A/N: This is the second chapter of Arc 1. You will understand in my second A/N.
Memories of Irony
Memoir II: The Scent of Battle and the Visions Within
Looking back on it now all I can do is laugh at the realization that you had such little faith in me. Everything was about Kambei-sama! He had experience in everything apparently. Wars, life in general, even bed warming. Though I thought you experienced that, with the way he constantly shut you out.
I almost feel bad for you; but then again if I feel bad for you, then I must feel bad for myself for we are the same, we both are naive. We don't understand the world around us, or about the art of war. We were ignorant to what it meant to really kill someone. We never truly knew what it meant to be bathed in the blood of enemies and allies alike.
You said once that you would share my burden with me, but I think that that was a lie. Actually, I shouldn't think it was a lie, because it obviously was.
You feared me!
You feared that I might go berserk again and not know whom I'm killing. I know who my allies are - that was never the issue. What the issue was is if I stop and look at what I've done could I stop myself from killing one more person? That person would be myself. You couldn't save me from myself no matter how much you may have wanted to. Not unless you were willing to take all of me and in return allowing me to have all of you.
No, my love for you was lost just like the coming and goings of war. It is a sad concept.
Even if the war ends…
Another war will show up in its place.
Even if my love for you ended…
A new love might come up
Though it may not be strong as the first love depending on our bond, which might not have been that strong to begin with.
Or was I wrong? When I left to find another war, there was something that you wanted to say to me. I didn't give you the chance to say it. Should I regret that? I know that somewhere within me I do. I want to know what it was you wanted to say.
Do you even still remember me?
If so, do you still worry for my safety?
To be truly honest with myself, I have to say that I still think of you. You and the others have changed my life. It was for the better.
One day I will return.
Pay my respects to my fallen comrades who died before their time.
See if you still wait for my return like you always did.
I still wait to see if you will return my affection for you.
The next time you see me, you will be able to smell the battlefield on me.
See the blood that I have bathed in.
See the haunted look in my eyes from the many battles I have fought in over the years.
Maybe you might still be able to turn my heart back into a blood pumping organ instead of an endless void that is has become for death has killed it slowly. The blood that once flowed through my veins is now the blood of the people I've killed.
Gunpowder, steel, blood, and rotting flesh are the only things I smell.
Gunshots, explosions, and screams are the only things I hear.
Death, sorrow, and endless pain are the only things I see and feel.
Can you heal me like you did back then? Your touch took away the pain. Your smile cleared away my sorrows, and your life is what kept me from certain death.
You have always been my Goddess of the water, not just a maiden.
You were always so much more to me.
A/N: Look a second chapter. Forgive me for taking too long.
READ! Ok this is how things are going to happen. This will be a 3 part story. It will be organized in arcs. This is the end of the first arc. I don't know when the next arc will come out but I will label it so you all will know if you are still interested in reading my stories
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