Authors note: The song used in this chapter is Catch Me When I Fall by Ashlee Simpson. Also just to make it clear to everyone I haven't abandoned my other stories which involve Tony and Kate, I will continue to write those but I also wanted to experiment with this.
Catch Me When I Fall
Is anybody out
there?
Does anybody see?
That when the lights are off something's killing me…
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself?
Who will be the one who's there?
And not ashamed to see me crawl…
Who's gonna catch me when I fall?
All day long Gibbs had sent Ziva with Tony and Tony was beginning to get very annoyed with Ziva. He knew he should be nicer to her but he couldn't, he didn't want a new partner he wanted Kate. He didn't want to get close to Ziva, sure he thought she was attractive and he really wouldn't mind getting to know her better but still she wasn't Kate. After Kate died Tony decided he wouldn't get close to anybody again, he wouldn't let anyone else in because he loved Kate and what happened? She died.
When the show is over…
And it's empty everywhere…
It's hard to face going back alone…
So I walk around the city…
Anything, anything to clear my head…
I've got nowhere to go, nowhere but home…
Tony felt all alone in the world now and felt he had no where to turn. Most days he just got up, went to work, and went straight home. On this particular day as he was leaving NCIS headquarters he ran into Ziva. "Hi Tony" Ziva said. "Hi" Tony said coldly. "Look Tony I understand that you don't want me as your partner…" Ziva began. "Ziva, it's not you it's just…" Tony trailed off. "It's just what?" Ziva asked. "It's nothing." Tony said as he began to walk off. "You loved her didn't you?" Ziva asked. Tony quickly turned around and said "I don't see how that is any of your business, but yes I loved Kate." "If you ever need to talk about it just know I'm here." Ziva said sincerely. "I don't need to talk about it and what's it to you?" Tony asked. "I'm trying to be your friend Tony." Ziva replied. "I have enough friends." Tony said. Ziva handed Tony a piece of paper. Tony looked at it and saw it was a sketch of him that Kate had sketched. "Kate drew it, I found it in her desk I thought you might want it." Ziva said as she handed him a second piece of paper. "What's this?" Tony asked. "It's my phone number; if you ever want to talk call me." Ziva said and turned and walked back into the building. Tony then got in his car and drove home.
Who's gonna be the one to save me from myself?
Who will be the one who's there?
Not ashamed to see me crawl…
Who's gonna catch me when I fall?
It may seem I have everything…
But everything means nothing…
When the ride that you been on…
That you're coming off leaves you feeling lost…
Tony walked into his apartment and set the sketch next to a picture he had of himself and Kate. He missed her so much and couldn't take it anymore he broke down and cried for the hundredth time. Finally he picked up the phone and dialed the number Ziva gave him. "Ziva, I want to talk about it. Can we meet somewhere?" Tony asked and they agreed to meet at a little restaurant near work.
Is anybody out there?
Does anybody see?
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me…
Who will be the one to save me from myself?
Who will be the one who's there?
Not ashamed to see me crawl…
Who's gonna catch me when I fall.