1This is number 5 think....I'm not sure how far I got...being sick isn't fun...for the hell of it I might even write three today because it's my mom's birthday tomorrow and I want to take her to a dinner and a movie...I guess it's the least I can do for her...I mean..she gave birth to me...
Ytak - Sorry it was creepy and scary...of course you can never see the little happy blonde a cutter, but when someone gets hurt...you sometimes just want to die...even the pure and innocent can get dark and lost...
I watch the blood go down
it flows like a river
a red sea
but you can't see it can you?
No of course you can't
why would you?
You never were here
were you
I went to the doctor today
I got the cast of my leg
my arm is in a brace
but I'm healing
good thing I now have a cat
I can blame the marks on the beast
so lost today
the snow stopped
it's no longer snowing
someone called my name out
it must have been one of them
it sounded just like you
but it wasn't
they say you weren't real
you don't exist
that you were just in my head
why do I feel so lost?
So alone without you?
Why do I need someone that isn't there?
You don't exist.
At school
the kids gave me a new name
I am Kaiba clone
yes
clone
I am just as bad as he
if not worse
isn't that fun?
Aren't you proud?
You should be
it's all your fault anyway
stupid basturd
I hate you
and I do this for you
it's late
and my family sleeps
in the night I do I do it often
my wrists bleed for hours
I turn the sink on
and plug the drain
filling the marble tub with hot water
vapor rising to meet my gaze
drops fall in the water
and down goes my hands
it stings at first
just as it always does
but not as bad as the first time
I miss you so much
tears so down my pale face
I lost weight
I don't even eat anymore
who would want me
even someone that didn't exist
didn't want me
I stare at myself in the mirror
I looked just like you
so much alike
more tears grow
to the point where I can't take it any longer
I throw my shoe at the glass
but you stay there
within the glass
is it you?
Is it really you?
Could it be you?
Did you really stay with me?
Please say it's so...
I miss you
Lover