Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.
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A/N: Hiya! I just realized that by the time you're reading this, it'll be May. WOW! It's almost January here. I feel like I'm looking into the future or something. It's kinda scary and confusing.
Date(s):
Thursday December 30, 2004
Saturday January 1, 2005
Sunday January 2, 2005
Tuesday January 4, 2005
Mood:
(12-30)So so. I'm kinda tired although it is 12:30. I just woke up an hour ago.
(1-1) EXCITED! Sinubi invited me over to watch Anchorman (love it) and INUYASHA MOVIE 2! (dies)
(1-2) My knee really hurts. I think it might be from DDR, but I'm not sure. I can't bend it right.
(1-4) I'm pretty good... nothing much happened. At all. Yeah.
Music:
(12-30)
Nothing at the moment but I'm downloading some Kotoko off of this one awesome mp3 rotation site:
Emotionally Driven
That site is awesome you should check it out if you like JPOP or JROCK
(1-1)
Ayumi Hamasaki - Because of You
AYumi Hamasaki - About You
BoA - Shine We Are!
BoA - Merikuri
(1-2)
Ayumi Hamasaki - Everywhere Nowhere
Ayumi Hamasaki - Free and Easy
Ayumi Hamasaki - Independant
Ayumi Hamasaki - Because of You
Ayumi Hamasaki - About You
Chara - Yuugure no Uta
Miyamoto Shunichi (DNAngel) - Caged Bird
Minawo (DNAngel) - Yasashii Gogo
Do As Infinity - Hiiragi
Do As Infinity - Tangerine Dream
Do As Infinity - Tooku Made
Every Little Thing - Samidare
FFX2 - 1000 no Kotoba
Garnet Crow - Mysterious Eyes
(1-4)
Kotoko - Fuyu no Shizuku
Kotoko - Hayategumo
Mika Nakashima - Resistance
Momo - Greedy
Onitsuka Chihiro - Suna no Tate
Pretear - White Destiny
Round Table feat. Nino - New World
Shiina Ringo - Remote Control
Terada Hiruhi - Eternal Flower
Tommy February6 - Je t'aime Je t'aime
Tommy February6 - Magic in Your Eyes
Utada Hikaru - Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro
Current Stuff: (12-30)
Nothing really. I pretty much explained it all last night when I was writing chapter 14. Um... well right now I'm talking to Krista and I'm chewing some gum. And... That's about it. Yes.
(1-1) Just got home from a NEW YEARS partay at Machelle's.
(1-2) Talking to Krista online. My stupid bitch mom won't let her come over.
(1-4) I'm the governer of my colony on colony quest! yay me! I get to boss people around!
Random Facts:
1)We call nice legs antelope legs.. but a real antelope's leg is fat...
2)Train straps (you know, the things you hold onto while standing up on a subway). 1 train strap can hold 860 pounds.
So... the elephant says to the camel "Why do you have 2 boobs on your back"
The camel replies "That's a pretty good question coming from someone that has a dick on thier face."
Quote: Poke me lots! (by: Sinubi! story: Well... Emily has this thing when you poke her, she moans like she's having sex. So one day I said "Un poco loco" and Sinubi says "Doesn't that mean 'poke me lots'" and I'm like "NO IT MEANS A LITTLE CRAZY" and so now we write poke me lots on tape and stick on the back of emily's shirt... and people... well they poke her lots.)
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Love Pentagon
Chapter Fifteen
Never Would've Thought It
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The next morning I got off the bus with Shiori, my one friend that has the same bus stop as me. She's really cool and all, but she can get really hyper. She has a bad mouth and she was almost sent to jail. But she's cool. And I love her!
Well, we were walking and I saw bus 14, Kikyo's bus. Shiori and I ran up to Kikyo, who was quiet and seemed kind of sad.
"Umm, Kikyo... Is there something wrong?" I asked.
"I have some bad news for me and good news for you," Kikyo explained.
What the hell could that mean?
"Inuyasha and I broke up last night."
I gasped. I couldn't believe it. So that did mean something. Did he want me now?
One thought came to mind. Sukey.
I knew that Sukey and Inuyasha cared for eachother. But I also knew that he'd never done to Sukey what he'd done to me. I knew he didn't leave hickies all over Sukey and I knew he didn't see her in her bra. Unlike me...
I had to ask him to date me today. ASAP. If I didn't, I don't know what I'd do. I knew that if I didn't, he probably wouldn't bother with me and then he'd go and date Sukey.
Another thought came to mind. Sango. Sango told me she'd fallen for Inuyasha. Did that mean that she'd try for him? I doubted it. She wasn't the type of girl that'd go and ask some guy out. And plus, she cared about me too much to date him when she knew that I liked him. Too bad I wasn't as caring as she was.
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Music class. Fourth period. I hadn't talked to Inuyasha at all. I pretended that I didn't know when he told me they broke up.
"Oh, really? That sucks. You seem to be taking it okay, though," I said, putting one of those hands on his shoulders. One of those hands where you don't know what they're supposed to be saying.
"Yeah, I'm okay," he laughed. "Somebody already asked me out," he showed me a note he got.
"Can I read it? PWEASE?"
"Sure," he handed it to me.
Dear Inuyasha,
Hey! I heard about you and Kikyo and I'm really sorry about it. I was thinking that since you were single now, you could go to the movies with me sometime. I like scary movies! Well, write me back, please. Oh the reason I'm giving you this right now (1st period) is because I wanted to get to you before Sukey and Kagome. And all those other girls.
I love you!
Sango
XOXOX
Sango? I would've never thought that she'd ask him out like that. She's the one who always told me that she'd never hurt her friends. But what was this?
"Are you going to say yes," I asked, afraid of the answer. Either way, I'd be hurt. If he said yes, I'd be sad that he actually chose Sango. If he said no, then I'd be sad for Sango for getting rejected.
"FEH! NO!" he yelled, loud enough for the whole classroom to hear.
"Would you two like to share with the class what is so... exciting?" The bitchy teacher interrogated.
"Oh we were just saying how this one girl asked me out and Kagome was wondering if I was going to say yes and I told her 'FEH! NO'," he said, straight-forward.
"Oh. Thank you for being honest," she spat at us.
I smiled. Kill 'em with kindness.
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I was in disbelief. I stared at Sango from across the lunch table. I couldn't tell her I knew. I just couldn't. Inuyasha wouldn't trust me anymore and Sango wouldn't trust him.
I had to be the one to ask him out. I knew he wasn't going out with Sukey yet. He'd tell me. I needed to tell him. I wanted to be with him. And he didn't do that for anything, right? He said he didn't mean to kiss me and it meant nothing, but I knew he was lying to try and cover up his guilt.
"So," Yumi whispered to me "I was talking to Inuyasha earlier and I asked him some things... I was asking him who he'd date if they asked him out. I asked him about you... well let's just say that now that he's single, you should go for it."
My eyes shot open. He said he'd go out with me? I was going to go for it. Just... when?
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La clase de español. We were watching a video on El México. Aburrido! I decided I'd have much more fun writing my note to Inuyasha.
(a/n: just in case you don't habla español, here's what the things mean.. if you can't figure them out. la clase de español : spanish class el méxico : mexico aburrido : boring habla español : speak spanish
wow you learn more and more japanese and OTHER languages from me everyday)
My precious Inuyasha,
Hi! I heard you and Sukey aren't going out yet. Well, I want to be as foolish as Sango was and I've decided to ask you out before she did. I know it's really stupid, and I don't stand a chance against Sukey, but it's worth a try.
Plus, Yumi said that you'd go out with me if I asked you. She said "Go for it". So I am.
Also, I know you were only trying to cover up your own guilt when you said the kiss and hickeys didn't mean anything. If they didn't mean anything, then why'd you do them? Why do you tell me you love me? Why are you the only one I think about? It's because you love me and I love you.
Please answer me.
Love, hugs, n kisses
Kagome
I folded the note up into a football and awaited the time the bell would ring.
RING!
Ooh... good timing.
I stopped by my locker and he headed my way and kicked my ass.
"Yeeouch," I yelped. And stood up, grabbing my butt. My smile faded and went straight from happy to embarrassment. "I feel like a fool," I said, handing him the note.
"Why?" he asked, taking it and looking at it suspiciously.
"Once you read it, you'll know," I said as the hall became crowded with students ready to go to 8th period. As he walked to the math class on my left, I waved to him.
I sure hoped Yumi was right about this.
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Yumi approached me at the end of the day while we were waiting for the busses. "Well? Did you ask him?"
"Yeah..."
"And what'd he say?"
"He didn't yet," I looked worried.
"Oh, you want me to talk to him?"
"Sure, but don't tell me what he's going to say. I want him to tell me."
"Okay!" she hurried off in Inuyasha's direction.
I sighed. I couldn't tell Kikyo what I'd done. It would be horrible. She probably wouldn't want to be friends with me, at least not for a while.
Yumi smiled at Inuyasha and waved bye to him as soon as he spotted his bus, 5. She non-chalantly walked up to me, making it seem like she totally knew something that I didn't.
"Well?" I asked, examining the expression spread across her face. Damn, this girl really had a strong poker face.
"You told me not to tell you, so I won't!" she said and went over to Riku, who was talking to Homare.
Did I mention Homare? She was really awesome. She was going to move all the way to Texas or Florida, but she didn't and I was really glad. She had always been one of my best friends and she was a really good listener. She liked anime as much as me, and she was an awesome artist.
I trudged on my bus and sat next to Shiori. I had a really bad feeling at the pit of my stomach.
Shiori looked over at me. "You don't look so good."
"Well, you know how I like Inuyasha?" I made sure my voice was hushed.
"Yeah, so does that Sukey bitch. God I can't stand her! She is my FCS partner so I have to be nice to her, but I hate that fucking bitch!"
"I know. That's why I have a really bad feeling about asking him out. I think I'm going to lose to her."
"I hate to say it, but I have to go along with you. Inuyasha's a dick face, Kagome. He only wants a girl he knows'll fuck 'im! And Sukey is just the whore to do it, too!"
"I... think you're right."
"But then again, you sort of do have a good chance. Because when I'm sitting with 'em, he talks about you sometimes. And in study hall he always looks at you. I think he does like you. And if you two do go out, if Sukey fucking lays a fucking hand on him, I'll fucking spazz on her. I'll be like 'GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF KAGOME'S MAN, BITCH!'"
"Thanks" I smiled. Shiori was kinda punk rockand she had a horrible mouth on her... and she was almost in jail... and beats a lot of people up... but that's besides the point! She was an awesome friend! And I felt safe having her on my side.
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I walked off of the bus and said bye to Shiori, who was walking the other direction on the street. We had the same stop, just we lived on different sides and stuff. You don't really need to know or care.
I got home and flopped in my worn out computer chair, logged on, and prayed to dear god I wouldn't get any pop-ups in the process.
Success!
...Not a success.
There was no point in getting logged on. Inuyasha wasn't on. And I wasn't the type of girl who sits around and waits for guys to answer to her, either. So I logged off just as Kikyo started to talk to me.
I had to avoid Kikyo. I felt so bad for what I did. I didn't want her to know...
I layed down on my lime green bed and closed my eyes. I knew I would be staying up late probably writing poems about my misery or success later this night, so it didn't matter if I slept now.
I drifted off into la-la-land...
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My dream
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I sat down in a seat in a theater. "I thought there'd be more people here..." I said to myself. "This was supposed to be a huge performance. I guess I'm the only one that cares."
The stage lit up. I was still the only one sitting in the audiance. "This song goes out to you... Kagome," a voice said from behind the curtain as I saw a siloute behind the red curtain.
As the curtain ascended up into blackness that never seemed to end, Sukey was standing there, with her back turned on me. She turned around and glared me in the eye. She stepped forward and set her microphone on the stand without taking her gaze off of me.
I examined what she was wearing. A beautiful silk gown with the collar lined with emeralds, and a single flower design going up her left side, also made from emeralds. "You like it? Inuyasha bought it for me. Like I said before, this song goes out to you," she said before taking in a deep breath and starting to sing.
"When you go fishing
You catch a boot or some other trash
When you play at cards
You lose all your cash
You're so pathetic
You never win and you never will
Not the kind of girl
Who'd make any guy feel the thrill
I'm sorry
You'll never be a goddess like me
Step aside
This is how it's got to be
I'll get the guy yes I'm the one
Who will always win the day
I'm strong and I am beautiful
What more can I say?
I'll get the guy he'll hold me close
To the very end of time
And when you lose how you will
Moan and cry 'cause the guy
Will be mine!"
She laughed and hugged Inuyasha, who ran up on stage to hand her a bouquet of roses.
"Wait... you didn't write that song! It's from Tenchi Muyo!" I screamed at them, who were now making out. (it really is from Tenchi Muyo!) My eyes widened. I screamed at them, but they couldn't hear me.
"Inuyasha! How could you! You're the one who gave me my first kiss! My first hickey! How could you date this bitch instead of me? You never did that do her! It was me! You're the one that told me you loved me more than I loved you, which is way more than Sukey could ever love you!"
Nothing. The curtain that was in the darkness above me came plunging down on me, and before I knew it I was swimming in a sea of red curtain, which ended up being my own blood. I swallowed huge amounts of it, and ended up sinking down towards the bottom, where a picture of Inuyasha cracked and split into pieces, then gathered into Sukey the mermaid's hands.
Another Sukey came behind me and started to strangle me. My eyes bugged out and I drank more of my own blood, which was pouring out of my heart. It was over for me...
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My eyes snapped open. I was gasping for air. I checked my abdomen to see if I wasn't bleeding.
"Her song..."
I knew all dreams ended up meaning something, but what about this one? What was this supposed to mean. Bad vibes were surrounding my room. I checked the clock. 8:29
My phone rang. I checked the caller ID.
333-8337
Inuyasha. I smiled. He was responding.
"Hello, Inu," I cooed.
"Hey, Kagome," he sounded serious. He sounded this way when he kissed me... did this mean the same thing?
"So, what'd you think of my note,"
"About that..." uh oh.. this didn't sound good. "I think I want to stay single for a couple months. I'm sorry. Maybe you should ask me later."
I was okay with this. He wanted me to ask him later, so I wasn't necessarily rejected. "Okay, sounds fine. We're still best friends, right?"
"Yeah, nothing changed... I love you though, Kagome."
"I love you, too. I gotta go now. I gotta take a shower?" I explained.
"Ooh, can I join you?"
"Sure," I joked. "Just kidding!"
"I know."
"Well, see you tommorrow! Love, hugs, n kisses!"
"Love you, too! Bye."
I hung up. Take a shower? I lied.
I felt like sleeping again, to wear off the feeling of heartbreak. Sure, I was okay with it if he wanted to wait. I thought that was pretty mature of him. That way, he could flirt and not feel guilty... or give hickeys...
I was getting carried away. I needed to feel like this feeling that made me heart pound so hard - love - was settled for a few months. I was as mature as him, so I could wait, too.
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A/N: MY GOD! That was one long chappie! Took me a few days, man! Well, I gotsta go take a shower (for real... ha). Please review! Oh yeah and here are the
Chapter Previews!
"Inuyasha, why don't you and Sukey just date already? You both like eachother, it's flagrant. What are you waiting around for me for"
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"Kagome, we need to start an anti-Sukey mafia"
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