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Chapter 4-

Remus clutched Sirius' hand as they took his newly born baby out of the room. He felt Sirius go limp and immediately turned his attention to his husband.

"Sirius? What's wrong with Sirius!" Remus cried out to Healer Thomas.

"He's just passed out, Mr. Lupin."

Lily came close and put her hand on Remus' arm. She gently pushed him down into a seat. Remus sat down and put his head in his hands. The next few minutes went by slowly as they got Sirius back into a more stable condition.

"Remus..?"

Remus shot up and was instantly back in Sirius' line of view. Sirius was very pale and tears leaked out of his reddened eyes. Remus felt his lip tremble just from the sight.

"Remus," Sirius rasped out, "Where's my baby, where's our child?"

Remus felt a tear escape. He stroked Sirius' face with a shaking hand.

"I don't know, love. I don't know."

Sirius nodded and grasped Remus' hand. Sirius' whole body was shaking.

"Siri, calm down. Sirius.." Remus said worriedly.

Sirius looked at the wall. "Our baby is alive. I can't live if our little baby isn't."

"Don't talk like..like that."

Before Sirius had a chance to respond the door opened. Everyone in the room looked around. A new healer stepped in.

"I'm Healer Brad. Are you the Lupins?"

Remus nodded and Sirius sat up.

"Where is my baby?"

Healer Brad looked at him.

"Your baby didn't make it. I am sorry, but it was stillborn."

In that instant Remus felt the world collide. The air was sucked out of his lungs and his mind was shot. Dumbly he looked at Sirius.

Sirius was staring at Healer Brad, who quickly made her way out. James and Lily sat down in shock. Madam Pomfrey and Healer Thomas moved into a corner. Remus couldn't think, he couldn't move.

The room was deathly silent until he heard James whisper, "Remus."

Remus looked at James who then pointed to Sirius. Remus looked around at his husband. The world came crashing back down.

Sirius had the most expressionless look on his face. He was staring at his wrists. Remus remembered what he had said merely minutes before.

"Sirius, no!"

Sirius didn't look up. He shook Sirius' shoulder frantically. Then Sirius looked up.

His normally lively blue-gray eyes were dead.

END OF FLASHBACK

Remus snapped out of his thoughts when a hand touched his shoulder. He glanced up to see Lily smiling softly.

"No change?"

Remus shook his head. It had been two full weeks since they took Sirius in this part of the hospital wing. Each day Remus, Lily and James were in there trying to pry Sirius out of the shell he hid in.

"Don't worry, I'm sure he'll come out of it sometime."

Remus grinned humorlessly. "Are you trying to convince yourself or me?"

Lily sat down, a hand resting on her pregnant stomach. "To be honest, both."

Remus nodded his eyes resting on her stomach. It wasn't right, they should be at home celebrating their new child, changing his little diapers and feeding him out of a tiny bottle…

"Remus?"

"Yes?"

Lily opened her mouth but closed it. Instead she grabbed the grieving man's hand and put it to her stomach. At that exact moment the babe kicked. Remus' eyes lit up for a brief moment and he let out a hint of a smile.

"Thank you Lily."

Lily kissed his cheek softly. "Come on, let's get back to Sirius. He needs to be reminded about life."

Remus nodded feeling oddly refreshed. This wasn't the end of the world; there could be more children in the future. Remus was filled with a new sense of hope. He helped Lily up.

"I'll be glad when I stop looking like I swallowed a watermelon!"

Remus smiled as they made their way back to the room Sirius and James were at.

As he walked in James was sitting at the end of the bed pouring over a book. He glanced up when they sat down. He got up and strode over to Lily.

"Are you okay, Lily dear?"

Lily smiled. "Yes, James. I'm fine."

"Good."

"Good."

Remus let them have their space as he made his way over to Sirius. He pulled a chair so that he was directly in front of Sirius' face. Sirius was staring straight ahead at nothing. His eyes were unfocused. Remus sighed and absently stroked his husbands' face.

He glanced up to see James smile happily as he felt the baby kick. Remus was struck with an idea.

"Lily!"

Lily and James looked at him quickly.

"What? What is it!"

"The baby!"

Lily stood up with a bit of help from James.

"What?"

"Come here, Sirius needs to feel the baby!"

James raised an eyebrow. "Huh?" he replied rather stupidly.

Lily narrowed her eyes then they went wide with realization and she grinned.

"Of course, he needs to feel life."

She strode over there as quickly as she could. Remus gave up his seat as she sat down carefully. Remus sat on the bed and took Sirius' hand and put it to her stomach. Lily gently poked at her stomach.

Nothing.

Remus let out the breath he hadn't known he was holding. His brief moment of hope was fading quickly. It hadn't work, how could he have been so stupid…

He grasped Sirius' hand. He looked down and nearly fainted.

Sirius had squeezed back..

TBC…………..