What Are You Waitnig For?
Chapter Two
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of 6teen.
By: Desiree
-Nikki's POV-
I was at the Khaki Barn being ever so bored. Well, that wasn't really anything new for me. I spend most of my hours being bored while I attend work here anyways. Why the heck couldn't I get a job somewhere else? I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles. I looked up and I saw one of the clones coming my way. Great, just what I needs... I mumble to myself. I seriously can't stand the clones, if I could, I would crush them all together and make them one... actually, on second thought, that may not be such a good idea, if you get my drift.
"Uh Nikki, you are so like, no being a very good Khaki Barn member today, then again since when are you?" Chrissy laughed in her annoying voice. I swear I could...
"Oh shut up!" I said throwing my hands up the air and rolling my brown eyes. "I'm going on break," And with that, I got up and left the Khaki Barn. Tahnk goodness, one more minute in that place and I would of went totally insane. As I was walking back to the Lemon, I saw Jonesy talking to some girl. A girl that I didn't even know, so I decided to go check it out. I wanted to know what was going on.
"Amanda," Jonesy said to the girl. "I cannot go out with you, you see I'm single but I am in no way available," he told her. "I promised this girl, whom I love very much, that I would wait until she was ready for a relationship," he said.
Tears started to built up in my eyes as I listened some more to the conversation.
" Well, I guess I understand, but you don't know what you're missing out on," Amanda said to Jonesy.
"Well, I already know who my angel is, and I know that she is worth the wait and I know that I can trust her. We're extremely close friends and we have no secrets. She'd never hurt me and I would never hurt her. We love each other but we agreed to wait..." Jonesy told Amanda.
"Whatever..." Amanda said to him. "I gotta run now, bye!"
That's when I entered the seen and I snicked up behind Jonesy and I scared him. "Boo!" I said.
"Ah! Oh Nikki, it's just you..." Jonesy smiled. "So, did you just hear that conversation?" he asked me.
I nodded. "Yes, indeed I did," I said. I felt like crap now. He was so committed to his promise to me about waiting and here I held this big secret and he thinks we have no secrets. I have got to tell him. "And there's something I want to tell you," I say to him.
Jonesy smiles. "You can tell me anything," he said to me.
"Well... I am really scared of how you're going to react when I tell you," I started. "But I want you to know it's not my fault, I can't remember a thing..."
"Uh-oh, I think I know what you're about to say Nikki..." Jonesy's smile turned into a frown. I swear I saw a few tears started to form in his goreous brown eyes.
I put my hands on Jonesy's shoulders. "Jonesy! I'm sorry! I swear! I didn't know anything about this until this morning..." I started.
"You need about this since this morning? And I asked you was there somethign wrong and you lied to me?" Jonesy raised his voice.
I looked at him and I know that my eyes were filled with tears. "Jonesy! I'm sorry!" I said to him.
"Nikki, I don't really care, I just can't believe you lied to me this morning, I thougth I could trust you, for all I knows, you could of been making out with someone last night," Jonesy said.
I just looked at him with a blank expression planted upon my face. "Jonesy..." I said in a soft voice.
"Oh no Nikki, please tell me you didn't?" Jonesy looked at me.
"I swear it's not what you think... and it wasn't my fault," I tried to explain.
Jonesy got up and glared at me. "Nikki, I thought you was worth the wait. I stopped flirting with girls for you and how do you repay me? You make me wait for nothing! I thought higher than that of you, but I guess I was wrong. Maybe promising you that I'd wait was wrong, will I ain't waiting no longer because there is never going to be a me and you..." Jonesy's eye now released a couple of those tears. "Never..." And with that he got up and left.
I was so alone and so hurt. It wasn't even my fault. Jonesy didn't even give me a chance to explain what happend. I am so tellign Jude off. It was really Jude's fault and I know that I should of told Jonesy the truth this morning but Jude should of never taken advantage of me when I was drunk last night. Unless, wait... am I blaming Jude for something that's so totally un-Jude like? Jude would never take advantage of anyone... that must mean... he thinks I was coming on to him! I swear I am going to kill my sister for getting me drunk. She insisted I drink and I am normally not influenced by others or anything but I don't know what happend last night and now, I've lost everything. I look up and I now see Jonesy with that Amanda girl and they are holding hands. I run into the girls bathroom and I lock myself in a stall and cry my heart out. I don't know what to do. I grab my keychain set which is in my pocket and I take out my pocket knife which is attached to it. I start to cry even harder as I slide the ice cold blade across my pale rist. I watch the dark red blood sqeeze out of the newly formed cut, and I watch it form a tiny river on my lower arm and then I watch it drip to the floor. The pain is unbearable. Tears form in myeyes because of the pain.. it feel just like someone is scraping a needle across my rist over an dover, only roughly. A small bruise forms around my cut and my lower arm goes totally numb. I grab some toilet paper and I wipe up the blood on the floor and on my arm and I press a clean piece of toilet paper on my arm and I wait for the cut to dry before I leave the stall to wash my hands and leave the bathroom. Is this the first time that I have ever cut myself? No! I have done this various of times. There are many scars on my lower arms and also on my upper arm from previous times. I am not crazy, I just tend to think that cutting myself solves all my problems. It helps the pain from heart aches and so much much go away. Nobody knows about this secret, because if they did they would think that I am crazy. They have asked me about the cuts but I told them that it was my cat that did it or I scraped myslef on some shrape object. Then I finish up cleaning up and I leave the bathroom.When I leave, this time I head for home. I cannot bear to put up with the clones this afternoon and I cannot bear to see Jonesy with Amanda. Why or why did I have to keep my big mouth shut for this once? Why?
I know that I don't write stories with anything to do with cutting but trust me, I know so much about it. I've read stories, heard so many tradegic things that people around here went through and I just decided to put it in there. I don't know if this chapter was very good or not but at least you know most of the secret. Hopefully, the next chapter will expain the secret fully. Anyway, MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW... OCTOBER 26TH! cries I will no longer be a 6teen year old... not fair! But 6teen will still always remain my favourite show! (duh! of course it will!) Well... that's it for now. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Loves y'all. XOXO!