CHAPTER 13
FEELINGS AND CONFESSONS OF THE HEART
The sun shone down on his face. It roused him slightly and he enjoyed the sweet feeling that comes from being halfway between waking and dreaming. It was a feeling he had never taken time to enjoy but now he let it last as long as it could. The difference this time was; he hadn't had any nightmares.
I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now
"Shadow," a voice said rousing him the rest of the way.
The black hedgehog opened his eyes. He found himself staring up at Sonic and that weird gray bat he'd met in the forest. Suicide was it?
"Feeling better?" Sonic asked him.
"Where am I?" Shadow inquired.
"You're on the front porch of my house," the blue hedgehog answered. "After the escape pod landed Suicide and I brought you back here."
"Where's Mystic?"
"We don't know," the bat called Suicide answered. "After we got out of the capsule she wandered off by herself. We haven't seen her since."
Shadow sat up. "Mystic... she was...," he said softly.
Sonic nodded. "We know," he said. Shadow started to get up. "What are you doing?" the blue hedgehog demanded.
"I have to go," the black hedgehog told him.
"Why?"
Shadow looked away. "There's something I have to see."
"All right," Sonic said. "Are you sure you can walk?"
Shadow stood up and took a few steps to prove he could. "Yes, I'm sure I can," he said sarcasticly.
"Uh.. okay."
Shadow walked down the porch stairs. He didn't turn or call out a good bye. He just walked away.
"What's with him?" Suicide asked.
Sonic shrugged and put up his hands in a helpless gesture. "Who knows," he told the bat. "That's just how he is."
Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
On the way to the cemetery Shadow stopped to pick some flowers. When he had enough he walked into the graveyard and sat down in front of Maria's grave. "Maria," he said putting his hand on the cold stone. "you must know how much I miss you. I'm sorry I couldn't come see you sooner. But I'm sure you must know about Mystic. She's got some of you inside of her. It's almost like you were the one who brought her to me. Like you wanted me to still have a part of you around." he chuckled silently. "She sure isn't like you, though. She's been kinda mean and stuff..." he laughed again. "Even so, she is cute.."
He shook his head. "But she's gone now, Maria. I don't even know where she is. I wish I knew where she went. I have something I need to tell her. Something I have a hard time admitting to myself even though she was nasty to me... I don't know why I feel this way about her... I wonder if it's you... I wish I could see her again... Then I can tell her how I feel.."
He hand rested on his shoulder and he nearly jumped out of his skin.
"Cool it," a familiar voice said. "I'm not going to whack you on the head again."
Mystic! How did she know I was here? Has she been hiding out here all along? Why didn't I see her? He looked up at her. "I-I thought you were gone forever," he said almost without thinking.
Mystic didn't seem to noticed the way he'd phrased it. "No," she said shaking her head. "I just needed time to think things through."
"What do you have to say?"
The purple winged hedgehog looked down at him. Her eyes glittered and had a far away look to them. "I chose to stay here," she said softly. "I chose to live instead of die. I chose people over graves. I chose... you."
Shadow blinked. She chose him? She had always been so mean to him. "Why?" he asked.
Mystic's eyes came into focus. "I always wanted to love someone," she replied. "I always felt that someone loved me but I never knew why. When I saw you the first time I felt strangely connected to you. I have to admit it to you; I used to dream about you. Only in my dreams I didn't see your face only your form. You always seemed to sad and compassionate in my dreams. I wanted to comfort you. But everytime I tried I'd wake up." She touched his hand. "Now that I know who you are, the feeling I had for you in my dreams is stronger."
"What feeling?" he asked.
"Shadow," she replied. "I... love... you."
I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
For the longest time he said nothing. He had no idea she'd felt that way about him. She's always been so nasty to him. She had covered her feelings very well.
But now for some reason he took a look at her. A good look.
The red markings were the same as his, even her eyes were the same color. Her whole body, except for the red markings was dark purple, She wore a small sleevless spagetti strap bikini type shirt and a long dark skirt with a slit up the right side. She wore gray boots with diamonds on the ends. He looked back at her face. He noticed a jewel embeded in her forehead. A small diamond. She had blue batlike wings. For some reason she had a Maria essense around her.
You are my special lady, he thought remembering Maria, a small smile on his face. Very special indeed. And you get another chance at life. Through her...
Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything
"I know you could never love someone like me," she said not looking at him. "Not after all the things I did to you.. I'd better go before I cause you most grief and sorrow." She began to walk away.
"Wait!" Shadow said grabbing her arm.
Mystic stopped and turned her head to look at him. "Yes?" she said.
"I... Mystic," he began trying to phrase his sentense right.
"Yes?" she said turning around to face him again. "What do you want to say?"
Shadow was silent. He was having a hard time coming up with words. He wanted to admit how he felt even if she didn't believe him. Since he couldn't think of anything at the moment he put his hand on her shoulder and drew her in close. He put his hand under her chin and gently made her look at him. He kissed her gently on the lips.
Mystic was surprised by this but she felt he was telling her he forgave her. She collapsed into him and put her arms around his waist.
Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Away...
They stood like that a moment then Mystic looked away suddenly thinking about something that saddened her.
"What's wrong?" Shadow asked her.
The purple hedgehog looked back at him. "Shadow I need to know something," she said closing her eyes halfway.
"Yes?"
"Did you only do that because I am a part of Maria?"
"No," Shadow told her.
"No?" she said surprised. "Then why? I have always been so mean to you. I hurt you a lot. You should hate me."
He looked her straight in the eye. "Mystic when you saved me from GUN I had no idea what you were going to do to me. I only had one thought in my mind at that time. 'She is here to help me'. After that you'd always come visit me after I got caught by you and Gerald. You hurt me a lot but I saw something in your eyes that said you hated doing it. " He shook his head. "I didn't have any feelings for you at that time. But later on ARK after you got all worked up after I called you pathetic you showed your true self. You proved to me you weren't just a creature made by Gerald to harm me then die, I saw you had another purpose as well but I didn't know what it was. You looked just as lost as I used to feel."
"Shadow..."
"I know how it is to feel as if you have no purpose I once discust it with Maria. After the accident she told me what my purpose was. I was made to make people happy. But.. Not many people saw that." He touched her arm. "I believe you had."
"But I didn't."
"You did later," he said.
"But why are you telling me this?" she wanted to know. "Why?"
"I have never been good at telling people how I feel," he said. "I always go and try to explain about myself before I do. But to get to the point Mystic. I love you too and not just because you have a part of Maria in you."
She looked surprised. "Y-you love me?" she asked. "After all I did to you?"
Shadow nodded. "Yes I do," he said. "I love you for you..."
"Oh, Shadow!" she cried flinging her arms around him.
Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Shadow let her hug him. It felt nice. He'd finally told her how he felt and she's believed him! It was a nice feeling. If only I could have told Maria as well.
He looked up into the sky. For a second he thought he could see Maria smiling down at him. He smiled too. Thank you, Maria...
Shadow kissed Mystic again. She let him. It was okay. Neither of them had to feel weird about it anymore. They let it last as long as it could then split apart. Shadow smiled at her and took her hand.
"Mystic," he said.
"Yes?"
"Let's go."
"Go? Go where?"
He looked around the graveyard. It no longer seemed like his home. Life was calling to him. It was time to live. "Anywhere," he said.
"The beach?"
"All right."
Mystic tightened her grip on his hand. "To the beach we go," she said.
They left the graveyard. Hand in hand. They still had a long way to go in somethings but being together would help them figure it all out...
I still remember...
THE END
A/N
Phew! There was so much I had to put in and take out in the chapter. I was trying to give it a cute sweet ending but I think I left it hanging somehow. Great, now I'll probably have to make a sequal... Incase you don't know the song I used was called Field of Innocence. It's an Evanescence song. I thought it would work well with this chapter but I don't know. Hmm. I kinda had to switch the verses. Verse 1 is the second verse I used and verse 2 is the first. I'm telling you that because I wanted it to be that way. Hehe. Don't get mad at me okay? You know when I was writing it I was thinking "This is going to suck" But now that I read it over to edit it I realize it's not that bad... What do you think? Should I have added more romance? Hmmm... All well. (shrug)
one last thing:
THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE REVIEWS! WITHOUT THEM I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE NEVER FINISHED THIS! THANKS AGAIN!
Hmm.. maybe I will make a sequal someday...