Chapter 21: Conflicting Emotions

Princess Sango

Tohru woke up in Kyo-san and her bed, seeing Kyo-san still asleep. She tried to remember walking to her room, but didn't recall it. That must have meant Kyo-san had picked her up and carried her all the way to their room. Tohru smiled and tenderly caressed his cheek when she remembered what Kyo-san had said to her last night, before she passed out.

"I'm sorry Tohru, you won't be alone again, I'm here now, for you."

She blushed and smiled at him, he was so helpful, ever since he had gotten back. Not fighting with Yuki, trying his best to be a father, and trying to be the best well…boyfriend/husband to Tohru. That's when something hit her, she wasn't married to him, and they weren't tied down by anything but their children. If love had fallen out, or if either one felt trapped, they could just walk out the door at any given time. That wouldn't happen to them would it? Their love would stay relinquished right? Nothing bad could happen to the love they had given themselves, eight years ago, and had vowed never to break will it?

Tohru covered her face, feeling anxiety tears welling up, but then she felt a hand on her's, "Tohru, what's wrong?"

Looking up at him she saw Kyo-san, someone who she loved dearly, very dearly, for she had given up so much to him, and he had given her love and kids. The only problem is that what about them? What waited for them beyond this little quiet calm, after the fog clears, who will be left together, and who will be left alone? "N-nothing Kyo-san, I'm sorry if I woke you."

Kyo-san studied her eyes and shook his head, pulling her close to him, "Tohru-chan, what's on your mind?"

Tohru looked up at him, "What's going to happen to us? Kyo-san, I know this might sound selfish, but what about us? We rushed into everything eight years ago, assuming that you weren't coming back, and now here you are. What's going to happen now, to us?"

Kyo-san took a deep breath and looked down at this woman who he had known to be strong-willed and now she looked like a little girl, asking her dad for help. He kissed the top of her head, his hands gently moving down her back, and whispered soft, kind words to her, and when she sniffed back the tears, Kyo-san answered her. "We can take it slow, I could move out of this room, into another, and when you feel better about me being here, together, we could try again."

Tohru looked up at him, "I don't want you to leave this room Kyo-san, and I don't want to wake up thinking you aren't here, in front of my eyes. I meant about love, where is our relationship going, Kyo? I mean, right now we could leave each other, and we could get away with it, but Kyo, I don't want that, do you?"

Kyo-san smiled at her, "I'd never leave you again, and didn't you hear me last night? Tohru-chan, I love you, and don't doubt that, I'll stay in this room, but we'll take it slow okay?"

Tohru smiled at him, clinging to his nightshirt and calming some of her tears. Kyo-san clung to her tightly, trying to show her that his love is like a circle, it keeps going, never ending. No one could disturb the couple, and one passing thought for a common mind:

Maybe they weren't doomed after all, any more that is.

TBC…