Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha
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A/N: ARGH! My DDR data got corrupted -- again! I had everything in that game. EVERYTHING! I'm fuming.
Date(s): Wednesday January 5, 2005
Saturday January 8, 2005
Wednesday January 12, 2005
Mood: REALLY PISSED!
Really tired -- last night was a school dance and Krista and I hung out until 12... and then I had to get up at 6 to go to work... but then I faked sick and left!
(1-12) Sick and tired... new inuyasha and I stayed up to watch it... and then there's school in the morning.
Music:
Ayumi Hamasaki - Everywhere Nowhere
Krista playing some duck song for me through the phone.
(1-8)
Amburgers and Wootbeer
Summer is Over - BuriGuri (The Brilliant Green)
Hikari - Utada Hikaru ( I LOVE THIS SONG YEAH GO GO KINGDOM HEARTS!)
Chihiro Onitsuka - Arrow of Pain
Chihiro Onitsuka - Beautiful Fighter
BoA - SHINE WE ARE!!
Utada Hikaru - First Love
(1-12)
Sayonara Summer is Over - BuriGuri
Arrow of Pain - Chihiro Onitsuki
Beautiful Fighter - Chihiro Onitsuka
Crow - Chihiro Onitsuka
Hyouryuu no Hane - Chihiro Onitsuka
Under the Moon - Do As Infinity
Current Stuff: I tried out for the play. Last year I tried out, too. But last year I didn't get in... But I think I actually have a chance this time! YAY! Well, this was only audition one, and if I made this one, I can get called back. I hope I will get called back. Ooh yay and I got the highest score in my whole English class. Well I gotta go to Krista's now.
(1-8) Uhh... tired... and hungry... Mommy get some groceries, already!
(1-12) OMG! I DIDN'T MAKE THE PLAY! I'm so sad. I cried in health. It was all I had to keep from crying in homeroom. But then the tears just started flowing in 1st period. But my friends cheered me up. They said that they don't know talent... but I think they do. I know I wasn't good enough. I made the first auditions, just not the second ones. I'm so mad.
I'm back from Krista's and its 9:10 PM. OMG go to and watch their flashes! (albinoblacksheep dot com)
I reccommend:
Evil Strawberry
Llama Song
Amburgers and Wootbeer
Schfifty Five
DoodooCaca
She Blocked Me
The Smurfs Lost Episode
Queen: Hidden Message (check out the links for that one, too)
Mashed Taters
Random Facts:
Sorry, I don't have any right now.
Quote: Harpoon that whale! (By: Emily! Story: There is this really fat girl on our bus. Emily and I always wanted to yelll "harpoon that whale" out the window. So, she did. And we looked at her expression and she was looking like she was ready to cry. Her new nickname is Obesity Barbie. The next day, she didn't show up at school. I think she committed suicide!)
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Love Pentagon
Chapter Sixteen
Single...
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Every chance I got to flirt with Inuyasha, I took. I couldn't help myself. He was free now, and that meant that if he wanted me, he could have me. And the same: if I wanted him, I could have him... that is, if he wanted me back.
Everyday I would do something different to get his attention. Blow him a kiss, pinch his butt (which was an extreme), play footsie with him, or tell him I love him.
The funny thing is, he'd go along with it.
But one day I just stopped everything I was doing. Here's the story:
I decided to sit with Inuyasha and Sukey at their table for a change. It freaked me out... He was playing footsie and rubbing her thigh! Instead of mine! I was so jealous. I began to get mad...
I stood up and got behind them so I could reach for a bag of chips. I quickly checked his pants. No boner. I knew for a fact that when we were making out (ahem) he had a boner. (ahem ahem! this is odd to talk about).
Maybe he had an erectile disfunction... (lol I don't know where that's from but my friend Krista found it..)
I sat down and popped my chip bag open, my chips flying all over Sukey. I snickered.
"Is something wrong, Kagome?" Inuyasha asked.
"Um... yeah, there is. If you want to talk to me about it, call me later."
I got up and walked back to my own table to join my own friends.
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Later
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"Hello?" I picked up the phone.
"Hey, its me. What was buggin' you earlier?"
"What do you think?"
"If I knew, I wouldn't be callin', Kagome!"
"You and Sukey! You said that you loved me, and we went farther than you two did... I think."
"Yeah, we did go farther. Just shut up about that, okay? I don't feel like hearing it again. It's embarrassing what I did to Kikyo!"
"Inuyasha, why don't you and Sukey just date already? You both like eachother, it's flagrant. What are you waiting around for me for?"
"Um... Kagome.. Hasn't anyone told you yet? We are dating. I asked her out today."
"Why don't I ever find these things out! And I thought you were 'staying single for a while'!"
"I'm sorry! It's just -- I like Sukey a LOT. And I wanted her really bad. You shouldn't have to wait to have the one you love, right?"
"Sure, right. Then why do I have to wait for mine?"
I hung up.
Asshole.
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Everyday after the next would just keep getting worse. Inuyasha and I would talk lesser and lesser each day, and we wouldn't even say hi to eachother anymore. It was ripping my heart to shreds.
Some best friend he was. He told me that we were bff's. Now he was just acting like a jerk.
Of course it wsn't my business to snoop around in his love life, but he's the one who let me in by kissing me, right? Despite my wise thinking...
I was craving his attention. I was addicted to him. Sango and I were depressed about this. Sango wasn't really his friend though, so I was surprised at her depression. But, you know, you can't change the future by just sitting back and watching, right?
Later, at lunch, Shiori stopped our depression.
"We should start and Anti-Sukey mafia!"
"YEAH!"
So that was the beginning of that. But by the end of the day, what was supposed to be a secret, ended up spreading all over school.
"Kagome, why would you do that to her!" Inuyasha's angry voice yelled through the phone.
"Because I hate her, and you and I both know it!"
"I should've never told you!"
"You're right!"
Silence.
"Inuyasha, I'm sorry. I really am. I guess I just found a way to take out all of my anger with that. I love you, Inuyasha. I would never do anything to try and ruin one of you're relationships. It's none of my business anyway."
"How can I be mean to that? I'm sorry for yelling at you. Just don't upset Sukey anymore. I love you, too, Kagome."
"I'm going to go now."
"Okay, bye."
I hung up after making a kissing noise in the phone and laughing. I was so happy Inuyasha and I were still friends, even though it didn't seem like it. But I was so crestfallen about his new girlfriend.
I never liked Sukey. She was always a whore and an annoyance. Last year we were in most of the same classes, and she always spoke her mind. And I mean ALWAYS.
I remember one time she said, "Why is it a pair of jeans if its only one article of clothing?" when we were talking about chloroplasts as a part of a plant's cell.
And she was so ugly. I couldn't see how he could be attracted to such a disgusting human being. Her head was abnormally small, but her face was even smaller. I think her one eye was bigger than the other, but I couldn't tell. Since her face was really small, she had a big forehead, and when she scrunched up her face there were many wrinkles there.
I couldn't take it anymore! I needed to express my feelings through poetry!
Silence
A silent scream
wakes me from my sleep
the scream was mine
and I begin to weep
Why does your face
haunt me in every dream?
why can't you be everything
that you seem?
Silent Tears
fall from my eyes
like silent rain
falls from the sky
Am I deaf?
am I mute?
fill me with life again
by calling me cute
Do to me
what you used to do
so once again
I'll be in love with you
I feel nothing anymore
you made me numb
you lied -- you don't love me
I'm just your "chum"
I give up
I'll walk, not run
the race to your heart
is over, it's done!
Rejection
So this is what it feels like
To be rejected
Feeling so confused...
Asking yourself questions:
Why did I ever like him?
Was I ever really in love?
Why'd he choose her over me?
If he didn't like me
Then why'd he flatter me?
Hug me?
Kiss me?
Love me?
Why is he the one on my mind?
Am I on his?
Why did he lie?
Why, why why?
Rejection...
Why I Hate Her
Why do I hate her?
Hm.. let's see
Right by your side
She'll always be
Though I don't own you
She took you from me
When she's around
Your heart has a fee
She always exclaims
"He's so sexy!"
For the lock on your heart
She has the key
You look at her
The way you used to look at me
Why do I hate her?
Gee...
Let's see...
Do I Know You?
Do you know me?
Because I don't know you
You make me so weary
You make me so blue
You really don't act
The way you used to
Sure, just ignore me, ditch me
See if I care!
But when YOU need ME
You know I'll be there
I'll cheer you up by remembering
The times we used to share
To you
I'll always be a friend
Has it really
Come to an end?
Keep this up
And it'll depend
By the time I was done writing, it was 1 o'clock in the morning. I really tore my heart out. I wanted him to read these, and to see how I really felt! But, I was nervous of being made fun of. He was ignorant like that.
I flopped down on my bed after putting all my poems into my portfolio of them.
If he's such an asshole, then why do I care about him so much?
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A/N: So, whatcha think? Those are some of my best poems right there.
Thankies for reviewing.
Chapter Previews!
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