A/N -Same disclaimer as before
That blue pick-up haunted my dreams, it preoccupied my nightmares. I knew it had some other meaning, if only I could figure out what it was. My restless sleep became obcessed with the previous event, replaying over and over until one day I saw nothing.
My eyelids opened slightly, and as a sliver of sunlight glared through the crack I quickly shut my eyes. I groaned softly, as the pain began to emerge and, blinked my eyes several times in order to adjust to the bright lights filling my room. I heard someone say, "She's awake!" and I think it was Billy, but when I looked towards the sound all I saw was at least a half dozen doctors and nurses rushing towards me. I laid my head back and tried to wish the pain away.
About a half hour later I was alone again, and the bits of information I heard I began piecing together.
"Crash…."
"-other two not doing so well."
"This one's lucky to be alive."
"Shattered wrist…fractured collarbone…a couple broken ribs…a concussion…and a lot of cuts and bruises."
I shook my head at it all, wishing it was all a dream. As I heard the door open, my thoughts turned to Jeff. I looked up expectantly, only to find Amy and Billy walk through the door. They rushed over to my bed both talking at once, but they stopped once they saw the confused look on my face. Amy's face fell.
"She doesn't know," she turned to Billy, then looked back down to me. "Oh honey, I'm sorry…I'm so sorry."
"Sorry about what…?" I questioned. "What's going on? Where's Jeff? Amy? Billy? Answer me."
"Jessica," Billy said softly, taking my hand into his. "Honey…I don't know how to put this." He exchanged glances with Amy.
"Well find a way!" I said through gritted teeth.
"Jess," Amy whispered. "That truck that hit you, it was Matt's truck. Him and Jeff were inside, and when they saw your car they turned and tried to get out the way, you hit the side and they went directly into a tree on the side of the road. They're here, honey, in the hospital, but they haven't woken up yet." I started sobbing and shaking uncontrollably. Amy leaned down to comfort me, but I screamed at her and Billy to get out. She turned and gave me a sad look, before she left the room, as I lay there and let the tears just fall.
I stayed in that room, in that bed for another week before I was allowed to leave. During that time I hadn't said a word to anyone, I refused all company and visitors. When they finally let me leave, Amy was by my side and I only said one word to her, "Where?"
"Third floor, first door to your right."
Amy road up the elevator with me, and walked behind me as I slowly made my way towards room 321. I turned the handle to the door and it creaked as I lightly pushed it open. The sight I saw next nearly broke my heart. The room contained two beds, a chair between the two and another on the outer sides of the bed, on the beds lay two of the most important men in my life, hooked up to a bunch of wires, barely breathing. A hand came to my mouth, as my heart sank and I dropped to my knees in the doorway. I covered my hands in my face and silently wept on the floor.
The nurse cam up to Amy, who was still behind me and asked if I was alright. "Just leave her," Amy told her. "She needs this."
I eventually got up off the floor and ran a hand through my hair. I walked to Jeff's bedside quietly and softly , as if not to disturb them. But as I took Jeff's hand in mine a thought came to my head, What about the baby?
I turned to Amy and said, "What about the baby?"
She looked at me, not saying anything for awhile. She pursed her lips together and sighed. "Jessica, I'm sorry but it's gone."
I sank into the chair between the beds, unable to cry anymore. The tears had fell so much this past week I was now unable to cry. I just sat there, with a blank expression on my face, willing Matt and Jeff to get up. I was there as the hours turned into days, and then weeks, not moving from their sides, with that same expression in tact.