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When I'm Sad I Slide… Into Depression

It had been a rough time. That much was definitely true. You could probably see it from the way I walked, talked, the lack of a cheeky grin or even a false smile. They knew it was bad this time. They had to.

I'd spent the whole summer at my wonderful… home. Pah. Home. It's never been my home, and it never will be. It's just a house, where all of my things live. Yeah, it's where my things live, and I guess where I live.

She'd beaten me. It was just a simple cuff around the ear. The kind a master affectionately gives a dog. I think I had that thought at the time. You know, maybe that she was easing off. That maybe she'd accepted that I am not my Father. Well, I think I smiled at the thought, because it's a bit of a pun. God, I wish I'd never smiled. She saw it. Her eyes turned cold, and I, I… Well, let's say I'll never smile around her again.

I cried. In my room. I was spiralling towards something. A black hole of a something. I was falling, whirling, gliding. Actually, I was sliding. Sliding into this pit. It was like gravity was pulling me, but it wasn't gravity. It was… hurt.

I know that there a million kids like me, who're beaten. Verbally, mentally, pyshically, even sexually. But, well, at school, I'm not one of those kids. I'm Sirius Black. I'm Padfoot. I'm me. But there, I'm none of those. I am 'heir', I am 'son', I am 'young master' and sometimes I'm 'brother'. But what does it mean? What does it prove to be these things? Apart from maybe that I'm two different people.

When I'm sad, I slide into this depression. It shouldn't be real. I don't want it to be. But it is.

This is part of a series of one-shots. I'll put a space in between each one, but it's based on a song by T-Rex. The Slider. There's a line which goes 'and when I'm sad, I slide' but I doesn't say what he slides into. So, these are my interpretations, based on The Marauders being sad. It'll be good. Hopefully.