Dear Diary,

Oh god, I feel so stupid writing this. It's been what…like a decade since the last time I kept a diary? Actually, it was about the time my mother died. Wow, that seems like it was decades ago, turns out stupid Peyton was wrong once again. I know, I know, I'm not stupid, but sometimes I feel like that's all I'll ever be, a naïve girl making wrong choices. Wrong choices about school, friends, music, art, and most importantly boys. Boys, I remember a time not too long ago when boys had cooties and Brooke and I wouldn't touch them with a ten-foot pole. Guess again. Things have changed AGAIN. I really thought Jake was, well, perfect. Of course there were the little mishaps, such as Jenny, but he was the best father I've ever seen. And yes, we did have our little arguments but they are about such stupid petty little things like who was going to wash the dishes and what to watch on tv. I feel like this breakup came out of nowhere. How could he do this to me? Especially at a time like this. So that's a little unfair because a time like this is a time where nothing is going on but still. He just showed up at my doorway and said those awful words. He wasn't even man enough to give me a real reason for why he was dumping my sorry ass. He just did it and game the lame excuse, "there's some things going on with me that I don't want you to be involved in. I'll always love you Peyt, there's no denying that, not now not ever." Yea I'm sure that what I'll girlfriends want to hear, "I'll always love you." Well if you always love me why won't you just be with me? ARRRGGHHH! He pisses me off so much. I've spent too many nights crying over him it's ridiculous. And what's the deal with Haley and Nathan now? I'm worried about him. But I'd never tell him that. It's just, that ditsy ex of his showed up and managed to screw everything up and by the way did I mention that she's now DATING DAN! Who does that? It's like she woke up one day and decided well, my daughter's grandfather is looking pretty hot so let me try to get in his pants? EWW! I can totally understand why Nathan wants nothing to do with Jenna, but still, it's his daughter, he of all people should know how it is when a person grows up with Dan as an influence. Dan did a horrible job raising his own kids let alone someone else's. He should receive a lifetime band from reproducing and raising children. Back to Nathan, he totally flipped on Haley when all she was doing was trying to help him. Nathan's about to ruin the only good thing that's happened to him. I've tried to tell Haley that he'll come around in his own time, and he will because I've talked to him and he's not going to let Haley go that easily. They're like a puzzle, they fit so perfectly together. Jake and I however, I guess, when the pieces don't fit, there's nothing I can do about it. That's a song by the way. Move on by the Warren Brothers. I'm usually not a big country fan but I guess that's what happens when the only important in my life just tears out my heart and stomps on it. All right, well it's been good diary but now that I'm done venting, sorry but this page has got to go….

And with that Peyton ripped the page out of the book, folded it in half then took a book of matches from her drawer. She watched as the flames consumed the paper then placed it in the sink before it could burn her fingers. She looked outside at the night sky and wondered just how many other heart broken girls were out there looking at the same exact sky wondering why.

Brooke closed the curtains, waiting for Lucas to come was taking way to long and let's face it, Brooke is not the most patient of people. She slowly picked up her cell phone thinking about what she was going to do for the night.

"Got It!" she murmured to herself slowly.

Haley was about to go to bed when she heard pebbles gently hitting her window. She hopped out of bed instantly remembering all the nights Nathan would throw pebbles and was slightly dismayed when she saw that it wasn't the Scott she was hoping to see.

"Luke, what do you want?"

"Can you come down here for like 2 minutes? I need to ask you something."

"Why can't you just ask me now?"

"Hales, it's important, just come down please."

Haley grumbled to herself and grabbed the sweatshirt that was sitting on her chair. She slowly climbed down the stairs and put on a pot of coffee taking an agonizingly long time or so Lucas thought. She figured if she was going to sit up talking to Lucas all night, there might as well be some reward. Her coffee was brewed and poured and she slowly opened her back door.

"Nathan!"

"All right, now that that's all sorted out, I'm going to go, I've got to meet Brooke." Lucas said jumping off the porch before Haley could object.

"What are you doing here? I thought you were mad at me." She said in a soft voice

"It wasn't you I was mad at. Let me explain…please."

"Go ahead, I figure it's least you can do right? So shoot, tell me what's up." She said this trying not to sound too desperate to find out what was going on but instead she just sounded anxious. She was silently cursing herself inside for sounding to needy.

"So you know that Trish is back."

"Mmmhmm"

"and you know that I have a daughter"

"of course, you told me all of this"

"right, but what you don't know is that Trish banned me from seeing her because…"

"what is it?"

"because I had hit her. It was only one time, one time and that screwed up any chance I've ever had of fully knowing my daughter. Before you say anything, she is my daughter, there was no other guy, she told me that later but she was too afraid of me after that."

A speechless Haley just sat there mouth slightly agape as she was trying to grasp all this new information. Nathan? Hit someone? It seemed close to impossible. Well, now it did, there was a time when no one could get through to him but she had been able to do that and he was a changed person now, she thinks.

"I went away to a counseling facility after that. I wanted to make sure that I would never hurt someone that meant so much to me, Jenna not Trish, again. I would completely understand if you wanted nothing to do with me, hell, I'd want nothing to do with me but I love you Haley, and I would never hurt anyone especially you again."

Haley got up and slowly walked to the door, coffee mug still in hand. She opened the door and started to close it when she turned around.

"Well come on, it's cold outside and we've got some stuff to figure out."

Lucas sped all the way over to Brooke's house only to realize, of course, Brooke Davis never gets stood up, she does the standing up. He parked his car and was trying to think of places where Brooke would possibly be. He hit his hand to the wheel while speeding away quickly.

Brooke was at Lucas's house waiting to surprise him from when he got home from whatever he was doing. She had "made" him dinner and was setting it up when she could here the door from his room open.

"That's my cue to leave." Said Karen, setting down the last dish of Chinese food spread out on a nice platter.

"Thanks!"

Lucas walked into the kitchen starving and at first didn't realize the set table.

"hey babe, I was wondering if you were ever going to come home"

"well you not, Peyton was getting pretty lonely…" and he let the sentence linger leaving the rest up to his girlfriends imagination.

"not funny broody, every joke about something like that again and…" she stopped mid sentence and ran over to the window. The sound of tires screeching and a woman's scream could be heard and as she looked out the window her fears were confirmed.

"Oh my god" and with that, the couple left there food untouched and ran outside Lucas' phone to his ear talking to 911.