Requiem of a Butterfly

By: Acidic Dreams

Chapter One- Hisa

Disclaimer: I don't own Fatal Frame, or any of its related trade marks. All that wonderful stuff belongs to Tecmo. The song lyrics that I used are from "Heaven" by DJ Sammy

I might have been three or four when I first realized that I was living with a carbon copy of myself. I mean, I'm sure I knew it when I was very small, but my mind has no recollection of a time when I was so young. It doesn't matter. I suppose that as soon as I realized what I was, and the person I was with-my sister-her and I became inseparable. I remember playing with all the crimson colored butterflies that lived in the village. Kisa was always with me, of course, but the butterflies always seemed to like me better. I know why now…it was because I was just like them. Sometimes they'd all gather around me, so tight it was almost suffocating. But then Kisa would reach out towards me, and they would all scatter. Being with her made feel safe. I loved her like…well, a sister.

Oh, thinking about all our younger years, There was only you and me, We were young and wild and free.

At the time, Kisa and I were the only twins in the village. Even at our young age, we were able to understand how rare it was to have a twin. We were to naïve to see the more ominous side of having a twin. Everyone seemed to be afraid of us, or if not afraid of us, they felt sorry for us. It's not hard to see why, looking back on it. I was born two minutes before Kisa, and for the longest time I considered myself to be the eldest twin. It was only when my mother explained to me that the elder, more mature twin would let the younger one enter the world fist. It made perfect sense to me back then, and even now it still makes perfect sense. Kisa truly was the eldest sister, and as soon as she was explained, she took full responsibility. It was no wonder that I had always felt so safe with her.

And then, one day, our whole world fell apart.

It all started when Father called us into his back room. We were never permitted back there, unless of course, we were in trouble. But Kisa and I were relatively well behaved, and had only found ourselves back there two or three times. When we arrived there, holding hands, I noticed father didn't look angry, like I expected he would. Instead, he looked sad. So very sad. As if he had been told that the whole village was to be burned down.

Ha.

I think about that, and wonder if there is no irony in that idea. If the village were to be burned down, would the Hellish Abyss survive? I've done it again. Another reason to make myself laugh. No, now that I am no longer a human-per se- I have no need to refer to it as the 'X'. None of us do. Yes, us. Did you think I was the only one…? No, that would be much to lonely. But alas, I digress, and I'm sure you'd much rather find out why our father looked so upset.

And love is all that I need And I found it there in your heart. It isn't too hard to see

He had a sullen expression on his face, and it appeared as though he hadn't slept in days, weeks maybe. The head of the Kurasawa household was there as well. I had only ever seen the man once…and even now I cannot recall his first name. In my time I have seen many Kurosawas, and as far as I'm concerned, they're all the same. Except for the twins, of course. They were the only ones I ever considered to be actual people. I felt really bad for the both of them, especially the older of the two.

I looked at my father, and I knew something was wrong. It took him the longest time to explain how I had to die…and how Kisa had to be the one that killed me. I looked at her, and she looked at me, both our eyes wide with what could only be a mixture of fear and shock. Crying, we hugged each other tightly. I never wanted to let go of my sister. It wasn't so much that I didn't want to die, but I didn't want Kisa to be the one that killed me. It wasn't fair to her. Father explained how we had to die to save the village. Kisa and I pulled apart, locking eyes. We both loved All God's Village…and I knew then, I could feel it in my heart, that we had to do this. Father wouldn't make a joke of something like this.

From the time he told us, to the time when the ritual was actually preformed seems something of a blur. So much happened in such a short amount of time. But the actual ritual…by the Gods, I could never forget that. It was all so surreal, like it was just some bad dream, one that I would wake up from, right before the scary part.

No such luck.

Kisa and I never really learned much about the ritual itself. Only that she would have to kill me, and that our sacrifice would keep the village safe. I was happy that she got to live. Kisa seemed so much more deserving of life. I told her this, one night right before we had fallen asleep. This might have been the only time when I ever really saw her get angry. She stood up, and it was almost like she was towering over me. She told me to never say anything like that again. I could hear the anger in her voice, but when I looked up at her, I saw the tears in her eyes. It was all part of the ritual, I know that now. She was supposed to feel the emotional pain, and I was supposed to feel the physical pain.

When you're lying here in my arms I'm finding it hard to believe We're in heaven.

The only thing I can clearly remember after that is the ritual. The red sash that bound Kisa and I together stands out so clearly in my mind. And her hands on her throat…the tears rolling down her face. But still, she squeezed tighter and tighter…my breath was coming shorter as the seconds ticked by. The pain was so unbearable, I wanted death to come quickly and set me free. But it was all part of the ritual. Finally-I thought it would never come-I died. Death is not really something you can describe, you can only know what it really is if you experience it. Think of it as being hit by a big gust of wind, a wind that separates your spirit from your body. In a manner of speaking. But as my body was cast into the Hellish Abyss, my spirit was still tethered to it. It was only when my body was absorbed by the darkness, that I…what I am now…was set free.

It was only when I was absorbed…that I became a crimson butterfly…and become one with Kisa

Now our dreams are coming true.
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you.

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart.
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

End Chapter One

Coming soon: Chapter Two-Kisa

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