No One..Abandoned and where is he? Feel like I'm playing some sick game of where is Waldo? Only Waldo is Mark? Uggh..is that indigestion I feel, ok I will go down stairs and he will be down there as he has a sleeping problem at times. And well, it will be ok, because I will give him a back rub and he will come back to join me upstairs. All will be ok!
Pain still bad so sat on couch looking around, ok that is better, wondering where on earth he can be, besides fact something is not quite right with him, like something really heavy weighing on his mind, could he be having second thoughts about our marriage or baby? Tears fell from her cheek.
Dark Streets of Holland Park...
Mark in dark overcoat walking the streets bewildered at the events of the last few days. How can I tell her? The last thing right now for us to face is the loss is my position at Chambers, especially with Christmas a month away. She will blame my termination on herself, he moment I felt free to express my wild side and I end up in a Hello pictorial naked. He stopped on a park bench with his head held, hands in pockets staring at the ground. Slipping right now out of the house she will sleep till I think of what my next step should be, I will find an answer.
5:00 A.M.
Taking a walk along the Millennium Bridge, thinking it was me, in one of my moments of insatiable lust I threw my kit off, and brought our family down just like that, just like the time when I was small and I..., I don't want to think of it." Just like the headmaster my equals belittled my wife and offered one ultimatum after the other. So when they offered me a way out of my marriage or the end of our partnership, I look the latter as life without her would be death to me. I lost one wife to my insensitivity, but not this time. Bridget is mine, we have belonged together since we were children. He smiled as a image of her face flashed across his mind when they discovered she was pregnant. And the fire...again my lustfulness has caused yet another calamity. But I can't control myself around her as I love her so much, perhaps shall shag proof entire house so as not to cause anymore fires. All common sense flies through the window for just one touch of her..And the baby, oh our baby, my words cannot express the joy and concern I have right now. How can I tell her I have been let go! Asking her to leave London, if Chris calls me back from Washington.
6:00 A.M.
Great he has a girlfriend on side while sure wife is snuggly tucked in so he can sneak out for a bit of eye rattling teeth tingling shag. Jude and Shazza were right, once you are married all of a sudden men begin to cheat, stability out, and the hunter instinct takes over. Yes, I can see it now stability at home and adventure abroad, how could I be so foolish? Oh, another pain, what is it? No more, Bridget Jones is not longer a fool, we will make our way without him, so she grabbed the banister holding her belly, fine I'm going to go find my suitcase and go pack. I've had enough, as I'm not perfect but who is? Slowly making it upstairs as pain does come and go.
6:30 AM Mark walks in to see Bridget descending staircase with suitcase in hand. He becomes pale, as a sick feeling takes over.
"Where are you going...?" Mark said with a break in his voice as that of boy.
"What do you mean me, you all of a sudden disappear, what for, some stick insect you have on the side? " "You must take me for a fool, and while I know nothing about boats and I burn houses down, that does not mean I'm a disaster...aster..."pain ripping again at her stomach.. Mark rushes towards her but she pushes him away holding her hand out and holding her abdomen.
"I'm going to my Mother and I never wanted to say that," as she tried to push past him.
"Bridget..Wait.. I don't have..I mean I don't know what to say..but I ..."
" Let me finish it for you, I'm leaving you because you are pathetic," she attempted to push past him as she made this declaration with tears streaming from her face.
He reached for her, "No, darling I love you..I went to take a walk to think about stuff, I was coming back to tell you what was on my mind about me, about the firm and discuss it with you," he said now with a tear and desperation coming from his face as he held onto her arm. But he noticed she was really looking pale.
"Bridget..," Bridget went white while grabbing her stomach.."No.. No.. "And she fell to floor in fetal position..Mark noticed hemorrhaging and picked her up and placed her on the couch while he wrapped her in a blanket.
"Bridget..No..it can't be..," he called the ambulance he was keeping it together but was absolutely in state of panic.
She was in shock and stared at him in absolute fear, as they took her to emergency room, and Mark making long strides towards those doors of the examining room.
"Can't I go in there?" The pushed him back as he watched the big steel doors separate him from his wife. He was kept from trespassing and it was killing him inside.
"No..no the Doctor will be with you in a minute, the waiting room is down the hall." She pointed but Mark stood there in shock..she thought I was leaving her. Again, I've wounded her and made her feel less than she is..
The minutes ticked like hours..Please let her be ok and the baby..Please I feel my our world crashing upon us..
Dr. Smith walks out.."Mr. Darcy.."
Doctor is she ..is she ok!
"Well, she is ok but she has lost a lot of blood..."
"But her and the baby," Mark said broken up and the doctor placed his hand on his shoulders.
"The baby didn't make it, and well the next 24 hours will be important for her, because of her blood loss," he said. "We will come and get you when we have her settled in ICU. Mark looked towards the windows, suddenly a downpour and and thunder, to top this gray day of loss.
Mark fell to the chair with his head low...sobbing a deep sob. "No I ..I did this... I don't know what to say." His hands covered his face as he could not hold back the cutting grieving that caused him to shutter inside. "I'm sorry Bridget, so sorry..." "Forgive me please.."