A/N: ok so this is all from Harry's POV. only my second attempt at a fanfic. If you don't like H/Hr tough! deal with it!

Disclaimer: I don't own the Characters and what not…… they are J.K.'s. I am making no money so there

A Mess of Emotions

The mess I made all started with one small piece of homework. Who would have thought one insignificant piece of paper could cause me to experience pain, guilt, and longing in just one night. Who would have guessed that homework would show the truth I felt to the outside world.

It was late one night and our little group of four was sitting around the common room fire. Ron and I were working on the essay Snap had given us last week. My girlfriend Ginny was sleeping in a nearby chair while Hermione, having done the essay already, was reading her favorite book in the world Hogwarts: A History.

"Honestly, I don't know why you didn't finish that earlier. We could all be asleep right now."

I lookup from the parchment I've been staring at the last few minuets "But 'Mione, if we had done it earlier when would we have had that snowball fight?" I say.

Oh how her eyes twinkle as she remembers the fun we all had out side.

"And besides its due tomorrow. So now is the only time we can do it. Don't you want us to get good grades?" I inquire.

"Yes, well… Hurry up so I can look over it and we can all go to sleep." She says.

I grin at Ron and he responds by scribbling faster.

I look back at her. "Thanks 'Mione."

She grunts in reply as she returns to her book.

As I am thinking of what to write my eyes drift around the common room. Ginny. She looks peaceful as she sleeps. Ron. Steadily scratching away at his parchment. The fire is burning its mesmerizing flames. The moon shining through the window, its silver rays illuminating Hermione. Oh Hermione.

Why do you do this to me Hermione? You seem to be able to pull emotions out of me that even Ginny can't stir. Why do I feel this way? I know I shouldn't. Not when I have a loving girlfriend. And especially not about my best friend. But I feel comfortable around you. I know I can talk to you about anything and she wouldn't judge. You will always be there for me no matter what happens. How I long to be in your arms. To be loved by you…

What am I thinking! Ginny is my girlfriend! She is there for me. Yea but not like Hermione I say to myself. What would they say if they found out about my true feelings?

I know Ron fancies her. Would he hate me if he found out? What about Hermione? It would probably ruin our friendship….six years worth… gone in a flash. And Ginny she would be devastated. That is probably why I am with this red headed flame and not with you. I am afraid we would lose our friendship.

Oh Hermione. I feel guilty for using Ginny like this. Being with her because I can't have you. But I must endure. I have faced Voldemort but that is nothing to the pain I feel deep inside because I can't be with you. As I gaze at you, I feel only love inside.

I an so lost in thought that I watch you as you stand and say you will look at the work in the morning and wake Ginny so you can go to bed.

I am so entrapped by her beauty that I think "Hermione, You are so beautiful….. I love you with all my soul…"

All I hear as I think this is a heavy book hitting the floor dropped from numb fingers, an inkwell being over turned and a gasp.

I look around to find a stunned Hermione, a furious Ron and a heartbroken Ginny.

I then realize I must have spoken out loud……….

What a mess I have made……………….

A/N: well this is just a short oneshot. Read and Review.