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Chapter Eight

Behind Hurt Eyes

'By the way, I never loved you!' rang through the slender Tamaranian as she stood on top of a tower looking over the once thriving Jump City. Red eyes overflowed with energy, energy that dripped fiery tears to the broken streets below. Her white hair flowed easily with the wind and she stared down upon her territtory. He would never hurt her again. She swore that she would never be hurt again. Starfire was no more. Darkfire was all that was left. A small smile sprawled upon her face and she laughed heavily to herself. Her voice carried on the air. The sound of her voice was dark and raspy, but faintly, something softer, lighter. Like a lone star in the blackest night.

What did I do? I thought he was happy! With every second, the fire of that Star grew dimmer as the clouds closed in, consuming the light.

Far inside the dark, that Star looked around her prison. It was familiar. It felt like home, but it was not home. She could almost see her room in the Tower, but she was trapped. There were no windows. There were no doors. Her hair was pale and drawn, and the sparkle in her eyes had been lost beneath all the tears she had cried. Starfire was weak as she lay in her bed. Her body was thin and frail. She was exhausted. A thousand thousand battles could not have drained her so. But one single failure had. 'But how did I fail him?' The recesses of her mind gave no answer.

Tamaranians are lead by their emotions and feelings. Happy emotions make them soar into the air while anger will unleash its glowing energy. Yet, when one's emotions are flipped around so there is no longer happiness and joy, but hatred and depression, the Tamaranian will turn on everyone, to the exclusion of every moral virtue. The individual will split in internal conflict. Starfire now had two personalities.

What have I become? Starfire wept in her head. I am a monster, and no one can stop me...not even myself. She shook the idea from her mind. Her friends had never failed her.

'But they did!' the voice came forth, 'I destroyed them! They FAILED!' The darkness in her mind encroached upon her. The thought that her friends were at a loss set heavy in her mind. Star did not want to be right, but the pain of it was going to kill her if Darkfire wasn't stopped. If she wasn't stopped.

The only thing Starfire had now was the sweet memories of Robin, how he held her in his arms and promised her the world. She sometimes caught herself wondering if he could be the one. She was still in love with him, even after the fact that he had left her for another. Even in her position, Starfire tried to look at the brighter side of life, like the fact there was still Beast Boy, Cyborg, and most of all Raven there who loved her. She wonder if they were all right. Starfire gazed once again around her room, hoping that she might see something that she could use to get out, but just like the last one hundered times, no such luck. She was going no where, Darkfire was going to make sure of that. Darkfire was now in charge and for what it seemed she wasn't going to let go of it anytime soon.

Finally Star pulled her diary off the the side table and began to write in it. Sure it wasn't her real diary, but for the time being it would be here in her mind.

To wonder if

in my dying moments

,that is soon to be

If he'll be there

with love and care

and need me

My heart

Broken

My tears

Are Dry

Still My Robin

Sore up high

Darkness won

Love has lost

He's cold to me

Like snow's first Frost

So will it be

To him

Or to me

The one who falls

Into the sea

A small smile seem to lighten Star's face for the first time in weeks. It was the first depressing poem she had ever written. Though it didn't make her happy to reread it, the feeling that she pushed a overwhelming weight off her back was greatly noticed. Then Starfire's thoughts went back to Robin, and wondering if he was happy. Star may have hated Jinx, but if Robin loved her then she would not interfere with the rules of love.

Tears once more formed in the beauty's eyes as she started to cry heavily into her pillow. Letting go of any control that she had over her body, she gave in to the shadows. The Dark laughed at the fading Star as if watching a dim fire finally die out. The creature born of a moment's endless anger mocked her in misery.

'You LOVE him? After all he's done to you? You pitiful, pathetic creature! You are nothing! How dare you forgive that vermin! He's worthy only of Death!' The creature that was Darkfire screamed at herself, at the fading light of her former self, who cried in defeat and acceptance.

The brave warrior stood proudly over her territory, gazing at the pillars of fire and smoke, the screams for help and death. They all would have betrayed her in the end anyway. This way she would not be hurt. How funny it was that a little bird could do her such harm. Darkfire vowed to her self that he would pay for what he had done to her. She vowed that he would die by her very own hands. She would shred him in one mighty blow. This was a vow that was soon to come. After all, she had destroyed the Teen Titans. Now the rest shall follow.

And she would rule a world in which no one would ever betray her again.

"So Robin, what's up for the day?" Jinx asked as she cuddled closer to him. The young man did not answer, but instead stood still staring at an invisible void. "Robin?" She tapped his shoulders. He soon shook his head and stared at her and smiled.

"Sorry, must have drifted off for a sec. What did you want?"

"I wanted...Robin?" He eyes were drifting back again into open space, he was thinking about... her...again. Once more the thought of her lips pressed to his while her body throbbed with passion next to his chest. Tangling his hands in her auburn red hair. Who was this girl that took his breath away? Why would he think of another girl besides Jinx? Something was wrong, Robin knew that it wasn't right. The feeling that he was betraying every feeling in his gut. "ROBIN! WILL YOU ANSWER ME?" Once again Robin jumped from his thoughts.

"What?"

"What are you doing?" Her eyes glared madly at him. "You don't seem to notice me anymore."

"Sorry, Jinx" he smiled as he slid his arm around. "I've had a lot on my mind."

"Really?" she paused and stared into his eyes that hid behind his mask.

"Yeah, nothing big." he lied.

"Robin." Jinx stared even closer into her eyes. Robin's mind seem to turn and swirl, he was becoming dizzy and then lost track of the hot red head. "Now what were you saying?"

"I...can't remember."

"I think you were dicussing what you and I are going to do tonight." Robin smiled.

"And what do you want to do?" he put his arms around her and held her close.

Why does this feel wrong? He thought to himself. Jinx didn't really see that Robin was mentally stronger than he looked. Her power was becoming weaker. The only thing that was keeping Robin's head above the troubled waters was the thought of Starfire's smile. Why can't I think? Do I even love Jinx? Robin let go of Jinx and made an excuse to leave. He had come to suspect that something wasn't right. Everytime he would wander and question things he seemed to get dizzy. Robin had figured that Jinx was the cause of it, so what was she hiding from him?

He slowly walked down the hallways of HIVE Academy, the feeling of guilt came back. Why was it there? Sure he sometimes missed the glory of being a hero, but Jinx would never accept him as an enemy. Joining the HIVE was the only way that he could be with her. Robin trailed his hand along the wall as he wandered down the lonely corridor. Maybe the feeling was because he changed his job description? Beast Boy was very upset that he had left, that red head chick, who's name had seemed to have slipped his mind had tears in her eyes. Things had gotten out of hand at the Tower. Okay, way out of hand. Still, Robin wanted to make sure the four were all right. Changing his pace, the once great leader jogged down to the main communications room. As he walked on, he thought of the happy times with Beast Boy and Cyborg, when they played the gamestation, or having deep thought decision with Raven, but every thought came with a price. Robin always found happy thoughts with a beautiful red head...WHY COULDN'T HE REMEMBER HER? Robin lay awake at night trying to remember what her name was, had once even gone to Jinx about the problem, who told him that he was better off forgetting her, but he didn't want to forget this beautiful creature that blessed her memory in his mind.

"Robin?" Jinx walked up from behind him. "What are you doing in here?" He thought about lying again, but he decided to play a Wild Card.

"I just wanted to check up on my old team mates."

"What!" She screamed. "What the hell are you thinking! They might find out where we are!"

"Why?" Jinx paused for a second, trying to keep her cool, she just about slipped out her planned.

"Um...They were mean to you, that group doesn't deserve your attention!" Robin laughed at her.

"Beast Boy and Cy are like my best friends, why would they hate me?"

"I mean you are not welcome, you betrayed them."

"It's not the first time, they took me back after I was Slade's apprentice." Jinx looked as if she was ready to pull her hair out. It would of been funny to see her bald, but no, she took a deep breath and talked quietly.

"You can't talk to them."

"And why not?"

"Because...they might not turn on you, but they have no love for the HIVE! They could trace the call...come here!"

"Really?" Robin stared at her.

"They could..."

"Yes?"

"Well?"

"They detroyed the Tower and disbanded."

"WHAT!"

"You heard me."

"You can't be serious?" Jinx walked past and turned on what seemed to be a news reel. She looked once more at him and walked out. Robin's eyes opened and jaw dropped. It wasn't there. The Tower that he had helped Cyborg build was no longer. He clenched his fist tightly, he knew it was going to be a hard blow when he left, but why this, and by the way. Why did he care? Once again he shook his head followed in hot pursuit of Jinx, his so-called reason for living.

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