Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be
Dedication: To Rebecca, who doesn't want a deication, but is getting one.
When I'm Sad I Slide… Into Drink
When Dad was here, he drank. A lot. When he left, and I was man of the house, I drank.
It started with just being there for Mum. She drinks to forget, and when she did, I had to look after my brothers and sisters. But, I'm not strong. Not like James, or Sirius, or even Remus. But then, they don't have this shit. James has everything, Sirius is just spoilt, and Remus, well, it's his fault he left his house when he was five.
But I drank, after Mum had finished drinking. She just passed out. Good Riddance bitch, leaving me with this. Well, she had her Vodka, I had my Gin. Simple. She drinks to forget Dad, I drink to forget her. But you know what else I want to forget? Them. My so called friends.
It's not that they ignore me purposefully. James has so many activities and he's always after that bloody red-head. Sirius is always in his girls and his stupid family issues. And Remus makes the whole moon thing bigger than it is. I mean it can't bloody well hurt that much, he should just take a potion. But they are always wrapped up in themselves. What about me? What about Pete? Pete can't be wrapped up in himself, he has to look after Mummy Pettigrew and the whiny brats.
Yeah well. You see my problem. I don't get to relax, I have to think about all this crap. I'll probably have to spend my life looking after Mum, who'll drink herself to death pretty soon. When she does (because there is no 'if' about it) I'll be stuck with the kids, because Lord knows that stupid man called Dad won't want to be.
But what if I take up that offer? That offer from the blond git that I'm supposed to be against. Yeah, him. Lucius Malfoy. He says I could be worth something, like the Hat said when I was being Sorted. It said I could be great. That's what Malfoy is saying. I could be great, because pure blood does flow through my veins. I could help this great man, this Dark Lord. Maybe, I could. That would show everyone.
Peter Pettigrew is not to be forgotten.