Chapter 2

"Hey Joey, you got to come, it will be out last time together this summer before we go travelling, please please please please" Jen whined down the phone at Joey. "Just think of it as the last supper, you wouldn't have missed that!" Jen joked. "Ok ok, only if Grams promises to make that wonderful soup she does" Joey compromised as she had already told Bessie she would look after Alexander but she was sure Bessie wouldn't mind, it being the last supper and all.

"Joey grams cant hear you she is in the kitchen with jack, oh my god you are such a kiss-ass, I cant believe you're still scared of Grams" Jen laughed. "I'm not scared" Joey lied. " Yeah ok, whatever just be here for six ok? Oh and Jo, Pacey will be coming, I hope that's ok" Jen said feeling totally guilty of inviting him and also a bit uneasy as they were both her friends and not that she was unsympathetic to each of their needs but she was unwilling to take sides and not see on of her friends.

"Jen that's totally cool, honestly it will be nice to see him, I haven't seen him in weeks," Joey said. Ok, so she was only half telling the truth, it would be nice for them all to be together again but she had seen him, a week ago outside the grocery store but she hid so he couldn't see her. She was going to go and say hi but she chickened out at the last minute and hid.

As she hung up the phone she had butterflies at the thought of seeing Pacey, she giggled to herself. How long will it be before that stops she thought, will it ever stop? And with that thought and the nervousness growing inside her she went off to get ready.

Joey arrived about half an hour late because Bessie needed her to get medicine for Alexander who was poorly. Cursing Bessie under her breath she arrived at Jen's and was met by grams at the door. "Josephine potter, you're late dear we have already started dinner without you I am afraid" Grams scolded "Oh I am so sorry grams Bessie needed me to…you see Alexander is…" the fear rose in her. Grams cut her off mid sentence "I am only teasing you my child, everyone is in there waiting for you" Grams chuckled to herself and went off to get dinner ready.

Joey made her way into the dinning room and then it hit her smack hard in the stomach, Pacey, Pacey was there. Her pace, only he wasn't.

"Tardiness will not be acceptable potter" Pacey broke the ice with his best Mr English impression and reached his arms out to hug her. She managed to smile and hugged him back, it was tight and breathtaking but at the same time soft and warm, they both could have stayed hugging all night but Jen and jack bounced in the room and broke their embrace "Ahem, sorry to interrupt you guys but dinner is served" Jack announced in a very lame French accent, Joey and Pacey laughed and made their way over to the table.

"So Pacey how have you been?" Joey asked yet avoided making eye contact she hated his big blue eyes and how they had this magical ability to reach down into her and see how she was feeling. "Good, ok not been up to much" Pacey didn't want to tell the others about the courses he was taking he was already embarrassed and ashamed as it was and he didn't want Joey to think he was more of a loser than he already was. "Good, that's erm, very good to hear" Joey awkwardly replied she could tell by the tone of his voice that he was keeping something from her but she didn't want to press the matter anymore, she no longer had that right.

"So, Jack, Jen which country are you flying to first?" Joey asked thinking it safer and better all around if she changed the topic.

"Well" Jen and jack squealed in unison "we are flying out to Paris first then we are going to Switzerland and Austria….." Jen was cut off by jack "Oh and then on to Italy, tell them about Italy Jen" Jack exploded with excitement. "Thank you jack, well as my trusty sidekick just said we are then going to Italy to see Andie and then we wanted to go to Spain and possibly Greece" Jen concluded.

Chapter 4

After dinner Joey thanked Grams and said goodbye to Jack and Jen and wished them all the best for their trip and went to find Pacey to say goodbye. "Pacey I am going now so I wanted to come say goodbye" She found him outside on the porch. "Okay goodnight Joe" Joey smiled and turned to walk away when Pacey shouted her back. "Joey are you walking home?" Joey nodded; her car was in the garage. "Can I walk you?" Pacey said gently and gave her a smile she knew only too well that made her go weak at the knees. "Sure Pace" Joey smiled, the butterflies had returned.

They walked in silence for a while side by side her arm kept brushing his, it made her shiver. "I'm sorry," they both said in unison and laughed, "you go first" Pacey said.

"I'm sorry pace that I haven't been in touch." Joey whispered. "Me too" Pacey said softly. They walked on a little further in silence and then Joey sat down on a bench and stared out at the creek, a tear slid down her cheeks, the wind was cold and it whipped her face.

"Joey I'm sorry I have just had a lot on mind, I meant to contact you and then last week I saw you hiding outside the grocery store I figured you didn't want to see me" Pacey whispered and brushed the hair off her face, he hated to see her cry. The touch of his warm hand on her face made her tremble." No, I wasn't hiding from you…well I was but its, Pacey its so hard to see you and not be with you and I just freaked out" Joey said embarrassed that she had been caught.

"I know I hurt you Joe and I would give anything to take away that pain, but I'm just not what you need" Pacey mumbled tears now beginning to fill in his eyes. After a few moments of silence Joey whispered "but you're what I want, it didn't hurt me that you left me pace what hurt me was your reasons for doing it. I can't believe you still think you're not good enough for me. Pace you are the sweetest kindest person I know and I know even above Dawson that you would do anything for me. And it kills me to see you in pain and beating yourself up like this. I am a big girl Pacey I know who I want and what I need and I am sorry if you're inferiority complex gets in the way of that" Joey said the anger now rising, he really annoyed her when he doubted himself and couldn't see just how brilliant and clever he was. "Joe, its just you accepted me for who I was and you never was angry with me for messing things up, I was always messing things up Joe, and you still loved me and believed In me regardless" he began shouting he was also getting angry, how could someone so beautiful and intelligent like Joey still believe in him and love him. "And that's a bad thing that I stood by you and saw past those things?" Joey shouted back. "Yes!" Pacey shouted." Why Pace, why tell me please because for the life of me I cant think why that would be a bad thing" "Because I don't believe In me Joe, because I feel worthless when I am around you, fine I can beat up a bully for you and buy you a wall but you just don't get it Joe, if I cant believe in myself then you shouldn't!" Pacey shouted once more, the tears now running quickly down his face. He turned to walk away. "Pacey!" Joey shouted. Pacey stopped and turned around to look at her, her beauty made his heart ache. "Tough, you may not believe in yourself but I do, and whether you like it or not I always will, you can keep beating yourself up and thinking you are a loser, but I never thought of you as a loser, and I never will you may want me to but I cant. I'm sorry but I refuse to" and with that Joey ran away and left Pacey standing on the docks, his heart breaking into a thousand pieces all over again.

If this is where its at, why do I feel colder?

Every hour of every day I just want you closer

If I didn't feel a thin I guess it would be easy

To turn and walk away and never see you leave me

There's nothing wrong but something's happening, I'm falling

You give me warm sunshine when I say I like the moon

You give me a rainbow when I'm feeling black and blue

And I have cold shoulders but I still long for your touch

Does that make me sentimental too

This isn't really me I try to hide my colours

They've been turned to black and white by so many others

There's nothing wrong but somethings happening im falling

You give me warm sunshine when I say I like the moon

You give me a rainbow when I'm feeling black and blue

And I have cold shoulders but I still long for your touch

Does that make me sentimental too

I see your smile its alright

I wont run away not this time

You're too good to lose

So I guess that its true

I must be sentimental too

For you

You give me warm sunshine when I say I like the moon

You give me a rainbow when I'm feeling black and blue

And I have cold shoulders but I still long for your touch

Does that make me sentimental too

I guess that makes me sentimental too

Kim marsh- Sentimental

Chapter 5

"Hello?" joey answered the phone angrily it was six am in the morning who the hell was calling at this time? "Hey Joey its Jack and Jen" Jack shouted down the phone, Joey heard Jen giggling in the background.

"Oh hi guys, how's it going are you having a good time?" Joey asked the anger now fading it was her two close friends jack and jen calling from Europe so the early phone call was acceptable.

It had been almost two weeks since she seen them and she missed them dearly, while they were off having a good time in Europe she was stuck working at the yacht club for the summer. "Its awesome Joe, you so should have come with us, you would love it here in Italy, Andie sends her love" Jack said. "Oh jack I would give anything to be there right now it is so quiet here I am bored stiff" Joey yawned. She was right Capeside was completely dead, everyone she knew was off on vacations and she was left behind, well her and Pacey but she hadn't seen him since the night before Jack and Jen went away.

"Ok well take care I gotta go, cant wait to see you just think next time we do, we will be freshmans at college" Jack laughed and hung up the phone. Joey hung up the phone and now thanks to Jack and Jen were wide awake so she decided to go for a walk, She got dressed and hurried out of the house as not to wake Bessie Bodey or Alexander up. Joey made her way over to Dawsons' creek, she had really been missing him and went there to be close to him. She sat staring out at the creek watching the sunrise and suddenly felt a presence behind her, she knew instantly who it was.

"Hey Pace" she said softly, without even turning around

"Hey Joe, what are you doing here?" pacey asked but he already knew the answer to his question. "Just thinking, what are you doing here at this hour?" she asked. "Thinking too, I don't know why but my feet just carried me here" pacey said sitting down beside Joey. "I know the feeling" she laughed.

"So what have you been doing lately I came round to your house last week and you weren't there" Joey asked again avoiding eye contact. Pacey laughed a gentle laugh. "That's because I don't live there anymore Joe, my dad kicked me out we got into a fight and he hit me so I hit him back and he kicked me out" Pacey laughed once more only this time it was a fake laugh.

"Pacey I am so sorry do you need a place to stay" Joey said looking worried, she hated Pacey's dad it was his fault he had an inferiority complex, it was his fault pacey didn't believe in himself after his father told him everyday of his life for seventeen years he was a worthless bum.

"No its ok thanks for the offer though, Gretchin is back for the summer so I am staying with her" pacey relplied. "You know its times like these Joe that I really wish I still had the true love" they both sighed happily remembering their amazing summer on the true love, so carefree, so perfect, bliss just the two of them and the ocean.

"Me too, pace" Joey replied

"Well I'll be seeing you Potter, look after yourself" Pacey said turning to leave but Joey grabbed his hand and pulled him down next to her so they were face to face. She could feel his breath on her face, she could see every freckle on his face, she could see how much he loved her in his eyes. She took a deep breath, leant forward and kissed him. A deep, passionate gently kiss. "Goodbye, Pace" she whispered into his neck and got up and walked away. Each of them knowing exactly what that kiss meant, it meant goodbye.

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep

Thoughts of you were in my head

I was lonely and I needed you next to me life was harder since you left

I never meant to do you wrong

And now all is said and done

I hope you wont be gone to long

Where do I go, what do I do I cant deny I still feel something

And god I wish you could say you feel the same

You've broken the bond, I gotta move on

But how do I live this lonely feeling, you've gone and Im here alone, I guess its time to grow

I try to speak but my words never catch the air like you never knew I was there take me back to the days when you used to care

I cant go on the roads too long and now all is said and done cant go forward if my hearts still where im coming from

Where do I go, what do I do I cant deny I still feel something

And god I wish you could say you feel the same

You've broken the bond, I gotta move on

But how do I live this lonely feeling, you've gone and Im here alone, I guess its time to grow

But in time its over I know I cant control her feelings if she wont return then I guess I'll be a man and move on time to grow

Where do I go, what do I do I cant deny I still feel something

And god I wish you could say you feel the same

You've broken the bond, I gotta move on

But how do I live this lonely feeling, you've gone and Im here alone, I guess its time to grow

Time to grow and move on live life better than it was before, girl you've gone and im here all alone I guess its time to grow

Lemar-Time to grow