And in this deep state of sadness there is only one request that I ask of others. Touch the light and burn yourselves until your soul has a scar. As you might already have been able to tell I'm not that happy at the moment. Guess that means someone's gonna die…
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Mizuki cried on Mikey's shoulder for a long time. The whole time he sat there, hand running threw her hair in a calming manner. He sang to her sweet songs in English with a voice he had once thought about making a career with.
Send it all to me. Whatever you feel I'll make it all go away. The man that hurt you will soon die. The boyfriend who left you alone and cold, I'll make all your pain from him disappear. That little boy who made you cry all those years ago. I'll go take him down if only it would make you smile. The father who left you alone, he'll pay for years of your own regret and self loathing. Let me dry up your tears with my kisses.
Let me make it all away! I want all those men to pay! Send all your pain to me!
Watching you hurt is more painful to my soul then you'll ever know. Give me permission and I'll destroy every man who ever hurt you. I'll make the teacher who didn't like you cry the way he made you. I'll beat your friend's dad who hit on you and made you feel dirty. Just give me a chance. Please, just one chance to prove myself.
Let me make it all go away! I want all those men to pay! Send your pain to me! Ah aha ha aha
And you sit there with tears falling freely and I want to kill the bastered who did this to you. Whether it was that man 5 years ago or the man five minuets ago I will solve the pain he's put you through. Just tell me which man these tears are for. And now I hold this knife to my throat, turns out that it was me all along.
Mikey realized that the song wasn't the most appropriate thing to sing but it seemed to be working. She slowly stopped crying to listen to his voice. It was enchanting almost. She never used to listen to music in Japan or America. It was strange to her that someone she had known for a year had this great gift he had never shared with her before.
She stayed protectively wrapped in his strong arms. Normally if she had just broken down like that crying she would have been extremely embarrassed and would try and get away from anyone who had seen her. Not this time.
Mikey made it hard for her to think of anything else but his voice singing songs she had never heard before. She didn't over contemplate why she had cried or why Kagurazaka had run away. There was only her and Mikey. Nothing else existed.
In my arms I've got the best girl in the world. Was how the new song started. Mizuki only held on to him tighter. Mikey smiled to himself. This was nice. She's had days before but none like today. Today she'll want to hit me, scream at me, she'll want to kill me. I wouldn't have it any other way.
'Cause this girl is the best in the whole world. She doesn't care about my flaws. She doesn't care about my past. So today is the day I give her everything! I'll giver her heaven and hell all in the same gift wrap. She'll want me she'll hate me. She'll have to fight the urge to fuck me.
The boy looked at the girl in his arms. Her face was all red from crying. She made no sign of being embarrassed. He kept on singing holding her like it was the only thing he ever wanted to do.
In my arms I've got the best girl in the world. She knows that I'm the biggest ass in the world and doesn't care. She's had firsts and she's had lasts. She's had days before but none like today. Today she'll want to hit me, scream at me, she'll want to kill me. I wouldn't have it any other way.
As time moved by the two didn't even seem to notice it. He sang song after song and after song. Poor Mia had to handle the entire graduation party by herself. When it was all over she went into her office and found the two asleep on her couch.
'Sound proof walls.' She concluded. That would have been the only way that they could have slept through the end of the party. She cursed herself for paying extra for soundproof walls. She just sighed and put a blanket over the two and turned off the lights. Mikey was getting a deduction in his pay, 20 dollars for him not being there and another 20 dollars for Mizuki not being there.
After Kagurazaka had left the bar he had jumped into his car, literally, and drove off. He went back to his dorm room. It was now half empty. He had already moved most of his stuff out to an apartment he had rented for college.
'Mizuki… that was Mizuki.' He kept telling himself. 'She looked different. Blond. I don't like it.' He told himself as he rocked back and forth while sitting on his homework chair. It was strange seeing her after all of that time.
She had run away first. He only did the same. Makoto had always thought about what he would do if he one day saw her at the grocery store or something. He had been planning to make her play the guilt trip. He had been planning to show her exactly how much she had ruined his and the life of others by leaving.
But he panicked. He didn't tell her how Kayashima was mysteriously murdered in her old dorm room. He had finally got the old ghost in her room to tell him who did it and the murderer new and killed him. He didn't tell her how if she had been in that room the creepy kid would still be living today.
He didn't tell her how Nakatsu had been kicked off the soccer team for missing too many practices to look for her. Nakatsu was the only one who never gave up searching. Now he was an alcoholic at age 18. Failing all of his classes and without the one thing he had based most of his life on, ever since his deceased father gave him his first soccer ball at age 3.
He didn't tell her how Sano became some creepy guy who slept with a different woman each night. Each time pretending that it was Mizuki and that it was that one night that he hadn't able to make love to her.
She had left lives for the ruins when she had left. And now he found her. A year later he found her and wasn't even able to tell her any of that. But most of all he hadn't been able to tell her what she had to him for leaving.
He liked to believe that she had caused him the worst pain. After all he did go clinically insane for 6 months. Her departure and caused him physical pain his heart. It actually hurt him that she was gone.
And then soon after his parents and last living sister got into a car crash. They were coming to see him. No one survived the accident. When he didn't feel the pain that he had when Mizuki left he started to inflict it upon himself.
He couldn't take small blades and make small cuts himself, no, because that would be the girly thing to do. Instead he took kitchen knife and made large scars upon himself. Sometimes the cuts were so long they measured to a length longer then his own height. And sometimes he cut himself so deep he bled until he passed out. He became paranoid and didn't sleep.
Even the most scornful teachers noticed his odd behavior in class. He wrote 100 page essays on the way his wound would be inflicted, bleed, and then how he would keep it out so it never healed over.
He was forced to go to the doctor's office to see if he really had done to himself what he wrote about. And sure enough that found too many scars to count. Some were from when he had been cut up before the track meet, others were more recent. Some had, had a knife stuck into them after being made repeatedly to slow the healing process and cause even more pain.
He had been sent to a mental institution where doctors tried to uncover his strange behavior. In all his sessions talking to a physiatrist he had never uttered Mizuki's name. He talked about his sisters', his parents, and Sano but never Mizuki.
She was too good to be talked about to a person who thought they could uncover the things that made him tick. That's when he discovered that somewhere along the road he had fallen deeply in love with her.
The realization had made him wanted to scream and shout in happiness. But then he remembered that she was gone. She was in love with a girl who was just plain old gone.
Of course the physiatrist's had taken apart every part of his life and analyzed it. That had taken him and broken him. In his first session he had been cocky and rude to everyone who tried to get in his head. But then they managed to get inside of him. They broke his spirit and the only thing that he had left was the twitchy loner he had always hid from the world.
And of course he still had Mizuki. He had never spoken about her so they were never able to take her away from him. But then again she wasn't really there now was she. It was a bitter sweet mockery.
It's kind of funny. I was really sad when I started to write this. (Something happened in gym that broke my happiness for awhile. I'm not sure what it was yet.) But then 3 sentences into the story I stopped writing and looked up sad songs online. I didn't find any good ones but I got happy in the process. And the songs that Mikey sung to Mizuki aren't real songs. I just made them up. You can probably tell because they sound like shit but whatever. I wanted either the most depressing song ever to put in to this story or just some song I made up. And I made up two. Huffah! Please review friends!