Izzie handed her the frame. Meredith looked at her puzzled until she saw the picture. Meredith found her self looking at the picture for 10 minutes noticing every little detail in it, until she decided to go to bed.

Meredith unpacked the rest of her things in the morning and was up before Izzie and George left. She gave Izzie an evil look before she left. The rest of the day went slow Meredith mostly laid around on the couch watching TV. She went to bed early.
Beep…Beep…Beep…Meredith hated that sound so much she wished it was illegal. She got dresses and headed down stairs. She ate some breakfast grabbed her coffee and went to work with Izzie and George.

"C'ya later guys." Meredith said to them.

"Where are you going?"

"Well I got to go get changed then go and see Dr.Webber straight away."

"Oh ok bye Mer."

Meredith walked to Chief Webber's office and knocked on the door.

"Come in." She heard the friendly voice from inside. She opened the door. "Oh Meredith its good to see you. I thought it might be you. Sit down." They talked for the next 10 minutes until Meredith got told to meet her interns. She stood up and shook Dr.Webber's hand when there was a knock on the door. They both turned to look.

"Ahhh Dr.Webber I've…"Derek's voice trailed off and he stared at Meredith in disbelief.

"Yes Dr.Shepard come in. Meredith go get to work ok."

"Ok thank you Chief." Meredith said. "Dr.Shepard." Meredith looked at him, he looked so hot. Meredith walked out of the room.

"I'm guessing no one told you she was coming back." Dr.Webber grinned at Derek.

"No, no one did." Derek answered bewildered. He went over some test results with Dr.Webber as quick as possible, he had to go find her. Derek started to go out the room when Dr.Webber called out "She'll be on the third floor." Derek continued on his way. How did he know that he was going to go looking for her.

Derek found her with some interns in room 1273.

"Ok Dr.Barrett what do you think the best diagnosis for Ms.Barker." She watched as her intern nervously answered her question. "Perfect. So I want you to book the OR for 3 tomorrow and you and Dr.Atwood will scrub in. Ok so the rest of you get on with your rounds and Barrett, Atwood and I do some more tests." Meredith turned around to see Derek leaning against the door frame looking at her. She sighed.

"Meredith can I talk to you?" Derek asked still astonished that she was there in front of him.

"I 'spose. Wait here." She told her interns and walked out of the room to Derek.

"I can understand that you didn't tell me when you left, but why didn't you tell me you were coming back?"

"For the same reasons Derek, ok it's too complicated."

"How is it complicated I mean jeeze Meredith I cared for you and you just packed up and left!"

"I couldn't handle it anymore ok and don't you dare ask me what I couldn't handle don't make me bring up her name!"

"I couldn't stop thinking about you."

"To be honest with you I couldn't either, but I can't just pick up were we left off."

"Why not? Come to dinner with me tonight." He said grinning at her.

Meredith sighed "Ok. You know I went through this conversation so many times last night and thought about what I was going to say and nothing that I planned has happened."

Derek chuckled kissed her temple then walked off. Meredith turned into the room and saw her interns smiling at her. "Shut up" she said then got back to work.

"MER!" Cristina yelled when she saw her and hugged her which was a little out of character for her. She sat down with George, Izzie and Cristina and Alex came and sat with them to.

"So Mer I was thinking we could go to the bar tonight and celebrate you being home." George said happily.

"Uhhh sorry can we do it tomorrow night I've got plans tonight." She said a bit embarrassed that Izzie was looking at her like she new what she was doing. "What?" Meredith said to her.

"You've crumbled already haven't you? You came to work to fight it and you've crumbled!" she said reasonably loud.

"Izzie shut up." Meredith snapped. Everyone sat there puzzled until Cristina seemed to relise.

"You poor girl." Cristina said sounding sorry for her.

"Your going out with him!" George boomed only just catching on.

"Ohhh I understand now you're going out with Shepard." Alex said.

Izzie turned to Alex "You know for a Dr your freaking thick!"

"Mer why?" George asked.

"Its complicated ok jeeeze aren't I aloud a life!" Meredith getting fed up with everyone.

"Ok sorry." Izzie said annoyed with Meredith. She had crumbled.

Meredith walked into the waiting room were surprisingly enough Derek was waiting for her, like he used to.

"Hey." He said happily.

"Hey, you know George, Izzie and Cristina aren't happy I'm going out with you tonight."

"How did they find out?"

"Oh I just said I had plans for tonight and Izzie read me like a book. She said I crumbled."

Derek smiled"You ready to go?"

"Yeah I think so."

Derek took her hand in his as they walked out of the hospital and Meredith felt comfortable which she hadn't felt for a long time.

Dinner was great, so great infact that Meredith invited Derek in for coffee afterwards, but as much as she wanted to she didn't ask him to stay the night.

A couple of days passed when Derek approached Meredith again.

"How do you feel about Chinese?" he asked with a boyish grin.

"Sounds good." Meredith replied.

"Ok I'll meet you in the famous waiting room at 9?"

"Ok." Meredith went to walk off, Derek reached out and brushed her thigh as she walked past. She turned around and looked at him

"What?" he replied cheekily. Meredith shook her head and walked away.

After dinner that night Meredith asked Derek to stay the night

She woke in the morning with her legs entangled in Derek's and his arms wrapped around her. She moved her hand from his side to his leg which caused him to stir. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled at her, he loved her but wasn't ready to tell her just yet. He moved closer and kissed just when her alarm went off.

"Damn it. I'm too tired." Derek complained. But Meredith was already up and getting dressed so he thought he better to. He grabbed her around the waist and started kissing her neck. Meredith turned to him and they started kissing in earnest before Meredith broke away and walked downstairs.

"Make breakfast for four this morning Izzie, please." She said chirpy.

"Yeah I know I could hear." She replied sleepily. Meredith blushed.

Derek walked downstairs and smiled at everyone.

"Good morning, good to have everything back to normal." George smiled. Derek sat across from Meredith and gave her a cheeky smile before eating his breakfast.

George was right everything was back to normal and Meredith was glad it was.

Ok that was my first fanfic ever. I don't know if it was any good and if I should continue so please let me know!