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At around two weeks from the time I entered that room, Matt awoke into consciousness.
He looked around the dimly lit room, at Amy asleep to the side of him, before fixating his eyes upon me at his other side.

"Jessy Bessy?" he mumbled softly. "Owww, my head." I gave him a small smile as I walked around to shake Amy awake.

All I heard before I went to get a doctor was, "Omg, Matt! I love you, don't ever do that again."

I told the nurse about the current events in room 321 and a doctor was quickly paged. After examining Matt, his synopsis was somewhat similar to mine, with basically no permanent damage done. However, the same could not be said for Jeff. That was around the time we were told that if he didn't wake up soon, we might not ever get him back.

I continued day by day to stay at his bedside, only leaving when Matt or Amy dragged me away to shower and change clothes, while the other remained with Jeff. I refused to let him stay by himself. One, two months passed and there was still no change in Jeff's condition. Some of the doctors were starting to give up hope, but I would never leave his side.

Matt sat with me one night, holding my hand in his. "Jessica, you need rest. You can't keep putting yourself through this day by day. It's not healthy."

"Matt," I looked at him through bloodshot eyes. "I cannot leave his side. He needs me to be here. He's gonna get better. He's gonna make it through this."

"Jess," Matt said, solemnly. "I've known Jeff all his life and know him probably better than anyone else, and I know his is a fighter. He's overcome so many things in his life and taken so many chances, it still amazes me. But, Jessica," he paused, taking in deep breath, "as strong as Jeff is, I don't know if he'll be able to overcome this."

"Matt!" I cried. "How can you say that? He'll be fine…Matt…he'll be fine…he has to be…"

Matt took me in his arms, trying to calm me down. My whole body was numb, so that I couldn't even feel it shaking. I fell asleep in Matt's arms that night and then next morning I awoke to voices, Matt's and a doctor's. I kept my eyes closed as I listened to what they were discussing.

"-but Mr. Hardy, you have to make a decision. Do you want to keep him alive and hooked up to these machines in order to live, or did you want to pull the plug and let God's will take over from there."

I almost cried out, but I tried to hold my composure, and continued to listen.

"With all due respect," Matt said. "That decision isn't only mine to make. So just leave for now."

"Well, I do hope you come to a decision soon, sir." the doctor replied. "Sooner, rather than later."

I opened my eyes, to see a flash of white exiting the room. Matt looked down at me as I stretched a little and gave me an attempted smile. "You heard that didn't you."

I nodded.

"I'm sorry." Matt apologized. "You didn't need to hear that."

I sighed, looking at the calendar that hung above Jeff's bed. It had been almost five months since the accident, Matt and I were doing great, if only Jeff would come around.

"Matt," I said, slowly. "What if he's right? What if we're just keeping Jeff here only to be hooked up to machines for the rest of his life. I mean what if were the ones being selfish, keeping him here on earth when he's supposed to be doing bigger and better things? Like, we could be holding him back from his destiny, just because we can't let go." I ran a hand through my hair, something I had been doing a lot recently.

Matt tilted his head to look at me, not sure of what to say. After a few moments, the words came to him. "Jessica, I know how much you love my brother. I can see it in your eyes everyday. So with that I'm telling you, that what ever you decide to do about Jeff, I will fully support your decision."

I sat in that room the next couple days, thinking over everything. Life and death. Wishing I could at least understand something. Nevertheless, three days after my conversation with Matt, my decision was made. At 8:30am, the following Monday, Jeffery Nero Hardy was to be taken off life support.

For the rest of the week after Matt and I had told the doctors my decision, I was a complete nervous wreck. I had changed my mind about that decision so many times, the words started to lose all meaning to me. Also, during that week more people came to visit Jeff, than I have seen passing through an airport. It was clear that he was loved, so why was he being taken away.

Sunday night, after Matt and Amy left for the night, I closed the door and sat next to Jeff's bed in the dark. A pale moonlight filled the room, and I sat there, the only sound other than my breathing was Jeff's machines. I took Jeff's left hand in mine and tears were falling. As I caressed his warm, well-worn hand, I began to speak.

"Oh, Jeff. This can't be happening. What am I supposed to do, I can't handle losing you. I'm so sorry for everything I've done. I would've loved you better if only I had known. I wish it had been easier, but that won't happen now. I can't find a reason to let go of you, and I know I don't want to Jeff. I know you're stronger than this, you can pull through. You HAVE to pull through. I need you in my life, I don't know what I'd do with out you by my side. You're so crazy and insane, but I still love all of you with every little bit of my heart. We were supposed to have a family, Jeff, I was pregnant. We were going to have a baby. I was so excited and nervous to tell you, but I never even got a chance. You were both taken away from me so fast. I've lost a baby, I can't take losing you too. Jeff! Wake up, please. Heaven has enough angels up there, I need you, my angel here on earth. I want to watch you soar without wings again, defying all odds. Baby, I love you so much and this has been tearing my up inside. I don't eat, I hardly sleep, and I haven't left your side in months. Is this not enough? How much more do I need to prove I need you here with me…I don't know what else I am to do, Jeff. I…I…I just don't know…" I closed my eyes for a second. "Jeff, what about the plans we had, what you promised. How can you take it all back? You promised" I cried. "YOU PROMISED!"

I put my head down n the edge of Jeff's bed, never letting go of his hand. I was awoken the next morning by Matt's gentle shaking.

"Jess," he said. "It's almost 8, I think you may want to get up."

Sighing, I got up, and let Jeff's hand slip out of mine. I walked to the sink, in the adjacent bathroom and washed my face. I didn't bother looking in the mirror. I did not want to see my pain stricken face. Walking back out into the room, I saw Matt sitting by Jeff's side, whispering to him, with tear-filled eyes. I stayed back, watching careful not to interrupt. Amy from behind, wrapped an arm around my shoulder, and we looked on as we let Matt say goodbye. Amy was next to go, and although she was only in there a short time, I'm sure she found peace in what she had to say. As Amy emerged from the room, I couldn't help but regret what I was doing. I walked into the room, stood at the end of the bed, and looked down at Jeff. He was peaceful, but then something inside me snapped.

"No, no, no!" I screamed. "I changed my mind. Leave him alone. Let him stay! I can't do this."

"Jess," Matt put his arms around me. "Calm down."

"No Matt!" I replied. "I can't do it, it's not right. I love him so much!"

"I know you do, honey." Matt smiled. "And Jeff does too. Just remember, whatever happens next is God's will."

With that the doctors began coming in the room, getting ready for this to take place. I watched in awe as wires were taken out and machines turned off. At the stroke of 8:30 am, Jeff was taken off his ventilator, and I cried out a soft, "No!" We all looked on, I had expect Jeff to pull through. As the seconds passed and nothing happened, I turned and collapsed into Matt.

A/N - Don't hate me just yet...lol...just wait til the next chap...and don't forget to review.