Season: Future-Season 10
Sam/Jack Pairing
Warning: Character Death
Do I feel grief for the man I lost or the life I lost? Maybe both.
Is it fair to ask me to talk about him when I am not able to speak the truth, my heart's truth? They whisper we were lovers but the word doesn't come close to the bond we shared.
Were. Funny how such a small word can mean so much, were, past tense as in no more. Naïve to think we could out run the bad guy and live to tell the tale. We won the war but he and I have lost the battle. Our private battle to have each other.
They watch me waiting on the cracks to widen so far they engulf me, but I will not let that happen here. Here in this room where our journey began and where his journey ended. He made it back, his life slowly slipping from him. He made it back to say goodbye, his eyes conveying everything his lips could not.
They say he died a hero. That he'll never be forgotten, that he sacrificed himself to save us all.But their words don't fill the gap left in my heart. They won't gently wipe the tears from my face when they fall, won't wrap their arms around me in the middle of the night to comfort me from my nightmares. They won't make me laugh at their sarcastic quips…
I'll live my life for him, but my heart will always be his
Always.