Just to waste my time with you

A/N: The All-American Rejects and their video for the song 'Dirty Little Secret' inspired these stories. Don't ask me how, cause I'm not really sure. And for the people who read this fic and have been wondering why I didn't update, I apologize. Life has been a little hectic at my house lately and there was never any time to write the next chapters. But I promise I'll try to have the 3rd chapter up asap.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans. I don't own AAR. I only own my muse, Levi who is called Biff and my multitude of purses.

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I like her. She represents everything I should hate, but yet and still I like her. I…I can't explain why I feel the way I do or why I feel somewhere deep inside that caring for her is the only thing in this world that matters.

I know that my teammates wouldn't understand our relationship, however twisted it may seem. And I know that they wouldn't want to accept her as part of our group, as a part of our family. They would only see the villain, the 'evil' H.I.V.E member. They would only remember how the last time we tried to trust someone, they betrayed us and broke our hearts. They wouldn't see what I see.

Because the girl I see is a far cry from the one visible to the rest of society. She's more than just the cotton-candied eyed, solferino haired sorceress. She's more than just a bad-luck giving, hex making villianess. She's a teenage girl who just happened to make some bad choices. She a young woman who, like so many do, uses her powers in the least productive way. She's made some mistakes, its true. But who among us hasn't?

I know what the rest of my teammates would say. I can picture their reactions as clearly as if they had already taken place. Raven will immediately deem her untrustworthy, and would later ask me, in her own special way of course, why I had kept such a big secret from her. My keeping things hidden from her will silently hurt her, she will wonder if I don't value my friendship with her the way she does with me. Starfire will be the most welcoming, but she too will be wary, slightly on edge. She will accept my companion only to please me, not because she really likes her. Beast Boy will be another compatriot hurt by my secrecy, my slight deception. He is my best friend and I haven't even mentioned liking someone, let alone this person. He may feel the most betrayed, the most left out of the loop. How could I tell him though, knowing that it would only stir up some many still painful memories for him? Last of all the Titans is Robin. Robin, with his ever- mistrusting nature. Robin, who would within the first five seconds, decide that she was up to 'something'. That she had some secret agenda for liking me, that everything was all a lie. Robin, who would make me choose: my team, my family, my home or Jinx. The one person, (in this millennia) to care about me. The one person, outside of the Titans, who doesn't care that I'm a part-super robot. The one person who I feel I can trust with all my secrets, all my hopes, and all my dreams.

So even though I know that every time I see her I risk everything I know, I still go. And even though I know that eventually I'll have to come clean to my team about where I'm always disappearing to, I can't stop seeing her. I'd do anything just to spend my time with her. Just to be with my dirty little secret.

A/N: Somehow I don't think this came out quite how I thought it would. It seems slightly off kilter. Let me know if you feel that this doesn't fit with the general theme because if it's not just me who feels that way I may have to revamp this chapter.